Note1: I change the story rating to PG13. Oh well, I intend to finish this fic at all cost. At first, I want it to be R-rated but now, I'm just too lazy and tired with it to make it an R fic.

Note2: If you're fan of Kaga, then don't read this chapter. I don't know why I wrote something that terrible of him. He's one of the two people that I like most in the manga. Maybe it was because of all the tension I had lately.

Chapter 4. The dream

The sun was high and bright when Sai stood in the yard of Hikaru's school. Dashing his eyes around in confusion, Sai wondered what he was doing here. He was sure just a moment before, he was sitting beside a sleeping Hikaru, watching the boy tossing and turning, trapped in his nightmare. It had become a painfully usual habit.

"Hikaru, what's going on?" Sai asked, only to be answered by silence. "Hikaru?" His eyes wandered to his side. Hikaru wasn't there. Instead, he squeaked as it caught his eyes that he was no longer wearing his old-fashion clothing anymore. Replacing them was a leather jacket and a modern jean. Horrifyingly enough, the jacket happened to have no buttons, thus gave curious eyes the opportunity to observe his bare chest.

His hand instinctively flew to his head. The hat was gone, but thank gods, his beautiful hair still remained unharmed. A strangle feeling crept into him.

"Nice to meet you." A soft female girl's voice caught his ears.

Standing before him was a pretty schoolgirl, slightly older than Hikaru. "Hi. I'm  ..... I've been watching you for a while, you're not a student here, aren't you? I've never seen you before. Do you come here to see someone?"

"I..." Words couldn't come out of his mouth as Sai was too shocked having someone rather than Hikaru be able to see him.

"What's your name?" A friendly smile blossomed on the girl's lips.

"It's none of your business.' Sai blurted out, he definitely didn't want to tell her his name when he was still unsure of what was going on. However, as the girl's smile flattered and she looked about to cry, he regretted his bad temper. He quickly apologized. 'Sorry. I'm not in a good mood today. Do you know where Hikaru Shindo is?"

"The boy that used to be in the no-one-want-to get-in Go Club? Well, since he became a pro in Go, he became quite popular as well. I've just seen him go to the Go club just some minutes ago."

"Thanks." Sai smiled back at her, trying to be polite. But a thousand years not having a single word with the opposite sex made him feel nervous, especially when hearts began to form in the girl's eyes. "I have to find him now, Bye." He hastily made an excuse to get away from her.

Behind him, several other girls wearing uniforms of Hikaru school rushed to her side.

"What did he said?" They asked.

"He looks really hot but he's cold as well."

"That makes him mystical then."

"Do you think I can get a date with him?"

Sai couldn't help blushing.

The girl was right when she said Hikaru had gone to the Go club. Only that Sai found him not inside the club but outside, under the window of the room. The scene was terribly familiar. Hikaru had come and sat here in silence almost every time the club members gathered. Sai had once asked him why, but the boy refused to explain. As he had been too absorbed in his Go, the subject had never been mentioned again.

"Hikaru, what're you doing here?" He asked anyway.

"Shhh." Hikaru placed a finger on his lips and whispered. "Don't talk so loudly. If they found me here, they would hate me even more." Quickly Hikaru grabbed his bag and scrambled away from the window carefully so that nobody would notice him. He walked away without paying any attention to the older Go player.

"What do you mean? They don't hate you." Sai ran after the boy, feeling hurt at the boy's coldness and surprised that Hikaru didn't even give a comment about his strange outfit.

"Yes, they do." Hikaru insisted. "Ever since I left the club, they have always been hating me."

"No. They considered you their friend. How can you think so low of them?"

"What do you know anyway?" Hikaru glared.

"If you think they hate you, why did you come here in the first place."

"Because they're still very important to me." These words was spoken barely audible but then, Hikaru raised his voice angrily. "Why suddenly care? Just ignore me like you always did before."

Sai was taken back as for a moment, pain crossed Hikaru's beautiful face. It was the pain of someone who had been lonely for a very long time. God knows how many times he had seen that expression on various soldiers who had to separate from their families to go to faraway lands back from Torajiro's time.

The expression disappeared quickly and standing before him was the cheerful boy Sai used to know. Only now he kept wondering if that cheerfulness was only a mask.

"Don't worry, Sai, it's nothing." Hikaru smiled sweetly. "I'm just kidding."

Why couldn't I believe in it? Sai thought but before any further question was given, Hikaru vanished. Sai gasped, looking around. Did he really see what he thought he did?

Add to the mystery, the sky had gone dark as dawn dropped it velvet curtain on everything.

Just a moment before, it was bright noon.

An uncertain fear rushed to the Go player. Reality would never be like this. This seemed like a dream. A strange dream.

Speaking of a dream, Sai suddenly remember...

Hikaru keeps tossing and turning. What is he dreaming that make him suffer like that?

Why that terrible dream still didn't go away? It has been over an hour. I wish I could help him.

Hikaru, what should I do to chase your nightmare away? If only I could know your dreams. God, please let me help him.

That's it, Sai thought. Could it be possible that God had heard his plea and now, he got stuck in Hikaru's dream? Or it is a nightmare?

There was no proof that showed his guess was true. But the thought lingered. Maybe if he found Hikaru, he would understand what was really going on.

As now, it was late in the evening, every students studying here must have gone home. Sai decided to have a peer into Hikaru's classroom, just to make sure if the boy were there then he would go back to the boy's house. The strange feeling returned. It was like he had forgotten something important, very important, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't remember it.

On his way to Hikaru's classroom, Sai heard the boy's voice from another room. That room had been Hikaru's classroom a few years before.

"Please teach me how to advance in Go quickly."

"Why suddenly? You didn't seem to be interested in Go before." Replied another male voice, which after a while Sai recognized it to be Kaga's voice.

"It's different now. I want to make somebody be proud of me." Hikaru explained.

The door of the classroom was slightly open so Sai could easily looked inside. He nearly cried out in surprise. Standing there was a smaller version of Hikaru. It was as if time had turned back to the past.

The small Hikaru held up a Go board expectedly. "Please."

"Fine," answered, sitting down a nearby chair. "But I can't understand why it must be in this classroom. Why don't you come to the club?"

"I don't want him to know about this yet."

"Him?" Kaga lift his eyebrow. "How can this person know? Oh well, don't glare at me. It's none of my business anyway. I'll help you but everything comes with a price.

"I... I don't have much to give you but I'll save enough to..." Hikaru stammered, his hands nervously traveled along the side of the board.

"Who said anything about money?" Kaga smirked "It's a lot simpler. Just follow my rules."

Watching that scene, Sai almost smiled. He knew the one Hikaru tried so hard to make him proud of was himself. There was still his grandfather but Hikaru never wanted to try to make the old man's expectation. He did smiled when Kaga made his first move.

"Um, I don't know the rule of Go. Could you explain it to me?"

"What? Then how did you win in all those games? Oh never mind, I'll."

Hikaru had such a good friend and he still claimed that everyone hate him.

But as time went on, Sai slowly lost his smiled. Kaga touched his Hikaru too much.       Had left his seat, now standing behind Hikaru, telling the boy the basic rule of the game. From time to time, he would brush his fingers here and there, with the excuse of guiding the boy. Hikaru looked visibly uncomfortable, but he sat still.

Both Sai and Hikaru squeaked, one inaudible, one loud as Kaga bent over Hikaru's shoulder to point at some thing on the board, his lips deceased to nip at the poor boy's earlobe at the same time.

"What, what are you doing?" Hikaru jerked his head away and turned back in shock.

Clasping his hands on Hikaru's shoulder, turned him back to the board. "Didn't I say there would be my rules? If you want me to teach you, you must follow it. If you can't, however, you do not worth my time. So, we continue or not?"

Hikaru shut his eyes for a moment, a faint tremor ran through his body. "Let's continue." Finally he said.

The 'lesson' resumed as if nothing happened, only now Kaga's hands become more daring. Sai was burning with rage. Watching Hikaru constantly being groped making his blood boiled. Hardly could he control himself not to burst into that room and... and what a ghost could to in this situation, he had no clue. However, he was sure he would be dammed if he let the Shougi player get out of this without paying.

Inside the room, Kaga tilted Hikaru's face up and lean down, gently placed his lips on Hikaru. The boy's eyes widen. He tried to break the kiss. The older boy growled and turned the kiss to brutal as Hikaru struggled and refuse to respond. The hand on Hikaru chin tightened, forcing his jaw to open, giving entrance to the seeking tongue.

Sai was seeing stars. He could tell it was Hikaru's first kiss. It was supposed for him to take but that bastard robbed it in a worst way possible. All thought flew out of the window, he burst into the room, startling both Hikaru and     .

"Sai." Hikaru cried, followed by a pathetic, heart-broken 'no'. The boy entangled himself from Kaga hastily, grabbing his bag and run out.

"Hikaru, Wait." Sai would have run after him if Kaga did not choose that moment to speak up. "Don't tell me you're boyfriend of Mr. Little Innocence here. It would be a pity then, for the innocence boy would turn out to be not innocent at all."

"You,... how could you do that?" Sai growled, turning his attention back to    . "He trusted you. How could you betray him like that? How dare you trying to rape him?"

  smirked. "Don't use such big words. I'm just playing around. Of course I wouldn't rape him even if you didn't interrupt us. I don't want to rot in jail for fucking a child. So just smile and share your cute..." Kaga's words were cut off as Sai's fist connected with his jaw, hard enough to send him sprawled on the floor. He did not get up.

Sai stared numbly at his hands. Now he knew the reason of the strange sensation earlier. His hand was still stinging after the contact with   jaw. From the wounds on his palms, where earlier he had clenched his fist so hard in his anger, blood still oozed out. There were also the roughness of the clothes and the softness of the night breeze from the open window on his skin. Was it already night? Time flew so quickly in this nightmare.

It was ironical that the desire to feel against had been burning in him for such a long time, and when his wish came true, he didn't even realized it. Slowly, Sai brought his hand to his face, some how, he had materialized.

However, what shaken him to the core was not that but a revelation. What he had just seen in this room was not only a dream. It was a memory. He remembered them quite well, those days when Hikaru demanded him to go home with out him, the boy himself coming back rather late. He did make progress in Go fast, which Sai thought was thank to him.

"I have a meeting with Kaga-san."

Hikaru said almost everyday for about a month.

Never did he once question Hikaru what was those meetings for. With a sense of shame, Sai realized he didn't once show a single emotion at Hikaru's progress either. Hikaru was right. He was too selfish.

If only...

End chapter 4.