What Once Was Chapter 4: Don't Say You Love Me, an inuyasha fanfic

A/n: it kind of sucked when no one reviewed last chapter, but that's okay. I'll update just because I am.

What Once Was

Chapter 3: Don't Say You Love Me

Got introduced to you by a friend
You were cute and all that, baby you set the trend
Yes you did oh
The next thing I know we're down at the cinema
We're sitting there, you said you love me
What's that about?

She wouldn't ignore the fact, that a pestering inuyoukai wasn't exactly her idea of a typical stalker. It was so strange and pathetic at the same time. It was almost funny. And she couldn't help the ache she felt every time she saw him. Her heart writhed with pain. Regret. Hopelessness. Longing. But she couldn't think about things like that, there were other things she had to worry about. Kagome sighed and closed her locker after changing to get ready for track training.

"Hey Kagome!" someone called. She didn't even turn around, just kept walking. Really, Inuyasha took take a hint. He caught up to her eventually.

"Hey, Kagome. I still can't believe that you kicked Sesshomaru's ass during the summer!" he complimented. "And trust me, he doesn't take defeat easily.

"So I've heard," was the cold reply.

"God, what's wrong with you Kagome?" Inuyasha asked. "You have to stop being so far away from people. I'm telling you, it's for the best."

"Save it for someone who cares Inuyasha. I don't need your pep talks. I don't need YOU to tell how to live my life," Kagome whirled around and shot him an icy glare and walked away.

"Sheesh," Inuyasha slumped his shoulders in defeat. He tried to get more of a conversation out of Kagome, but it seemed it was impossible.

Kagome swiftly ran the warm-up and stretched. While waiting for the hurdles to be set up, she sat under the shade of a tree and leaned her back against it. Kagome didn't even bother acknowledging Sesshomaru who joined her.

"The tree will look nicer in spring when the blossoms are in bloom," he commented.

"Is that why you're here? To talk about nature?" Kagome inquired.

"I'm sure you've heard this from Inuyasha already, but you seriously need to let go of whatever is holding you back," Sesshomaru said. "You need to let other people help you."

"Look who's talking," Kagome snorted.

"I'm telling you what is best for you."

Kagome stood up now and glared at him. "What are you, my father? What do you know about letting go? How about letting go with the hate you bottle up inside you?"

Kagome stomped off, and went to practice her hurdling. She sprinted toward the first hurdle, and shot up her right leg first before swinging her bent left leg over the hurdle. Kagome did the same with the second hurdle only changing legs. It took about 9 seconds to finish the length. She was angry. How could she be so out of shape? Usually, she was faster. Kagome decided that track wasn't helping with her mood, so she packed up and left to go practice archery at the shrine.

You're moving too fast, I don't understand you
I'm not ready yet, baby I can't pretend
No I can't
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me
It's possible, eventual
Love will find a way
Love will find a way...

Halfway up the steps leading to the shrine, Kagome stopped.

"What is it about me that makes you want to follow me?" Kagome sounded exasperated. " I give up. I don't know what to think anymore." She threw her hands up into the air.

"Kagome, you don't remember me? Because it hurts having you treat me like this," a voice said, void of its usual coldness.

"Sesshomaru…" Kagome started.

She turned around and saw Sesshomaru right in front of her. He held her hands in his. (No it's not supposed to sound very Miroku, okay?) Sesshomaru's honey-colored eyes looked so sad.

"Kagome, I love you. Ever since you left, my heart broke. When I saw you again I couldn't believe that it was you. I was hopeful, but when you treated me coldly…. it turned out differently," Sesshomaru looked away.

"Sesshomaru, this isn't like you. You're not the same anymore. I'M not the same anymore. Can't you just accept this fact? Sesshomaru, don't say you love me. You don't even know me! How can you tell me this? You weren't there my whole life. So, you can't say anything about my attitude." Kagome looked at him, her eyes softened. "Just go, okay? You don't want to get close to me. Trust me on this. Just go."

Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time

Kagome retracted her hands from Sesshomaru's hold and walked the remaining steps to the shrine…alone. And left a broken Sesshomaru at the steps.

(Kagome's POV)

The rest of the week was awkward. There was tension between Sesshomaru and me, but there's nothing I can do HE was the one that brought up the subject of love. All I know is that love can bring nothing but pain and despair. Love brings the end of most happiness; I learned that the hard way. It's sad I guess turning from a once innocent cheerful girl into the person I am today. Total opposites. But no one would understand, I'm doing it for his or her own good. Yes, the supposed cold heartless bitch cares. But they wouldn't understand, no one will. And I'll keep living my life this way, because no one understands and no one cares.

Here's how I play, here's where you stand
Here's what to prove to get any further than where it's been
I'll make it clear, not gonna tell you twice
Take it slow, you keep pushing me
You're pushing me away
Pushing me away...

A/n: okay that was a really really short chapter, and I'll try to make it up to you guys next chapter. The song is Don't Say You Love Me by M2M (old group) and I just thought it works really well with the chapter. So if you haven't guessed already. I've decided the pairing will be Sess/Kag despite the votes. The pairing just fits if you know what I mean. I am aware of the OOC parts, and trust me things will go back to normal….after a little while. Now don't just sit there, PLEASE REVIEW!