Disclaimer- I do not own Inuyasha. I wish I did
I also do not own these Evanescence song lyrics. Once again, I wish I did.
If I did own either of these, I would be filthy stinkin' rich and wouldn't be writing fanfics when instead I would be managing the band and writing new volumes of the manga.
A/N: OK, peoples. I finally got off (well actually, got back on) my lazy ass and started typing this chapter. Good for me! Now, on with the story.
Chapter Two-
"Imaginary"
I linger in the doorway
Right at the moment when you start to stir from sleep, you realize the difference between dreams and reality. You realize the total impossibility of the things that happen inside your mentality. You come to differentiate between the things that are really happening, and what your mind has created. You realize how far-fetched your dreams really are. But in that one moment, you also realize that sometimes, they are your only escape from the horrors of the truth; of real life.
Of alarm clock screaming, monsters calling my name.
"Please, don't leave yet." Kagome called out to me weakly, as I unknowingly glided away from her. It was against my will. I didn't want to leave yet. I couldn't deal with the harsh reality of my life.
Let me stay...
I struggled to stay within my daughter's presence, the incessant nagging of my alarm clock becoming clearer and clearer, pulling me further and further into consciousness.
"Okaa-san. Okaa-san?" I heard a voice calling me, not realizing who it was.
Where the wind will whisper to me;
Where the raindrops as they're falling, tell a story.
"Okaa-san. Hello? Earth to Okaa-san!" His voice was pulling me slowly and completely back into awareness of my surroundings, its increasing clarity leading me to whom it belonged to.
I yawned. "Souta-chan?" And in that instant I remembered: Children have to go to school. As I opened my eyes at a snail's pace, I saw my son, already dressed for school, along with his jacket and book bag.
"You overslept." He said, deprecatingly, "You have to drive me toschool." If I wasn't so tired, he would get punished for using that tone of voice with his elders. I nodded sleepily and climbed out of the bed. Whether I wanted to or not, I had to leave my dream behind....
I had been consumed in my dreams, wanting to see my daughter again, as any mother would. Souta left the room, as I trudged over to my dresser to find some clothes.
In my field of paper flowers,
And candy clouds of lullaby...
"Okaa-san! OKAA! Wake up! Please! Okaa-san!" I could not hear his cries, nor see him crawling into the front seat of the car, as it continued to spiral out of control through the empty street near the school.
Kagome laughed happily, picking flowers and plant life of every color and shape imaginable from the meadow. I laughed along with her, as she threw them up in the air, and they rained down on us, all transformed into sakura blossoms.
I lie inside myself for hours, and watch my purple sky fly over me.
"Okaa-san! Wake up!" He shouted, tears emitting from his eyes, trying to steer the car out of harm's way. "Someone! Help!" He turned the wheel madly, trying to swerve out of the way of a telephone pole.
A terrible crash was heard as the lightning appeared. The sakura blossoms were no longer beautiful flowers, but burning blue flames that fell violently from the sky, destroying the field of once beautiful vegetation. I ran to find shelter, as Kagome just stood watching in bewilderment as the blossoms rained down in a mass of destruction.
Don't say I'm out of touch,
With this rampant chaos-- your reality.
The deafening crash of the thunder and lightning was heard, even outside of my mentality, as the car went flying into the pole, crumbling from the impact. The airbag inflated, and sent Souta soaring back. Sirens resounded, the police cars and ambulances accumulating at the scene. Souta coughed fiercely, blood trickling from his mouth.
"Kagome, come over here with me! You'll get hurt if you stay there!"
"It. Doesn't hurt." She said, the scorching blossoms landing on her, burning her pale, fragile skin.
"Mom. Go get Souta." she said gently, staring out at the sky. "He needs you more than I do."
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge:
The nightmare I built my own world to escape.
"No, I can't leave you here to die, Kagome. Please, come over here!"
"Okaa-san, it doesn't matter. Please. Go help Souta."
"I can't leave you here! What if I never see you again? I can't bear the thought."
"Okaa-san!" she called, fiercely "Just go! Please!"
"No, I. I can't."
In my field of paper flowers,
And candy clouds of lullaby...
I was once again drifting away from her, slipping back into reality. Seeing it from that distance, I saw the proportions of the vast amount of damage. Everything in my paradise was gone, a pallid wasteland.
"Goodbye, Okaa-san."
"No, let me stay! I can't go back."
I lie inside myself for hours,
And watch my purple sky fly over me.
The IV was in his arm, his pasty white face looking content. Neither him, nor I had learned of my physical condition. He lay there, his eyes fixated on the glowing television screen high on the wall.
"Higurashi Souta?" the nurse said, entering the hospital room.
"Hai?" he replied feebly, but still looking in good spirits.
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming.
Cannot sleep for the fear of silent nights...
"No. Let me..I can't..Back" The mumbles escaped from my mouth softly.
"She's still mumbling, doctor. And her brainwaves are very active."
"Hai."
"Are you sure it's a coma?"
"It appears so."
A nurse entered the room, pushing a wheelchair to facilitate Souta'sweak body. He was immobilized by shock as he saw me laying in the bed, comatose, mumbling to myself.
"Okaa-san."
"Don't make me leave."
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming.
"Okaa-san.Don't go. Kagome's already gone, and if you left, I couldn't..." He sniffed. "Okaa-san, can you hear me?"
"I can't leave now... Kagome..."
"Okaa-san! Kagome's dead! It's me, Souta!" he reprimanded me. "Please, Okaa-san, Wake up..."
"You have to wake up now... You're still alive." Kagome said gently, looking straight into my eyes, piercing my soul, my very being, with the gaze of her chocolate-brown eyes.
The goddess of imaginary light...
"Okaa-san..."
"I have to stay...Not abandon...Kagome..."
A/N: Whoa. Almost seven pages. That's um. A lot. I need to get a life. Sigh. Oh well. I write these during Health class, so, It's really not a complete waste of my time.
Next Chapter- "My Immortal"