After Cruz's treatment, Bosco took Cruz back to his place. He's never seen her look so scared, and nervous. But all he could do was be there for her and hold her hand. He wanted to do more for her. He wanted her to know that she wasn't alone through this. But she didn't really like talking about this and she wasn't opening up to him. Sure they had just started talking again, but she needed him. She needed to know that this time he wasn't going anywhere. Maybe then she would be able to let him in. She seemed so guarded, but he couldn't blame her. He was the one that had hurt her and blamed her for something that wasn't her fault. He just needed anyone but himself to blame. He didn't want to be the one at fault for his brothers death. It was just so much easier to blame Cruz for Mikey's death. He sat down next to Cruz on his couch. She looked like she was thinking about something.
"What are you thinking about?" Bosco asked. Like she would tell him anyway. She had barely said a word to him today. But she looked worried about something. He wanted to at least try and get what was bothering out of her.
"It's not right for me to involve you in this. You shouldn't have to go through this with me. I know what could happen and I don't want to put you through that," Cruz replied. She looked at Bosco. She liked that he was here for her and that he wanted to help. But she just couldn't do this to him. There was a good chance that she could die. Bosco didn't need to watch that happen or go to the treatments with her only to have it not work.
"I want to go through this with you. I want to be there for you. The only thing I care about is you getting better and knowing that you can tell me anything. Whatever you need, I'm here for you," Bosco said. This was hard on Cruz. She wasn't used to not being able to control things. He felt so bad for her. She wasn't used to needing help or anyone. She was used to being independent. He could tell she didn't think that things were going to get better. All she could think about was the bad things that could happen. But she's had it pretty hard.
"But I can't ask you to do that. I can't ask you to give up all of this time just to help me. You have a life," Cruz said. She didn't know why Bosco was so willing to be there for her. Especially when just a few days ago, he blamed her for his brothers murder. But she was glad that she had him. She hated fighting with him and watching him be in pain knowing that he blamed her for it.
"You don't have to ask. I want to do this. You know there are people who do care about you," Bosco said.
"And I bet that you're the only one who does. I'm probably going to have to take some time off of work after I get the treatments each time. I don't want to go into work not being able to pay too much attention to what I'm doing because I'm tired and just want to be left alone," Cruz replied.
"Now you know that isn't true. You know that people besides me care about you. And it probably is a good idea to take some time off of work. We don't want you getting hurt," Bosco said. He saw Cruz smile. And he couldn't help but smile back. He liked how much better they were doing. There wasn't anymore fighting and now they were talking about the things that bothered. He was just glad that Cruz had opened up to him without him having to push her. He knew that things would get better and he knew that she would get better. She was a strong person. She would be able to get through this. All she needed was a little help and he was glad to give it to her.
"What did I do to deserve you?" Cruz asked. She couldn't believe that Bosco actually cared about her this much. But she liked having someone care about her. Especially since it was Bosco. She knew that with him around and helping her, she would have no problem getting better. She jsut won't admit that to him. He doesn't need his ego boosted.
TBC...