Home is where the heart is
By: Bree-2006
Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans, Batman or any other characters I've used in this story.
AN: Hiya folks sorry this has taken so long to update my comp had a Virus…its all gone now and so I got a new chappy up and ready for ya! Thank you reviewers!
I couldn't even look at the pizza that was in front of me, it had made me sick to my stomach. The room was eerily silent due to the fact that I was the only one inside the room. My mind kept wandering, my heart kept beating heavily in my chest, and I realized that I was actually afraid of what someone would think.
They would understand if I chose to leave them...wouldn't they? They would understand my predicament or spurn me for being such an idiot and leaving. They could learn to hate me; after all I had learned to hate myself. Cyborg would find a way to make me feel guilty. Beast boy would gnaw at every part of my brain until I decided to stay. Raven would give me the silent treatment and hope that I crack, and Starfire.
She would give me that look, the look I hate.
That one look is the one thing that would lead me to my impending doom. I've been given the look so many times I had lost count months ago. Each time it would show up on her face I would cower, throw down my resolve, find a way to make it up to her, and it always led to her victory.
That look had gotten me out of being Slade's apprentice, had gotten me out of chasing the man to the fiery depths of the earth. The way her green eyes shined with un-spilt tears made me want to wrap my betraying arms around her and—
It doesn't matter.
I hated that look is all; I hated how my heart would betray me and crawl over to her hands. I hated how she naturally mended it with her caring caresses.
God I hated that!
I couldn't get away with anything. Things about her were so confusing, and I didn't want to think about what she would do if I had decided I was leaving the titans.
I cared for her to much to see her angry. I smiled at the thought of her but was shaken out of a dream like state when…
"Hiya Dick!" I practically jump five feet in the air as I heard the nauseating voice of Richard Grayson's female enemy.
"Babs" I choked as she wrapped her scrawny arms around my neck and hugged on for dear life. I could hear the small chuckle of my old butler behind me.
"I knew you were coming! Bruce wouldn't tell me so I got it out of Alfred." I un-tangled her arms from around my neck and gave the evil butler a look that would have killed Superman.
"I apologize Master Dick, I tried to stop her." I chuckled. Nothing could stop the red head when she had her mind set on something.
"You could have tried harder." I laughed, standing up and moving away from the table.
"Pizza?" I asked her as I shoved the full box into her hands; she nodded gleefully and opened the box.
"Yum! Pepperoni!" she stated happily, I smiled, she hadn't changed a bit.
Barbra Gordon, the commissioner's niece, my first 'close' friend only being a few months older than me. We never really got along like best friends would. We tolerated each other, after all living in this mansion she and Alfred were the only friends I had. I guess I never really had a choice in liking her.
She was my first kiss, but it wasn't heartfelt or amazing it was actually pretty confusing. I was barely twelve and the day was supposed to be the most romantic day of the year, but for me…it sucked.
"Hey Dicky its Valentines Day."
"And?"
"Aren't you going to kiss me?"
"What?"
"Ya-know smoochy-smoochy." I was grossed out entirely. This girl's lips touching mine, oh how naive I was.
"Ewe no!"
"Awe come on, ya know you wanna." I shook my head disgustedly as she batting her long eye lashes. I gulped loudly as she took a step towards me.
"No." I cried as she stopped in her place.
"Fine!" she screeched angrily. Her demeanor changed instantly as she put her hands behind her back. "Your loss…but can I have a small hug then?" I had to think for a minute and finally agreed.
"…fine" I winced at my words as she took a quick step forward and hugged me quite harshly. When I tried to pull away she thrust me forward, my lips landing haphazardly on hers.
Definitely that strangest moment I had ever had. We pulled apart and I stood there bewildered as the red head just smiled and casually walked away.
I promised myself at that time I would never kiss a girl or let them kiss me again…
So far I've kept that promise.
What a loser.
"Master Dick your cell phone" I reached into my pocket, my cell phone wasn't ringing…it was my communicator. I excused myself and ran to the nearest unoccupied room where I immediately-after placing my desolate mask over my eyes, answered the call.
"Robin here." I answered warily. Ravens face popped onto the screen, something was wrong, something horrible.
"You need to come home…something has happened." I looked at her strangely.
"I just got here…care to explain what the big emergency is." She looked down at the floor.
"Red X is back." I grinned.
"And?"
"He's got Starfire." I couldn't process that. My brain shut off completely. I quickly snapped out of it.
"H—How?" I asked as my temper rose. I had just talked to her less than an hour ago.
"X made a short visit to Dr. Chang at the Jail. He attempted to break him free, most likely looking for more of that crap to power the suit. We showed up, began to fight, and then he used some newly made gadgets to take her." She frowned.
"We can't trace her…we found her communicator and uniform in an alley." I shook my head in disbelief.
"She's strong; wherever she is she can handle herself." I had trouble believing my own statement. Raven shook her head.
"Even so if he had a mechanism to capture her then he might have one to keep her." I raised an eyebrow.
"What kind of mechanism?"
"A Phantom Interpretation system, technically it shut her body down, basically put her into a deep sleep…took the life out of her." My body was numb, my breathing shallow. He had her and there was no telling what he would do to her.
"Do you know what he wants with her?"
"That's just it, he wants…her." I gritted my teeth, the hell I would let him have her.
"I'll be there in a few hours." I shut off the communicator and walked to my room. I grabbed my uniform and any other materials I would need.
"Where do you think you're going." Someone asked from the doorway.
"Home." Babs waltzed in.
"But you just got here!" I rubbed the back of my neck.
"I have to…one of my teammates is missing, after we find her I'll come back." She smiled.
"Well wanna escort?" I looked at her awkwardly.
"What?" She smiled.
"Want me to help." I shook my head.
"No this is my—our, my team's problem, stay here and keep Al company." Ignoring the other problems that racked my brain I bade everyone in the mansion a goodbye and headed back to Jump City.
The whole ride there I couldn't stop thinking about her. Was she safe, was she alive, was she…dressed? The whole 'found her uniform thing' urked me a little. Where would he have taken her?
Please let her be alright.
I don't know what I'd do without her. Honestly.
Yay I'm done w/ this chappy. Oh no where's Star, what will Robin do? Stay tuned!