Her fingers tickled as she moved them across the smooth paper. She blinked back tears and her heart sank, she read over it again. 'No' she thought. 'This can't be happening. This can't be happening to me!'

She lay her head against the pillow, that two seconds ago was supporting her so she could sit up. Someone came bursting threw her door. She whipped around to look at the tall raven haired figure that watched her.

The teenage boy sat next to her. "Hey. Are you going to tell me what's wrong?" He put some of her ginger and red hair behind her ear. "I-I-" she couldn't seem to say the words that were taunting her.

"I mean-" she sniffed. "-It's just-" he interrupted her. "You can't believe they're really gone. The people who've loved you for all these years, just gone. And you weren't there with them when they did die. And you just know that if you were there-then they wouldn't be-" it was her turn to cut him off. "-dead." He nodded.

"James, thank you. Thank you." He hugged her. "Come on. We better go down to breakfast before they think we're up to something" they both started to laugh. Lily wiped the tears off the face that belonged to her broken heart.

"James?" he looked up at her, instead of his large feet. "Can I ask you something?" she said causally.

"You just did" there was silence. "Can I ask you something else?" she asked. "You just did" he said smirking. "UGH! Can I ask you something besides this question, and the two before it?"

"Sure." He smiled. She smiled back-but it soon faded away. "How do you know what it feels like-" he cut her off.

"-to lose someone?"

"Yah?" she asked.

"You'd be surprised how dangerous parks are, or at least when there are…" he looked up. He saw that she was confused. "My little sister died, she was seven." They stopped walking, he turned to face her. "Mom and Dad had left to go shopping it was Christmas Eve, they said to watch over Amelia, she asked if she could play in the park-I said 'Yes'. I didn't go with her. It was a full moon." Lily felt like crying after she saw James' eyes.

"This werewolf got to her-ripped her to shreds. They say-" he was trying to fight back tears. "They say she put up a good fight. I'll never forgive myself for being so god damn stupid!" he yelled. There was silence threw-out the corridor.

It was true. James had lost his sister three years ago. And Lily had just got news that her muggle parents were dead. Fortunately or not, depending on how you look at it, Lily's sister-Petunia- was still alive.

Things were quiet around the castle for the next four days. Rumors of Death Eaters rising were spreading threw every newspaper- alas it made all the students talk. Rumors of Slytherin's parents being Death Eaters were the most common.

"Sirius!" someone called. He turned around "Lily!" he called, hurry up. She ran up to him.

"What's the rush?" she asked. "I need to meet James somewhere in ten minutes. An-"

"Can I come?" she asked. "No, you can't come."

"Why not?" there was silence. "It's a guy thing." He lied. "Oh fine be that way. You're probably looking at porn or something gross like that. Oh what?" she asked looking at his confused face. "porn?" he asked.

"My god. You've never- oh well. Anyways it's a uhm muggle thing…I guess" her voice trailed off. "Anyways" she said gripping her book bag and taking two things out of it. "For James" she said handing him a- "You got him a snitch?" he asked.

"Yah his initials are carved into it." She smiled. "I want a girlfriend so she'll make one for me!" he beamed.

"Sirius that's absolutely ridiculous. A.) that's the wrong reason to have a girlfriend. B.) You aren't a seeker you're a Chaser and C.) You do have girlfriends. It's just the problem is you have a different one every week." She explained.

"Oh and can you give this to Remus for me." She handed him a letter. It was folded four times. "Yah," he said. "What is it?"

"A note" she yelled before running up the stairs she had just come down. "Don't look at it" she said looking down at him. Sirius nodded.

As he walked out the castle he looked at the note.

Remus I know.

P.S.

Sirius, I told you not to read this!