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I am throwing punches in the air...
.:. insert picture Adam crying alone in the classroom after Joan left .:.
Adam:Wearily, I lean against the desk in the now solitary and quiet classroom. I cry like I've never cried before.
I should have expected this. Deep down inside, I knew that if Jane found out, it would ruin everything. But I had clung to the pointless hope that that wouldn't be the case. And I have myself to blame for that, that's the worst part. Not only the guilt and the shame, now I have to live with the blame too. It feels like the weight of the whole world has settled on my shoulders. It's pressing down on me, making it impossible for me to move.
I stand there and cry until no more tears are coming. The image of her face, the look of betrayal and hurt in her eyes has etched itself permanently into my mind's eye. It makes me sick to my stomach. I storm from the classroom to the nearest toilet and retch until the contents of my stomach have been emptied completely. Panting, I kneel in front of the toilet bowl, wiping my mouth. I lean my back against the wall of the cubicle, unable to gather the energy to get up. What should I get up for? There is nothing left in my life now that is worth facing. I just close my eyes and wish I could die right here.
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Vertical Horizon
All Of You
So you say
I'm too quiet
Holding things
Up in my head
I say so much
But you don't buy it
I don't want to wake up
Alone in my head
Oh say that you'll never go now
Don't go
Don't go
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I need a lot of you
I want a lot of you
I need a lot of you
All of you
I tend to think
I'm getting nowhere
I drag it out
Whenever I can
Someday
I'll get back there
And find the world
You dropped from your hand
Oh but some things you'll never show now
I know
I know
Chorus
Watch you coming up
Out on top now
Watch you coming up
Chorus