SONGS FOR SEVERUS

By Hippy Gypsy

PART IV--THROUGH WITH YOU

To say that my letter was bitter would be an understatement. I simply let him have it.

'Traitor and coward.

That's all I can think of you anymore Severus Snape, when I give up a minute of my day to think of you at all. Because you're not in my head very long, and I'm in the process of erasing of every memory you have invaded in my mind. I hope this doesn't surprise you, because you should've been expecting it at this point.'

Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it

'Speaking of memories, do you realize that in the short time we have known each other how much you have fucked with my head?

I wonder…did you ever really love me? Did you say and write those words simply because they could be said, or do you really see me in everything you say or do? Because I don't know about you, but I don't say things at random. That's called thinking it through. I had figured with your demeanor and abilities as a Potions Master you would've figured that out a long time ago.'

And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all

'I hope you know that I will never allow myself to be alone with you ever again Severus, if I should even see you again in this lifetime. You're a murderer, and I don't tend to let them in my life, so don't be surprised if I never answer any letter you "feel you have to send."

You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that

Do you remember
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you
Oh cause I remember very well

'I don't know if you've know this, because who knows how much a despicable git of a human being like you knows how to, but do you know how haunting love can be? Do you know how the act of touch or embrace or sex can tear a person from the inside out when one of the people involved is not thinking? Your lack of intellect in this sense stuns me, and for that you should know you have broken my heart in knowing I will never feel that way again. I don't think you should be expecting to feel that way ever again yourself.'

And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you

And at night when you sleep
Do you dream I would be there
Just for a minute or two do you?

'I realize we will never be together in any sense Severus and I can accept that, but you must understand, I gave you my body, heart, and mind, and though you took the life of another man, that's when you handed it all back to me tarnished with blood and anguish.

I have never suffered a broken heart this horrible before, for in the past I have bounced back, but now…'

You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that

Heartache heartache I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do

I called to let you know I'm through with you

'…now I realize. I'm never going to look at you the same way again. "The Sun" has set Severus Snape.

Me'

I ain't ever coming back to you

I sealed the letter and waited for the owl post to come. I didn't even watch as it carried off my response into the sunset. Good riddance.