A/N: Thanks for the reviews. I'm sorry it takes me forever to write my stories but at lease I write them and put them on the site.
Chapter 11
The rest of that day just got even boring and borer and just more bore. The only two good things that happened was that Paul kept his distance and when he insisted to drive me home he didn't questioned me about anything that was stressing me. And I also got through to Adam. We both apologized completely and we hugged. I told him I wish Cee Cee and me was still talking and he said that he will talk to her.
When I got home everyone looked at me wrong and just ignored me until I went up stairs. I put my stuff on my bed and dropped down into the window seat.
I looked out into the Pacific Ocean. I could see people on the beach running and relaxing on the soft sand bottom. I even saw two people having a mini picnic. I opened the window and climbed out onto the roof.
I could feel the tropical breeze flowing though my now ugly hair. The sky looked reddish purple and the Sun was surly in the sky today. When my gaze fell back onto the ocean, I was reminded that I always wanted to just relax and go snorkeling. New York waters weren't really the right place to go out snorkeling.
I daydreamed about this experience.
I was in a cute and sexy black bikini. Paul was by my side. He sat me down on my towel and I lifted my hair, and twisted it into a knot. Paul mizzled cool sunscreen on my warm skin. His big strong hands smoothed it along my back down and my arms.
Then we stood up and put on our flippers and the mask. He led me out deeper into the water and helped me float facedown. Below the surface, I clearly saw the white sand. We went out father and saw a coral reef shelf, and everything looked amazing. Fish, in shades of yellow, green, and even silver, dashed through red coral.
I easily got the hang of it. Paul never let go of my hand, and together we floated into the big blue sea.
An exotic parrot fish swam up to my mask and it had bright blue lips that looked like they were going to kiss me. I tried to touch it but it zipped away to the reef below. Paul pointed to the shore, but I didn't want to ruin this beautiful moment.
"I loved it!" I squealed when we were back on shore. "I love you!" I squealed once again. I threw my hands on his shoulders and pulled him into a tight hug. I pulled back and looked into his eyes, and I smiled.
"I love you too…querida."
I quickly went back to earth. I heard David call me down for dinner. I crawled back into my room and stopped to think why did I imagine I was with Jesse alone. I haven't fantasized about him ever since he broke my heart. I guess that deep down in my heart I really still do love Jesse.
No.
I love Jesse with all my heart and my feelings will never change. No one will influence me otherwise anymore. Paul can go to hell where he belongs, and I hope maggots eat him alive. Including I hope he will never show his evil face to Jesse nor me again.
Why was I so stupid? I mean about hating Jesse. Jesse DeSilva is the man of my dreams. I want to appoligze, I want to hug him, I want to kiss him, I want to confess my love to him. As a matter of fact, The next time I see him I'm going to say the three magical words I Love you! What's the worst that can happen? He can…
I was about to call Jesse when I remembered I was expected down stairs. I assume I should also apologize to my family and try to explain my dumb and weird behavior.
I rushed down stairs two at a time and stood in front of the family table.
"Mom, Andy, Jake, Brad, David, I'm truly sorry for my weird and rude behavior." I looked at all of them as I said their names. "I was totally impolite and uncivil. I really can't explain my stupid behavior but I know it wasn't called for, and I just had a lot of stress on my shoulders. But I can promised you now that it will never happen again, as in me being disrespectful." I ended my speech. I looked into everyone's blank faces studying me. Mum spooked first,
"I'm glad you admitted you were wrong and I loved your speech but, your still grounded until I say so." She motioned for me to sit and join them.
When I finished dinner I washed the dishes and went up to my room. I locked my door to make sure no one interrupted. I decided to call both Jesse and Lori to apologize and try to make up with Jesse and ask for his help.
"Jesse! Lori!" I called silently in my mind. Hopefully Lori was still struck in limbo so we can start over. In a matter of seconds they both came at the same time.
"Yes, you called Susannah? Is there something wrong que-, Susannah-, I mean Suze?" Jesse asked correcting himself. I love how, even though I've been really mean to him he still really cares deep down even though it doesn't show on the outside. He made no effort to look concern. He just had a bored and dull look on his face. Like there was a law that said he had to respond to Suze Simon's everyday demand. I just wished everything would go back like they were when I was deeply in love with Jesse and when he used to get me out of trouble. Back when Paul Slater didn't exist.
"What do you want? You should take anger management." Lori insisted. I turned to her.
"Listen, I'm sorry for coming off rude the other day, and I know my attitude stunk that day, but I'm really not like that." Wow, I've been asking for forgiveness all day long. I think this is a new record. "Well I may come off a little rude at first but I'm always like that when it comes down to helping ghosts. And I know I should change, but I'm just like that." I shrugged. I chuckled to myself thinking back when I first met Jesse.
"Well I guess I'm sorry also for calling you such a horrible word." She said. "I usually don't curse but I was also upset that day for really realizing I was dead." She continued. She looked down at her feet looking a little uncomfortable but quickly straighten up. "Hi I'm Lori Hunt." She introduced herself again by shoving her hand at me.
"Hi I'm Suze Simon." I responded by shaking her hand. "I was wondering if you still need help with having your story publish and giving that thing to Cee Cee?" I asked hoping Father Dom didn't beat me to it. Well of course Father Dom didn't do it yet. If he had, she would not even be here.
"Yeah I still need help. Father Dominic was too busy this week to assist me." She said.
"Well I'll be more than happy to help you move on to your after life." I smirked and looked at Jesse. He was sitting on the window seat petting that stupid cat. Sometimes I get jealous of Spike when he gets all the attention from Jesse. However when Jesse kisses me, I feel like I'm the only woman on Earth. I realized that Lori dematerialized, to get the stuff and I was left alone with Jesse and the cat.
"That was a really nice thing you did que- Suze." Jesse commented. I was about to say don't call me Suze when Lori returned from wherever she went. I suppose I'll talk to Jesse one on one later.
"Here you go." Lori said stimulated and bubbly. She handed me an envelope that was sealed so I couldn't read it…yet with Cee's name on the front, and a stack of papers that was not stapled. I raised an eyebrow and Lori laughed.
"Whoa, I didn't know you were publishing an autobiography about your life." I said examining the pile of papers I now put on my bed. Lori giggled again.
"I know. I'm sorry. It's actually a short book I've been working on for two years, and I didn't have time for putting it in a folder or anything. Thanks Suze I really appreciate this. I have to go. I want to go check on my family one last time. Bye!" She said. She waved at Jesse and me and dematerialized. I was left with Jesse again, alone this time.
"Jesse I'm sorry for treating you so badly. You really didn't deserve it. You were only trying to warn me and protect me, and for that I admire you." I smiled. Oh damn, did I just about say I loved him? He stood up and walked toward me until he was about one foot away.
"I know you are Suze. Whenever I see you with Slater I just get so…" He trailed off. I could finish that sentence, pissed, jealous, overprotective, enraged. The list goes on and on.
"Oh and Jesse?"
"Yes Suze?" He looked down at me.
"Don't call me Suze. I like it when you and Father Dom call me Susannah." I admitted. He grinned at me and did something that always makes my heart skip a beat. He kissed my cheek. I know, I know, you all were leaning for a full make out session but I'm just happy everything is cool between us two.
"Whatever you want, querida." Oh I think I'm going to pass out. I was about to but then I remembered I had to tell him about Regina and Lindsey.
I told him everything they said about killing Regina's father and how they threaten me. He listened to what I said and suggested we go talk to Father Dominic. Before I could reject he left me.
Again.
How rude!
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