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That was the beginning of something, what I call it, wonderful. I would have never imagined how good it was to be with Seto. Little did I know how wonderful this person could be. Of course, he didn't make a u-turn in his personality, he still was mean and selfish most of the time, but what no one really knew, he wasn't 24/7 and therefore, I've got to learn the soft side of a supposed to be cold-hearted man.
For one thing, Seto wasn't predictable. He liked catching me unaware. Sometimes he would just show up behind me when I didn't expect it the most. But he was a gentle person who showed me love. I had been with some guys before, even Tristan but that wasn't the same. I didn't let them really near me. Just a simple touch, like when holding hands, could be too much. With Seto my hand automatically sought for his, I couldn't help it.
I never realized that I changed Seto's life, though. It never dawned on me that slowly I was becoming everything to him. He built his whole world around me. He made no decision without thinking of me. I was standing all above everything else. I didn't realize in the first place.
Everything. A big word.
Our relationship was building itself further and further. I wasn't his personal assistant anymore but I enjoyed just being around him, even if he was working madly. I was at University by autumn and used to study at his home in the evenings most of the time. Life was as most comfortable as it could have been.
Seto Kaiba was the first person ever who was allowed making love to me and I won't regret that. I remember that we were talking about ex lovers and I was blushing furiously when I told him that I was still, well, innocent. He took it with a smile. A proper one, very rare. He wasn't openly talking about his past lovers but I knew so far that he had had a few. It didn't really matter to me.
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Flashback
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Seto gazed up from his notebook watching the girl on his bed. Serenity was lying on her stomach, a huge book lying in front of her, making notes with a pencil which she used to pad continuously on her book during reading. Seto silently made his way to the girl and flopped himself next to her on the bed.
Slightly startled she gazed at him in surprise. She hadn't seen him coming.
"That's some bullshit you're trying to study." He commented seeing the pages in her book.
"Nice vocabulary." She stated darting her eyes back to her book. "That's art. Did you know that your whole mansion is built in Roman style?"
"Did you know that you're beautiful?" Choosing to ignore her question he closed the distance between them and rolled her on her back, with himself on top. His fingers graced along her jaw line before he bent down to kiss her. His hand moved along her arms down to her waist, hovering at the hem of her shirt before he snaked his fingers underneath. His lips moved to her neck, loving the feel of especially that skin.
"Seto, I've got to study." The young woman said softly pushing her boyfriend until he looked up annoyed.
"You always say that." He commented, monotone.
"Because it's true." She replied with a smile while her hands brushed through strands of his chestnut hair.
"Yeah, and all the other excuses you come up with." He smirked before he leant down until their noses almost touched. His gaze softened. "I want to make love to you. And I mean properly."
She knew that he wanted to show her his love and after they had been together for nearly three months now, she could understand that he slowly got impatient.
"I know." She smiled. "And we will. Soon. Right now, I really got to study, I've got exams tomorrow."
"Hm." With a silent groan he got off her and climbed off the bed. "I'm taking a shower." With that he left.
Serenity wasn't able to study anymore and she knew that he deserved what he longed for. She wanted it too but the scary person she was held back her passion so far.
When Seto appeared back from his shower he was only clad in his usual black trousers but no shirt. His hair still wet, he had a towel around his shoulders that he used to dry off his hair after entering his bedroom again before he let the towel mindlessly fall on the floor. Opening his wardrobe he was looking for a shirt. He was looking adoringly sexy and of course, the girl highly felt attracted to him.
Shutting her books she laid them down on the ground and moved to her boyfriend's side. He turned to look at her with raised eyebrows while she let her hands wander in a mere touch across his chest around his neck.
"What if you just leave off a shirt?"
Kaiba smiled realizing the seductive look in her big eyes and bent down to kiss her. His arms wrapped themselves around her, tight, no space between their bodies and soon he laid her down into the softness of his bed. Desperately wanting to show her how much she meant to him, he kissed and touched Serenity the most gentle he had ever touched anything. Like he was handling a doll of porcelain that could break any moment.
That night she wouldn't break, not in his hands. She embraced what was waiting for her.
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End of flashback
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No regrets.
It wasn't about sex. It was about sharing intimacy in love. I can honestly say that what I've experienced with Seto, I felt as one of the most wonderful things in my life. Of course, it wasn't always like that. As in every relationship routine came also but I can't say that I ever hadn't felt loved within his arms. It wasn't always special but always caring.
Another prospect of our relationship was my brother. Of course, he had his problems with Kaiba being my boyfriend but being everything to Kaiba, he was trying to get along with Joey. He fought for me and his own position as my boyfriend even when it came to my family. His family was no problem. Mokuba was a sweet guy with a pure heart. He loved his brother dearly anyway and I guess he always liked me.
But don't imagine our life as just lovely and beautiful, which certainly was it not. Seto Kaiba was still Seto Kaiba, a person who was moody, mean in his choice of words, selfish when it came to material things and all in all I liked to call him 'my god of arrogance'. Every other day we had a row over something. He would get nerved by my social behaviour and idealistic attitude and I would cry when he got mean and was selfishly talking about anyone.
I remember like it was yesterday when we had our first anniversary. Seto was supposed to pick me up at seven in the evening, so that we could go for dinner and have a nice evening. I've even bought him a neck chain with an oriental sign showing the letters of his first name in between a figure of a dragon. But finally, when the clock showed nine, I was still waiting for Mr. Kaiba and fuming by the way. I decided to check where that bastard of a boyfriend had been!
Approaching the Kaiba mansion I stomped inside until I reached his office and pushed the doors open. There he was. Sitting as usual on his damn desk and typing on his notebook. I should have known.
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Flashback
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"So this is how important I am to you!" Serenity shrieked upon seeing Seto, who slowly gazed up at her and sighed, annoyed. But she wasn't finished.
"You were supposed to pick me up at seven and now it is half past nine, and where are you? Sitting on your ass in front of your damn fing notebook! That's really nice! Couldn't you at least call?"
Seto growled at her raging presence. "I don't have time for this now, Serenity."
"You don't have time for this now? This? I am a 'this', huh? I thought this day would be as special for you as it is for me but it seems like I was wrong. You don't care in the slightest."
"Damn it Serenity!" He slammed his flat hand on his desk. "No! I do not care right now, got that?"
Tears stung behind her eyes when she rummaged through her bag and pulled out the present she had bought for Kaiba.
"You are such a mean bastard." She hissed as disgusted as she was by him at the moment.
"Well, surprise, surprise! You've known that before, darling! I told you I'm not the easiest to get along with and now, that you realize you can't handle me, maybe I'm not the right person for you. We are just... too different, I suppose." He calmly turned back to the screen of his notebook.
"If you say so." She hissed already in tears and threw the package at Kaiba, in result hitting his shoulder and falling on his notebook. He was ready to bite her head off but she was already gone.
The young woman wasn't far away. She had run straight to the next door outside, needing fresh air, and was now standing on some balcony. The view was breathtaking as always. It was a clear summer night and therefore, even for summer slightly cold. The wind blew softly and Serenity shuddered, dressed in only a short top. She watched like so often the ocean, how the waves crashed against the stony coast. She hugged herself and thought about the latest events.
Would it always be like that? Would they ever keep fighting over partly ridiculous things?
She hated it when Seto was like that. But she loved him though and it hurt. Her inner self clenched inside from the pain she was feeling, every time they had a row. How could he even say that? Yes, they were different. But that should not keep them from loving each other and they did love each other, didn't they? Seto did. She just knew it. And she did love him. So why couldn't they stop fighting?
How much longer were they able to take that until one of them would stop loving the other? Maybe he was right and she was fooling herself all the time. How could he say so easily, that he wasn't the right person for her? He was cold and he didn't care as much as she did. She would do the same. She wouldn't care anymore. And if he ever left her, then it should have been. Then it was their destiny. But to keep herself from tearing apart, she had to stop caring so much.
Another wave of cool air hit her skin when her sad eyes watched the night. The beautiful night. Seto was like the night. Dark and cold. Beautiful and soothing. Scary and mysterious. Wonderful and protective. She sighed silently when her tears had finally faded but also heard someone come outside. She supposed, and hoped, that it would be Seto. But she also feared it might be him and he might say, that she should finally leave his life. He would never say that. Her mind knew but her heart was so confused and scared.
Two arms wrapped themselves around her from behind and she felt the soothing pressure of Kaiba's body against hers. He bent his head down till his face was almost hidden in the crook of her neck. Tightly he held her against himself, as if he was afraid she would vanish in his embrace.
"I love you." He whispered in a sincere voice. "Don't leave me, ever."
Serenity could feel his unsteady breathing, a sign of his shaking feelings. She turned and swung her arms around him, hugging him. Her head was resting against his chest and she listened to his unsteady heartbeat while he was tightening his embrace around her again.
"You won't get rid of me, whatever you do." She said.
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End of flashback
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End of chapter two.