Hey everyone! I'm putting the Author's Note on the top and bottom this chapter because I have stuff to say both times... Yeah... that was kind of obvious. Anyway, this chapter is based on an urdu song from the movie "Dum". It's called 'Dil Hi Dil Mein'. I put up the lyrics just before the beginning of the chapter in urdu and english, and the translation was done by yours truly! Both a guy and a girl sing the song, so I put whether it was the guy or the girl singing at the beginning of their part, ok? Just to make it a little less confusing because otherwise it's just weird. Oh, and for all of you out there who understand urdu, let me know how my translating was! And everyone else, hope you enjoy the chapter and see how it kind of goes with the song...
Transformations and Transfiguration
By: Jasmine
Chapter 10
"Mishaps and Misunderstandings"
Girl
Dil hi dil mein humko maareh (My own heart hurts me)
Dil dhukah naa aapkah (for having hurt you)
Maanjao Humto Haareh (Hear me out now, I've lost)
Hai ghussah aapka (Oh, your anger)
Hogayi Jo Khata (the mistake that has happened)
naa sataa (please don't torment me)
Bhool bhi jaa (Just forget about it all)
Boy
Aap Jaante hain humko (You know me)
Hum naa keh paayengeh (I won't be able to tell you)
Muskurakeh Humko dekoh (look at me and smile)
Hum bhi muskurayengeh (I'll smile back)
Main Nahi Bewafa Naa Khafaa (I'm no longer unfaithful nor angry)
Bhool bhi jaa (Just forget about it all)
Girl
Jab tu mujse rutha tha to (From when you were angry with me)
Mujseh Ruth baithi Khushiyan (I was deserted of all happiness)
De raha than tane Maasoom (The seasons taunted me)
Hasrahi tih mujpeh duniyah (The world was laughing at me)
Baarishon mein bhiga aanchal (I got drenched in the rain)
Dil naa jaaneh kyon suka tah (But my heart remained dry)
Kaat ta tha lamha lamha (I sing today)
Waqt qahar pal rokah tah (But I was indifferent in every moment then)
Jab tu mujseh rutha tah to (From when you were angry with me)
Mujseh ruth baithi khushiyan (I was deserted of all happiness)
Jab tu mujseh rutha tah to (From when you were angrily with me)
Mujseh ruth tih khushiyan (All happiness stayed away)
Boy
Hona tah jo hua hogaya (Whatever was to happen has happened)
Bhool bih jaa (Just forget about it all)
Girl
Dil hi dil mein humko maareh (My own heart hurts me)
Dil dhukah naa aapkah (for having hurt you)
Maanjao Humto Haareh (Hear me out now, I've lost)
Hai ghussah aapka (Oh, your anger)
Boy
Aaj kyon lage duniyah ki (Today, why does it look like the world's)
Pehli subah phir seh hogi (First morning is happening again)
Buss hamaarah apna suraj (Just my own sun)
Aanchuisih dhoop kihlegi (The rays will shine untouched)
Ratt ko jo chaand utegah (When the moon rises at night)
Chaandni lori gaayegi (It will sing a sweet lullaby)
Meri Bahon Mein sar rakh keh (Putting her head in my arms)
Jaan Meri So Jaayegi (My beloved will go to sleep)
Aaj Kyo Lege Duniya ki (Today, why does it look like the world's)
Pehli subah phir seh hogi (First morning is happening again)
Aaj kyo lege duniya ki (Today, why does it look like the world's)
Pehli subha pihr hogi (First morning is happening again)
Girl
Bhool jaa yeh hamein Yeh jahaah (Forget about this 'us' and this place)
Bhool bih jaa (Just forget about it all)
Dil hi dil mein humko maareh (My own heart hurts me)
Dil dhukah naa aapkah (for having hurt you)
Maanjao Humto Haareh (Hear me out now, I've lost)
Hai ghussah aapka (Oh, your anger)
Hogayi Jo Khata (the mistake that has happened)
naa sataa (please don't torment me)
Bhool bhi jaa (Just forget about it all)
Boy
Aap Jaante hain humko (You know me)
Hum naa keh paayengeh (I won't be able to tell you)
Muskurakeh Humko dekoh (look at me and smile)
Hum bhi muskurayengeh (I'll smile back)
Main Nahi Bewafa Naa Khafaa (I'm no longer unfaithful nor angry)
Bhool bhi jaa (Just forget about it all)
The next day, Sirius was amazed at how many girls came to ask him out to the dance, or at least try to get the words out. Never had he noticed the affect he had on the female population of Hogwarts, and now that it was finally showing itself, it was hard for him to take in. He sat by James out on the Hogwarts grounds, his eyes following the procession of a golden snitch that James continuously stole from the Hogwarts quidditch supplies. "This morning, this absolutely gorgeous blonde from one year above us came and asked me out! Can you believe it?" He exclaimed, throwing his hands up in the air, his hair gracefully falling into his eyes. "Why did they have to wait 'til now? I've been here for five years, and not one of them saw fit to talk to me then?"
James looked up at him slowly, pocketing the snitch after charming it to stop moving. A small smirk played about his mouth as he said, "That's funny, considering all the girls who have come to their senses and spoken to you in the last fifteen years." He put an arm on Sirius's shoulder, leaning on it in a mock-concerned fashion. He tapped his chin slightly, as if deep in thought as he continued, "How many was it now...? Let's see... That Carolyn girl from Ravenclaw... Bianca from the year below us... Faye from Hufflepuff... Oh, that beauty of a bird, what was her name? Ah, yes, Annabelle..."
Sirius half glared, half smirked at him, muttering very seriously, "You know, Prongs, jealousy isn't going to get you anywhere with the ladies." James good-naturedly pushed him, making him have to throw a hand out to keep from falling flat on his face. James apologized, holding a hand out to help him up.
Sirius took it, repeating, "As stated earlier, jealousy isn't going to get you anywhere." His eyes were teasing, his mouth crookedly smiling his heart-melting smile. James tackled him to the ground and the two wrestled until they were satisfied that they were equal, or close enough.
Watching them from behind a thick tree trunk was a blue-eyed girl, her hair so light it seemed to glow, her sight set upon the figure of the boy losing the fight. She waited until James had to stand to repair his glasses, having hit them the ground, to reveal herself from behind the willow, fluffing her hair prettily and batting her long eyelashes. She strode over to the pair, her red lips grinning attractively, or rather, hungrily, as were her eyes. The boys, however, paid no notice to her, continuing their struggle, laughing loudly. She frowned slightly, her face losing its graceful luminosity, and cleared her throat loudly, replacing her grin. Her face seemed to lighten up like a light bulb. "Hello there." She said seductively, her eyelashes batting like mad now.
"Hiya." Sirius replied, standing to straighten his own robes. However, he suddenly felt no need to do so, wanting nothing more than the girl standing ahead of him, her beauty overwhelming every other emotion he thought he'd felt moments before. He stood to his full height, giving her a knee-weakening smile. "Hello, and you are?" His voice had changed. It was deeper, more masculine. It seemed to roll off his tongue much more smoothly. He put a hand through his sleek opal hair.
The girl backed up ever so slowly, her movement almost unrecognizable. Sirius followed her, pinning her to the tree trunk, James watching suspiciously from a distance. "Me?" She squeaked, innocently pointing a long finger at herself. She giggled, lowering her gaze briefly before returning it to Sirius, his eyes now holding an odd sort of thirst. "I am Apate." She replied.
"Apate." said Sirius slowly, as if tasting it, trying out the feel of the name on his tongue. He grinned down at her. "Apate." He repeated. "that's a very unique name. It's very beautiful, just like the owner." Apate grinned back at him, giggling again. He went on, "I hear there's a dance coming up for Halloween this Friday," Apate nodded. "I'd love to have such a beauty at my arm, if you wouldn't mind." James gaped at him, flabbergasted, as Sirius droned on, as if under a spell.
Apate opened her mouth to reply when James hastily cut in, "Actually, he's already got a date. Seems you forgot, Sirius." He widened his eyes, mentally trying to inform Sirius of the date with Jasmine he'd so desirously achieved after much planning and work.
Sirius stared momentarily, his eyes calculating. His face then lit up in understanding as he muttered, "Oh!" James nodded, rolling his eyes and shaking his head, as did Apate, oddly enough. Then, Sirius returned his gaze to Apate as he monotonously added, "I'll break it off with her later."
James's jaw dropped, his eyes wide as dinner plates. This, however, was nothing compared to Apate's reaction. Immediately, the seductive expression about her face changed to hardness, her blue eyes losing their color as they became a stormy gray. Sirius watched in horror as her thin, perfectly sculpted eyebrows became more natural, her eyes becoming dark, as was her hair. It turned sleek and black, to be exact. Her nose became straighter and shorter, her lips less bright, turning a soft mauve. She grew taller ever so slightly so that now instead of having to crane her neck to look up at Sirius, she came just below his shoulder. When the transformation was complete, she whispered in a malicious tone, "How about you quit procrastinating and break it off now?"
The two boys gawked, Sirius staggering backward as Jasmine glowered at him. "How...?" Sirius mumbled, his senses returning. But Jasmine couldn't care less. She glared daggers at Sirius one last time before angrily marching off. Sirius didn't even look back at her, let alone follow, his face drained completely of its color. If he'd glanced back, he would've seen the slightest glint of tears in Jasmine's eyes before she hastily wiped them away.
"C'mon, Jasmine," Lily said gently, putting an arm around her deathly quiet best friend. Her eyes were glazed, Lily's pleading and sympathetic. "You haven't said a word all day. Something's happened. Please tell me." Lily finally had some time alone with Jasmine because Jake was out with some of the other Gryffindor boys for the night.
Lily sat for a few more minutes before hugging Jasmine tightly and standing to go to the bathroom. "D'you think he wanted me for who I am or...?" Lily spun around, watching Jasmine concernedly, who still stared off into space, her eyes looking at nothing in particular. "I really finally felt wanted and loved, but I was hesitant. I wasn't sure if... if it was true, this feeling inside of me. I just wanted to see if he was real..." Her voice trailed off, her previously glazed eyes now teary and looking at Lily.
"Oh, Jasmine!" Lily cried, running over to her best friend, holding her close. She stroked Jasmine's hair as she felt her shoulder slowly dampen due to the few tears gliding down Jasmine's face. They sat in silence, Jasmine crying into Lily's shoulder, before Lily added, "You didn't do anything wrong, so don't brood over it. He shouldn't have taken you for granted." Jasmine looked up, her eyes watery. "It's his loss." Jasmine genuinely beamed at Lily, enfolding her best friend in a tight embrace.
"Women." Sirius muttered exasperatedly, pulling his shirt off that night, revealing a very well toned body. Jake followed suite, his own body good enough to give Sirius's a run for its money. The two were out on the Hogwarts grounds with the rest of the Gryffindor boys, having snuck out under James's invisibility cloak. They'd decided that it was much too boring that night in the Common Room and went swimming instead.
"Women what?" said Jake, climbing onto a large rock, stretching. He was readying himself for a dive into the icy cold water of the lake. Frank and James leaned against the rock, waiting for their turn. He dove in, coming up to see Sirius sitting down, staring at the glittering moon's reflection in the rippling water. "Sirius?"
When Sirius gave no reply, James began explaining his dilemma, ending with a sigh. Remus came and sat next to Sirius, his shirt still on. The full moon had just passed and he was in no mood of showing off the fresh scabs and scars he'd attained. Peter sat at the edge of the water, wadding in very slowly. Frank and Jake, however, were treading water, taking in all the information they'd just heard. "Well, why'd you hit on the girl so much?" Frank inquired in an attempt to break the silence.
Everyone turned their heads toward Sirius, their eyes resting on him. He looked down at the ground, putting a hand through his hair before answering, "Actually, I really don't know. I didn't feel anything toward her until I got close enough to see her eyes. They were weird. I couldn't tell if they were really her eyes or moving water. They looked like the ocean, easy to drown in." He paused, sighing. "Well, I just looked at her and suddenly I felt like she was the most beautiful thing in the world. I felt like I didn't need anything else if I had her. Haven't you guys ever felt like that?"
There were a few muffled 'no's and the shaking of heads as the boys replied. However, James remained still, his eyes gazing at Sirius, but his mind anywhere but with him. When a silence fell, James strongly said, "Yes." At this, all heads turned toward him now. Every boy there looked on at him sympathetically, all but Jake, who was oblivious to James and Lily's relationship prior to his arrival.
Jake smirked, patting James on the back. "How long were you going to hide this from all of us?" He said, his tone just barely teasing him. There was a murmur of mock-consent, all the boys knowing exactly what was going on, ironically. James did not lock eyes with Jake, looking anywhere but at him. Jake, however, continued, "So, who's the lucky girl? I've got to make sure she's good enough for you, dude."
"Right, right." James mumbled to himself, scratching his head. He looked at Jake for the first time and said, "I'm pretty sure you'd approve, mate." Frank laughed nervously as Jake stared intensely at James, trying his hardest to read between James's word's lines, without luck, though, because he looked away soon and dove into the lake again. James decided to change the subject, turning toward Frank. His eyes were thanking him for the laugh, which had lightened the mood a bit, but he decided to tease him. "So, how're you and Alice going, Frank? Last I heard, you two were caught snogging while you were to be patrolling the halls on prefect duty."
"WHAT!" Frank bellowed, falling off the large rock he was about to dive off of, hitting the water hard as he landed flat on his stomach. The boys oh-ed in pain and mock, all laughing. Frank climbed out, rubbing where he'd fell as it speedily began reddening. This made the boys laugh harder. Remus stood to help Frank, saying he knew a good potion for bruises and rashes that will ease the pain and make it go away faster. The two walked off, Frank's limping figure obvious against the night.
They all sat, the laughter dying down, watching the two stalk away, when something suddenly hit James. "Oh my god! Frank! Remus! Come back!" He ran after them, grabbing hold of a silvery glittering cloth on his way. The two halted their pace, turning slowly. "We're not supposed to be on grounds, remember?" The boys gathered up under the cloak and returned to the Common Room, Remus and Frank taking a detour and going to the hospital wing instead.
The following day, Lily and James were very annoyed because they were forced to be around Sirius and James even more than usual, and their usual was far more than they wanted to begin with. Lily would spend time with Jake, who would hang out with Sirius now because the two seemed to have loads in common, and where there's Sirius, there's obviously James. Jasmine was annoyed due to Sirius's attempts at an apology. She hated being angry at him because she'd truly fallen for this boy and his goofiness, but she would never admit it. Since before she could remember, Jasmine had completely gone against the known fact that every girl, whether close or not to Sirius Black, would fall for him. The strength of the 'fall' could range from a simple one-day crush to love. She wasn't exactly sure where she ranged, but rejecting it would mean she'd never find out.
"I really didn't mean it!" said Sirius pleadingly, standing in front of Jasmine to keep her from walking on. She stopped, glaring at his knees, not wanting to look him in the eye. He stopped jumping around to look straight down at her. "Anyway, you shouldn't have tried to trick me! And with a temporary love spell, none-the-less."
"What d'you mean by trick you?" Jasmine retorted angrily. "I didn't trick you. I was merely trying to see if you asked me out because you liked me or because you liked my body." She poked Sirius in the chest, adding strong emphasis to the world 'me'.
"Then why didn't you just ask me? I mean, last I checked, talking wasn't a problem for you." He ended sarcastically, quirking an eyebrow and putting a finger to his chin. His tone of voice seemed to get to Jasmine, though, because she walked right past him. He softened, realizing finally that he'd said something rude. "Oh, Jas, c'mon! Just hear me out." He came and stood in front of her again, blocking her way. She stopped, placing a hand on her hip, her expression obviously telling Sirius that he had less than a minute so he'd better get a move on. "Er... well, I really didn't mean to hit on another girl, and technically, I didn't. It just seemed like I did."
"Please, Sirius." said Jasmine, closing her eyes slowly as if asking, no begging the dear Lord for patience. She continued just as slowly, "I really am not in the mood for your bull, so please leave me be." Then, she walked past him, this time not stopping even if he tried to block her way. She only slowed her pace when she was walking shoulder-to-shoulder with Lily with no space for Sirius to be anywhere near her.
Lily and Jake looked at each other, shaking their heads in mock-disappointment. "Must be their first lover's quarrel." Lily joked, cringing her nose playfully at Jasmine to lighten up her mood. Jasmine nodded mockingly in return before rolling her eyes. Lily laughed and threw a hand around her, pulling her close, making her smile though she didn't want to.
Lily and Jasmine sat in the corner of the Common Room opposite to the marauders' corner, Jake sitting next to Lily, an arm around her. Jasmine sat ahead of Lily and Jake, explaining her dilemma to them, her mixed feelings toward Sirius, and whether she should go out with him or not. "I really don't know. What if it hadn't been me? The love spell's easy enough to place, but it's easy enough to break as well. If he'd liked me for real, then he could've broken it easily." She said, her face buried in the palm of her hand. "You know what?" Jake spoke up quickly, sitting up straight. Lily and Jasmine looked up at him. "He probably wasn't able to break it because it was stronger when it was on you." Lily and Jasmine stared incredulously at him, Lily narrowing her eyes, trying to stop him from going on. She thought she had an idea as to where he was going. She could easily be wrong, but she didn't want to take any chances either way. "I mean, if he really likes you, then the spell gets stronger if it's on that one girl. I should know, I've looked it up before."
Lily smirked for a second, replying, "And what exactly drove you to look up a love spell?" Jake laughed nervously, realizing he'd said too much. Lily shook her head and said, "Anyway, the only way to fix this problem is for me to go talk to Sirius myself. I'll go look for them." Then, before anyone could stop her or even say anything, she was up and gone, the portrait hole clicking shut behind her.
"." Jake and Jasmine said in unison, each realizing just what Lily was gone to do, and it was definitely not good. However, there was no going after her because they'd never catch up. She knew way too many secret passages, all coming from following around the marauders in hopes of getting them in trouble, and then having to run away from them after being caught, causing the discovery of even more secret passageways. The two just sat back down, awaiting her return, knowing nothing else to do.
Sirius and James sat against a large tree outside on the Hogwarts grounds, against the rules of course. Both were sitting shirtless, Sirius having thrown them into the lake out of anger after letting all of his feelings out about Jasmine. "I just can't stand it! I want to be angry with her, but I can't! It's insane. Seriously, I want to be angry, but every time I imagine her face, I just... I just can't."
"Padfoot, I can relate." James assured Sirius, trying his best to calm him down before he completely lost him marbles. "I really do think I know how you feel—"
"No, I really don't think you do!" Sirius interrupted forcefully, taking James aback. Once he caught sight of James's expression, he threw him hands above his head onto his face, apologizing, "Aw, Prongs, I'm sorry. She's really making me go nuts. I think I'm going to lose my marbles sooner or later." James came and patted his back, trying to make him relax.
Just then, fiery red strands of wavy hair were seen as Lily made her way toward them, looking around her in fear of being caught outside after hours. James narrowed his eyes, staring at the figure, so black against the blazing fires of the Hogwarts castle. "Evans...?" He whispered very audibly.
"You got it." said Lily, happy she'd finally found the two after hours of searching. "Is Black there with you?" she inquired, unable to make out the second figure beside him. Just then, a long tentacle came out of the sparkling water and snatched up the translucent shirts, making Sirius freak out, having nothing to wear back inside now. "Oh, there you are." Sirius grunted gruffly, crossing his hands over his bare chest. "I suggest you go talk to Jasmine. Frankly, and I really don't think I should be telling you this, but she's a wreck without you."
"R-really?" Sirius mumbled, his eyes suddenly lighting up. He glanced between James and Lily unbelievingly. He let out a very loud bark of a laugh before running off, yelling, "Thanks, Evans! I owe you one!" He turned back to the castle, bellowing, "Oi! Jas!" Lily and James burst into large fits of laughter, holding their stomachs from the pain. After a few more minutes of laughter, it suddenly hit them that they were alone on the grounds at night under the rising moon.
"Er... anyway," Lily began apprehensively, rubbing the back of her neck with her fingers only. "I-I'd better get going. Jake will be waiting..." She made to head back to the castle when James quickly stopped her, taking hold of her hand.
"Wait. What if Jake is near Jasmine, or we run into her or something." He quickly explained when Lily inquiringly glanced back at him. Understanding dawned upon her face and she nodded, turning and sitting under the tall tree. After a moment's pause, James went and joined her under it, both keeping their distance. "So... er, how're you and Jake doing?" James began nervously. Lily glanced at him, an eyebrow quirked and a slight smile in place. "I-I mean... er, I shouldn't have asked that. No, that's personal... er..."
"Forget it." said Lily, giggling softly at James's stutter. James relaxed, knowing he hadn't completely made a fool of himself. Lily very slowly moved closer to James, closing her eyes slowly. They were so bright they seemed to glow through her eyelids, as James noticed. He moved closer to her himself and before the two knew it, they'd fallen asleep, Lily leaning over into James's lap. The stars glinted above them, making the moon glow with a greater radiance as James wrapped his arms around Lily and fell asleep, humming his favorite lullaby.
Wow, I didn't think I'd finish this in time. Well, I told you all I'd have it all ready for you guys soon as I could! Hope you enjoyed it!
How's that for long? Not too long, but it's long for me! Anyway, I'm surprised I was able to finish it in time. Also, d'you guys see how it ties in with the song? I really love that song... Anyway, you guys might think this is the end of the story, but you're barely at the middle. Get ready for loads next chapter!
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