Home is where the heart is

By: Bree-2006

Disclaimer: I don't own the titans

AN: Hello my wonderful readers, thanx so much for all the wonderful feed back! But there was this one little Review that upset and somewhat confused me:

Raven of Evil 321:

I hope the review that you wrote was not a flame or attempt to criticize my writing. I do believe that when I started this story I wrote:

In my story Robin is RICHARD GRAYSON no EXCEPTIONS. I do hope that you got that as referring to you as well as the other people who has read my story. Also Static shock (which is not this category) has nothing to do with the Titans Story line so why bring it up? Watch the Teen Titans and keep your eyes open and you will see why I so strongly believe that Robin is indeed Richard Grayson.

1. Larry the Titan's (Episode: Fractured) name was Nosyarg Kcid which is Dick Grayson backwards.

2.Nightwing (Episode: How long is forever) was Richard Grayson's crime fighting name after he was shot by the Joker in Batman. After Batman fired him he traded in his Robin uniform to become Nightwing.

3. In the Original 'New Teen Titans' from the 80's DICK GRAYSON left Batman to become-along with Raven The leader of the Titans.

I don't see any Tim Drake or Jason Todd in those scenarios and I know my Comic books and Cartoons. And it doesn't matter because as I've said before…

ROBIN IN MY STORY IS RICHARD JOHN GRAYSON (DICK) NO EXCEPTIONS!

Thank you to all of those who have got that point. Now let me continue this and stop the babbling.

I spun around in the lazy boy's padded chair in front of the computer. I had watched the screen determinedly to make sure I didn't miss anything that might help me find her, but my eyes, still covered by the material of my mask were tired and becoming blurry. It had been an hour since Babs and I had arrived here at the tower and about forty five minutes since I started my researching. My hands hurt from typing so much, but my aching head droned out that small pain.

"Dick?" I turned around abruptly; slightly peeved that someone had interrupted the only resting time I have had in an hour.

"Yeah?" I asked a little harsher than I should have. I felt like I should apologize but at the last minute I waved that thought away and returned to my work.

"You ok?" I knew that question all to well. It was ironic that this girl at that exact moment sounded like the one I was so desperately searching for.

"I'm fine Babs." I mumbled typing a few more things into the search engine. I sensed her frown and decided to formally apologize.

"Look…I'm sorry."

"There's no need." I felt her hand gently grasp my shoulder. My larger hand reached up to cover hers as I squeezed it softly.

"It's so complicated." I spoke, not thinking about what I was saying.

"What is?" she asked moving to hold my hand in a more intimate way. I hadn't even noticed the gesture.

"Just…things." I could feel her tense up, wanting me to elucidate on the subject a little more.

"You know the saying 'You don't know what you have until you've lost it.'" She nodded, moving herself a little closer to my side. Still I didn't catch the gesture.

"Yes…"

"I know it's true now, that why I can't seem to get my mind off of her…Babs, she's the most, compassionate, magnanimous and beautiful person I've ever known. I have these feelings for her that I've never had for anyone else, and now, she's gone and I was too stupid to tell her how I really felt." The air was sticky, and she suddenly removed her hand from mine.

"She sounds so wonderful." I could here a dwelling sadness in her statement. I caught my mistake and immediately tried to cover it up.

"She is but so are you." It was cheesy way to fix things but when a smile pulled at the corners of her lips I knew things were fixed. She once again grabbed my hand and I became stiff.

"Dick…" she leaned whispering my name into my ear. I craned my neck to look into her eyes.

"That statement is true to me now too."

No

My mind screamed as he extracted my bound wrists and ankles from the wall. I could feel the flow of my crimson blood trickling down into my sweaty palms. I sucked in a shaky breath.

"Please…" I moaned as he let me fall haphazardly to the floor.

"Why must you be so cruel?" I asked into the humid air. I heard a timid chuckle and tried to move my head to look up at him.

"Does this entrance you? Does my pained and brutally beaten body make you feel like you have accomplished anything? Is this how you thought things would be once you got me in your grasp? If you want to have me in an abject way then fine, do it so you can feel pleased with yourself." I watched as he grimaced at my words, the features behind the mask twisting under the material.

"If you think I only want you because of your body you are sorely mistaken. I want you because of your mind, your heart, your soul, your body is just a pleasure to look at, not to degrade in any way."

"Then you do not wish to take away my innocence?" he chuckled lightly.

"It is not the same unless it is given away freely." I felt a sudden flow of relief rush through me.

"You do not wish to kill me, or rape me, you just simply want me here for your leisure? Why is it that I must believe this love for me when you take me away from the ones that I love? How is it that you want me yet you do not want me? Confusion, anger, amusement, one can not comprehend what I am feeling at this moment." He raised an eyebrow at my confusion.

"To answer all of your questions I'll give you this simple answer. I'm not so bad, I look out for myself, I get what I want, and you are what I want. Need I say more?" I had understood things immediately after his crude reply. He wished for me therefore he got me.

"And I shall be bound from hereon?" I asked sardonically.

"You'll be untied the minute I feel you are no longer a threat to me." I smirked coldly, something I had learned from friend Raven.

I will never-not be a threat to you.

A noise interrupted my awkward conversation with Babs, as I reached over to open my communicator. The stoic woman on the other side of the line spoke up rather quickly.

"Robin, find anything?" she asked as Beast boy popped on screen. I shook my head.

"Nothing you?" she looked at Beast Boy.

"Not much, I tried to tap into Starfire's mind, for some reason I got nothing. It might be because she isn't human or because Red-X has done something to her. Either way I was unsuccessful." I frowned deeply. Not the news I wanted to hear at the moment.

"Keep looking we have to find something." Nodding the duo shut off the communicator and returned to their searching.

"Dick?" Babs asked as the door suddenly burst open. Ignoring the woman beside me I stood up and looked at the robotic man.

"I found something, something you won't believe." I couldn't find the words to express my relief in that all of our searching wasn't in vain. I rushed over to the man, a smile plaguing to form on my face.

"What? What did you find?" I asked urgently. He smiled wide and grinned.

"This…" He passed me an object rapped in a cloth and I grasped it lightly in my tired hands. I unwrapped it, puzzled at the idea of this being the answer we've been looking for. A book, I grinned sheepishly, disappointed, and slightly angered.

"What's this?" I asked frustration embedded in my voice. He crossed his arms over his chest and shook his head.

"Open it." I was hesitant to oblige but I opened the book.

"It's…it's"

"Stars Diary…" This was wrong, I knew it. Evasion of privacy, she could hate me for reading it…but for some reason, curiosity took over. After all, our answers could be written here in her neat handwriting.

I opened it to the first page, she had just learned English and was desperately trying to write for her first time. It apparently was a great success.

Dearest of Diaries,

It is I Koriand'r. This on the day of the Tuesday of the September 14 I am very happy here in my new home, one of the fellow earth friends of mine has taught me the wonderful joys of earthly food. Particularly the tangy drink of 'mustard' as friend Robin proclaims it to be called. I can not help but be happy here at my new home having such wonderful friends.

There is Beast Boy, he is green as the flooring on the out of the doors. There is Raven, she is dark as the sky of the night, there is Cyborg he is a machine like a washer…as Beast Boy called the contraption that washes the clothes. Then there is Robin, he is the most wonderful of all, I will not fathom that he is very-as earth women say 'hott' He is very kind and I do not think I would understand this culture as much as I do without Robin.

I must go it is time for the movies.

Koriand'r (Starfire)

I couldn't help but smile, even though that wasn't what we were looking for. I skimmed through, catching short glimpses of the pages until I found the date I was looking for.

Dearest of Diaries,

It is the 23 day of June. I am very weary from a hard day of fighting. A criminal has emerged from the shadows to steal from the innocent. Richard has told me that he is not the Red-X because of the last time. I feel terrible for not trusting him and I wish to apologize the moment I am through with this entry. I shall not lie but when the Red-X spoke a certain choice of words to me I was flattered…only because I believed that it was Robin.

I wish to mean what exactly he meant by it though.

"The only crime here is that you and I haven't gone out on a…"

I used my eye-beams to shoot him away. I knew how he was going to finish yet I am afraid I do not quite understand why he would think such a thing of me. I must go now it is the time for dinner.

-Koriand'r

Nothing, it had been written two years prior. No clues, nothing…but it wasn't all for not. I ran the words over and over in my head.

I was flattered…only because I believed that it was Robin.

That was enough to keep me going, enough to keep me from giving up.

"Well what does it say?" Cyborg asked as I closed it. I smiled.

"Nothing…it says nothing"

Woohoo yay! This is one long chappy. Thank you readers and reviewer. And HAPPY BIRTHDAY my psycho third/fourth period teacher, my crazy first period teacher, my friend that I cant remember, all of those people who's birthday is today and my aunt that I never met. Stay sweet!