Ok, I've had a lot on my mind...so, this may be jumbled...I thought it was, but if you don't think so, then calm my nerves and tell me...I tried to make this as long as I could...and don't worry..the story isn't over yet! XD

Until Chapter 13:

March 21

Dear reader,

I'm no longer on Chemo. Isn't that wonderful news? They said that once again my cancer has backed down. Doesn't mean that it's gone for good. It could come back at any time. Hopefully not. I would like to just live the rest of my days in remission. And now that I and Ryou are not fighting anymore, things are back to normal.

Today, after my appointment, I rushed over to Ryou's house, caring a stuffed angel under my arms. "Ryou!" I screamed as I climbed the fence. I jumped over, landing on my feet. "Ryou! I'm here!" I screamed, jumping to my feet and fixing my beanie. Soon, I wouldn't have to wear it. I would have a full head of hair soon, and I wouldn't have to worry about it falling out. It would be snug and tight on my head. It would be short at first, yes, but it would be MY hair. Hair. Ah, how I miss it.

Ryou opened his apartment door and peaked his small little head out. "Zozo?" he asked, a smile creeping across his face. "Who is it!" I cringed a little, hearing Bakura scream. "Shut up Bakura!" I screamed as I neared their house. I tugged Ryou out the door and smiled. I gave him a hug then pushed the small angel into his arms. Ryou looked down at it with confused brown eyes. "What's this for Zozo? I don't have anything for you." He snuggled the angel to his chest and smiled up at me. "Don't worry Ryou Bear. It was nothing. Think of it as a very very early birthday present." I leaned back on my heels and grinned at him. Ryou just tilted his head to the side and smiled back. "Come on in Zozo. I and Bakura were watching T.V." Ryou pushed the door open and dragged Zozo in. "Bakura...Nozomi is here!" Ryou cried happily, shutting the door behind her. I wrinkled my nose in distaste, not wanting to be around the crazy lout. But then again, that crazy lout kicked the shiznit out of Rodnie. One good deed at least.

Bakura gave a grunt, not bothering to even look over his shoulder at me. His eyes were glued to the TV screen, watching large men jumping on each other in a ring.

"You know that's all fake right?" I asked, leaning on the coach behind him. Bakura just gave a grunt and continued to watch the false wrestling. I gave a sigh and rolled my eyes, not wanting to mess with the dunce moron. "So, Ryou. You still eating like you should be! Let me see your ribs! Actually, I shouldn't be able to see them." I lifted his shirt and inspected his chest and ribs. I pinched his skin and frowned. "You need to eat more..." I grabbed his hand and dragged him into the kitchen, planning on shoving as much food as I could into his mouth. I watched Ryou Bears face out the corner of my eye. I expected to see a frown, but instead I was gifted with a smile. Things were back to normal, and I'm grateful.

Until later reader...

Zozo

Ryou smiled to himself. That day, he was so happy that everything had gone back to normal. Nozomi always fussing about his health and eating habits. She was always worried about how much he ate or didn't eat. She would make sure that he was as fat as a pregnant whale.

"So, did you work on your speech yet?" Bakura asked, leaning back and closing his eyes. Ryou sighed and looked up at the clock.

It was already midnight, and he only had two more days till it was due. And not to mention the funeral was tomorrow. "I'm working on it Bakura...Don't worry about it. Something will come to me." He pushed the diary aside, making sure it was safely tucked under his mattress. He need some sleep, because tomorrow, he was sure he wouldn't get any.

April 10

I've done it again. I've waited forever to write. I've been so...occupied...But hey, you can't blame me. Me and Ryou Bear have been spending so much time together. Yesterday, we went to a family fun center. I've never had so much fun in my life. Me and Bakura, not Ryou, raced on the go carts, and of coarse, I won. The stupid moron didn't even make it around the first lap. I take it in his past life he didn't have cars.

Then, me and Ryou went into the video arcade, playing many games. "Dance?" I asked, looking at the dancing machine. (I'm sorry, but I don't play this game, I do believe someone called it DDR, if not, then please correct me) Ryou wrinkled his nose then smiled. "Zozo, I'm not good at this game...You're better off finding Tea and playing with her."

I shook my head and grabbed his hand. "Live a little Ryou Bear. Try it at least." So, he willingly stepped onto the platform then waited for me to get ready. "Enter the coins?" I asked, placing my feet on two of the squares. Ryou tugged out two tokens from his pocket, then shoved them into the slot. "Lets dance!" I cried. Throwing my hands into the air and giving a scream of delight. Ryou giggled, then began to dance around, trying to hit the buttons he was instructed. I smiled and began to dance around as well, my short natural bob bouncing around my ears. Yes, my hair is growing back!

To Ryou Bears surprise, he won that battle. I kept tripping over my own feet.

Afterwards, we went outside again and went on the water boats. This time I begged Bakura to come out and join us. I made sure I got him soaked to the bone, squirting him like crazy with my water gun. Ryou got me a few times, but I got him back. heh heh.

That's about it reader.

Zozo

Ryou straightened his tie and gave a sigh at his reflection. Yes, he looked good today, but for all the wrong reasons. Today was Nozomi's funeral. He was just glad that he didn't have to have a speech ready for this event. He didn't think that he would be able to stand in front of all those people and keep his composer. Just the thought of seeing her dead body laying all peaceful in her coffin, made him teary eyed.

"Suck it up Hikari...Don't start crying now." Bakura appeared in the room, wearing the same suit as his Aibou. "I can't help it Bakura. I miss her so much, and today, I get to see her again."

Bakura fell silent. He didn't know how this worked. Wasn't she already dead? How could you see her again?

"Come on Bakura. Let's go. Mrs. Haru is waiting for us out front."

Ryou stepped into the church and bowed his head. He didn't want to see the big scary coffin at the front of the room. "It's alright little Ryou." Mrs. Haru said, while patting his shoulder. Ryou looked up into the old woman's face and forced a smile. But the truth was, it wasn't alright.

Mrs. Haru lead Ryou down the isle, sitting him in the very font. "Little Ryou, fill free to cry." She cooed, handing him a travel size pack of tissues. Ryou took it gratefully, knowing that he would end up using the whole pack. He could already feel his tears well up behind his eyes. "Calm down Ryou." Bakura said throw their mind link, feeling the boys sorrow. Ryou shook his head, then wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. He needed to compose himself.

He looked around the room and almost fell out of his chair. Sitting across the room was Seto Kaiba himself, wearing a business suit and holding a handful of rose, making Ryou's daisies look pitiful. Next to Kaiba was Mokuba, who looked like he was having a hard time getting over the death of Nozomi.

Behind Seto and Mokuba, sat Yami no Yugi, Yugi, Tea, Joey,Tristin, Serenity, and Mai. They hall had somber looks on their faces, and held tissue packets like Ryou. Across from them sat Rodnie, wearing all black, including a veil. Ryou couldn't help but smile. Even Nozomi's enemies cared about her. Not that Rodnie was really an enemy, just a rival.

Tons of other kids from school crowded the room, boy admirers, teachers, and class friends. The room was filled with a sense of sadness, an air of depression. And it should be. Someone special had just died.

"Friends. Family. Thank you for joining the church today in this sad and sorrowful ceremony. Today, we come together to grieve the loss of a wonderful young lady, Nozomi Aiko Haru. Everyone, please bow your head in prayer."

Everyone bowed their heads, and clamped their hands together in prayer. Ryou lowered his head, but paid no attention to what the pasture was saying. His mind was too clouded with thought.

"May God acknowledge all her good deeds and give her admittance into heaven."

Why did her body reject it? It was perfect match!

"And may she look down today, and see all of those who love and miss her."

She was getting better. She almost won!

"May she rest in peace."

I loved her...Why! Why did she have to die!

"Amen."

I tried so hard to save her.

Everyone rose their heads, and sat back in their seats. The Pasture began by speaking in Korean, then switching to Japanese, then finally into English. "Now, if you will please form a single line by the coffin. You may now pass by her for one last look."

Ryou shook his head of his thoughts, he hadn't been paying attention at all. That's when he realized he had tears slipping down his face. "Little Ryou. Use the tissues." Mrs. Haru whispered, pulling one from her sleeve and gently wiping his pale cheeks. She gave him a weak smile then stood to her feet.

"Come on Ryou. Let's go see Nozomi." Bakura whispered, now sitting right beside him. Bakura jumped to his feet and eagerly rushing towards the line. Somehow, Ryou rose to his feet, and waited till he was the last person in line.

When it came time for him the see her, his knees were already shaking. He was the last one, and he could take all the time he wanted. He squeezed his eyes shut, then slowly opened them and looked down. His breath caught in his throat and he took a step backwards.

Flashback

"What's this for Ryou Bear?" Nozomi asked, fingering the small velvet box he had handed her.

"This is a get better present." he whispered from his own hospital bed. Nozomi gave a weak smile and bowed her head. "I didn't get you anything." She whispered. Ryou shook his head then shifted in his bed. "You don't need to get me anything. I'm happy with just your smile." he gave a wince a little as he shifted his hips.

"Thank you Ryou. You've done so much for me." Ryou saw the thin layer of tears filling her pale blue eyes and his smile faded. "Please don't cry Zozo."

"I can't help it. You've been trying so hard to keep me alive, and I can't repay you. And now, you've gotten me a get well present. This is all too much Ryou Bear!" She kicked her covers aside and slowly wobbled to her feet. Ryou gave a gasp and shot up in his bed, giving a groan of pain at the movement. "Get back in bed Zozo. You just had surg-" He was cut off when Nozomi rushed into his arms. "Thank you. Thank you Ryou Bear."

Ryou broke into another smile and patted her back in comfort.

"NOZOMI! Get back into your bed!" the nurse yelled, placing her hands on her hips. Ryou giggled, then stopped when she gave him a stern look. Nozomi giggled as well, but then crawled weakly back into her own hospital bed.

"Open it!" Ryou urged when the nurse left. Nozomi laughed then shook her head. "I don't like opening my gifts in front of people. It makes me uneasy." She placed the small velvet box into her lap and smiled.

"Oh come on Zozo, for me?" he clapped his hands together and gave her a puppy face. She gave a sigh. "How could I resist that face?"

She opened the box then gave a startled gasp. "Oh! Ryou Bear!"

Ryou took a steadying breath and then a step forward. He looked down again, she was pale and peaceful, and there sitting on her chest was an envelope, with his name written in large letters. Around her neck, sat his get well present.

A small glass angel sat on a thin gold chain, with a note inscribed on the back of it's wings. 'With love, Ryou.'

"Take it." Mrs. Haru whispered behind him. Ryou looked at her and gave a nod. His hand, slowly and shaking, reached for the small note that sat on her chest. "Read it Ryou. She worked on that poem for years, and when she met you, she knew what to write." Mrs. Haru urged, giving a small smile.

Mrs. Haru pointed to the podium. "Please, share with everyone her words."

Ryou looked up and gave a shaky sigh. "I-I don't know." He stuttered, looking up in fright. Mrs. Haru nudged him forward, trying to convince him. "Nozomi would want you to." Ryou gave another shaky sigh, then nodded his had. "Alright. I'll do it." he slowly walked up the podium, then stopped to stare at everyone in the room.

"Everybody. Little Ryou has a note from Nozomi!" Mrs. Haru shouted, causing everyone to stop and pause. Ryou cleared his throat and stared at all the faces, all of them staring and waiting. He looked down at his pale and shaky hands, holding the small white envelope.

"Go on Ryou." Bakura urged through their mind link. Ryou nodded his head, and began to tear the envelope open.

To my loving angel, Ryou Bear.

I don't want to leave you,

But if God calls me

I hope that you understand

That I can't say no.

I will always be with you,

If you keep me in your heart

And in your thoughts,

I will never be gone.

I'm fighting with all that I have to get better.

I hate this cancer,

I hate that it's hurting you.

I promised you that I will be strong

And that I will fight,

But please understand

That if God calls me

I can't say no...

Dear Ryou,

Before I die, before I leave this world, I write this in my own hand. I have never gotten the chance to tell you how much I care about you, and how much you mean to me. You have always been here for me. Through my rough and hard times. You have been my light in the darkness. I'm sorry that I must leave, but I will always be here for you. I will be your Angel. Watching over you every day and every night. I'm sorry Ryou Bear. I truly am.

I love you Ryou Bear. Love you.

P.S. tell Bakura I love him too, just not as much! XD

Love always,

Nozomi...A.K.A. Zozo

Ryou took a deep breath, then looked up. Silence filled the room, everyone staring up at Ryou. Mrs. Haru's head was bowed, a smile on her face and tears slipping down her cheeks. Ryou just stood there. Staring at the front row. Was he seeing things?

"Thank you Ryou Bear." The figure whispered. Ryou blinked. "Zozo?" She just smiled, then faded in light.

Ok, I was crying when I wrote this chapter...Just a note, the poem does NOT belong to me. Sadly, when I found it on the net, there was no name of the Author. No one famous, just some average American, but they didn't post their name. But at least I'm saying it's not mine. XP I just thought it would fit! Don't you think? Ok, read and review!