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Chapter 4
After Kagome had fully
recovered, the group continued on. The group was sitting together
speaking. Inuyasha noticed that Miroku and Sango were sitting quite
close to each other. To further Inuyasha's astonishment, Inuyasha
realized that Miroku and Sango were holding hands. Inuyasha looked up
at Kagome with longing. "Why do I wish I was in Miroku's position
and Kagome in Sango's? Why do I want her to move closer to me?"
Kagome, who was now observing the interlocked hands of Miroku and
Sango. looked up at Inuyasha, and found that he was looking at her.
Their eyes met, and both began to blush. Inuyasha looked away then
stood up and said, "I'm going for a walk."
Inuyasha quickly
got up and left. Not too long after, Kagome said that she was tired
and got up as well. Instead of going to bed, Kagome went in search of
Inuyasha. When he had left, he seemed to be upset, and she wanted to
know why. After looking for a while, she realized that if Inuyasha
didn't want to be found, she would never find him. Kagome decided
that she should give up, and sat down against a tree. She sat there
for a while thinking of Inuyasha, when she thought she heard
something up above. Looking up, she saw Inuyasha sitting in the tree
above her.
"Inuyasha," she called, surprised that she had
actually found him. He looked down and then looked away again, as if
looking towards the stars. "Inuyasha," she called again, "what's
wrong."
"Nothing!" retorted Inuyasha.
"Something's
bothering you, please tell me."
"Why should I tell you?" he
asked.
"I'm your friend, I can help," she said a bit
hurt.
"You can't help me," he said softly.
"Maybe I
can, try me," Kagome said.
"How can she help me when the
problem is her," he thought. "I can't tell her my problem… I
used to want Kikyo, but now all I can think about is Kagome."
Inuyasha looked down at Kagome and was about to tell her to go away,
but the look on her face made him reconsider. "Can we just talk?"
"Sure," Kagome said, happy to know that she would be close to
Inuyasha. And with that, Inuyasha reached a hand to Kagome. Kagome
took his hand and Inuyasha effortlessly lifted her up onto the limb
that he was on. Placing Kagome against the trunk of the tree,
Inuyasha turned to face her.
"So," he said.
"So," she
said.
After a minute of silence, Inuyasha decided to try and make
some sort of conversation. "Did you see Miroku and Sango?"
"Yeah,
I did," she responded with a chuckle. "What do you think about
Sango and Miroku together?"
"I think the monk will be after
another girl the first chance he gets."
"Inuyasha?"
"Yeah,
Kagome?"
"Were you thinking about Kikyo earlier?"
"No,"
responded Inuyasha surprised. "Why do you think that?"
"I
don't know, you just seemed to get that look in your eye. When you
looked at Sango and Miroku, your eyes seemed to have this look of
longing."
"I wasn't thinking about Kikyo, Kagome," replied
Inuyasha as he started to blush. "I can't tell her that I was
thinking about her, can I?" he thought to himself.
"Oh, well,
what were you thinking about then?" she asked.
But before
Inuyasha had a chance to answer, a bird in a nearby tree startled
her. Kagome lost her balance and started to fall, but Inuyasha
grabbed her and pulled her close to him and whispered in her ear, "I
was thinking about you, Kagome."
Kagome turned to face Inuyasha,
and was surprised to find him blushing. "What were you thinking
about me, Inuyasha?"
"I-I was… I was," he stammered.
"You
were…?" Kagome asked.
"Nothing, I wasn't thinking
anything," Inuyasha said quickly.
"Fine, don't tell me!"
Kagome said hurt. "He was probably thinking about how I was nothing
like Kikyo." Then to Inuyasha she added, "Now Inuyasha, please
let me go, I want to get out of this tree!" said Kagome.
"No,
Kagome!" he said while grabbing her arm.
"Let me go!" Kagome
yelled. Stunned, Inuyasha let go, and when he did, Kagome came close
to falling off the tree for the second time. Luckily, Inuyasha caught
her around the waist before she had fallen. "Inuyasha, can you
please explain why you've been acting the way you do? You've been
acting differently. If you don't tell me, I will go to the well,
and I won't come back!" Then Kagome thought, "I couldn't
leave him, I would come back."
"I… Well, it's just…"
"What
is it!"
'I think I love you, Kagome. But with Kikyo alive
again, I'm not sure how I feel!' Inuyasha thought. "No, I don't
love Kagome. She's just a friend." Then aloud he said, "It's
Kikyo." "Well, that's not a complete lie," he added to
himself.
"So it is about, Kikyo," Kagome said softly. Her
heart started to break, "Inuyasha would never even spend that much
time thinking about me," she thought.
"Why do I feel this
way?" Inuyasha asked himself. "She's just a friend."
"Why
am I upset? Inuyasha's just a friend, I should try and comfort
him," thought Kagome. "Inuyasha?" she said.
"What?" he
asked.
"I'm sorry about you and Kikyo."
"I'm sorry
too."
"Huh? Why are you sorry?" asked Kagome
confused.
Instead of responding, Inuyasha turned and hugged
Kagome. Then, taking her in his arms, he took her to the ground, and
before releasing her, he whispered in her ear, "thank you, Kagome."
And with that final word, Inuyasha turned and walked back to camp.
Kagome stood there for a minute or two, stunned. A yawn broke her out
of her trance, and she realized just how tired she really was. She
then headed back to camp and went to sleep.
From his spot in the
corner, Inuyasha watched Kagome. He felt his stomach melt, "I
really do love her," he thought, "but she would never love me
back. Not with the way I treat her."
While Kagome was lying down
to sleep, she was thinking. She glanced at Inuyasha, and longed to go
over to him and run her hands through his silver hair. "I love
him," she finally admitted to herself, "but he still loves
Kikyo."
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