Title: Destiny As We Make It
Summary: Shounen-ai/yaoi so for those who don't like this, please don't read and don't waste your time. Ryou Bakura is in love with his Yami but his other half just won't show his true emotions. Hurt and confused, Ryou becomes a sight for another's eyes… and when the unexpected happens, Bakura has to decide if he will let his hikari live and give him up… or risk losing him but let him stay? And when Bakura makes the biggest mistake ever, who will Ryou chose: Bakura or Seto? And who is this mystery guy and what is he planning? Pairings: BxR, SxMG, a little bit of YxYY and of course some SxR…
Chapter13: Don't You Love Me Anymore Part 2
Edited version
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Seto's POV
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I glare daggers at the door as I opened it to reveal a very drunk blond. I sighed inwardly; knowing all too well that part of his state right now was probably my fault. He tipped over his feet as he made his way towards my desk. Already I could smell the booze he was drinking maybe just a few minutes ago.
"Sit down."
"I don't wanna sit down."
"Don't be a bitch," I said as I increased my glare tenfold. "Just sit down already."
"So now I'm a bitch!" He snorted and tried to return my glower. "Wha' happened ta 'mutt'? Ta 'puppy'?"
I bit my lip; wanting anything but to listen to his awaiting rant. I shook my head as I looked at him again. His messy hair was in an even messier state, his once clear and sparkling auburn eyes were now dull and bloodshot, he reeked of cheap (1) booze and street stench and he probably hasn't changed clothes for a whole week.
"What do you want?" I muttered, trying to change the topic.
"Ya love Ryou, don't ya?"
"It's none of your goddamned business." I scowl at his cocky expression, getting irked for the fact that he had the guts to even come here and confront me after what he did.
"It's my friggin business too, yanno!"
"We're not together anymore, you should know that."
"I still love ya Seto."
"No… you don't"
"Yes I do."
I shook my head again. It was already difficult dealing with him sober… it was even harder dealing with him drunk.
"We're over…"
"No we're not! We could start ol ova Seto!"
My anger was building up again.
Why did he have to say the worst things at the wrong times?
"No… we're over. Can't you get that through your thick skull!"
"No I can't! We can't be over Seto! If you'd just let me explain… I still love-"
"NO YOU DON'T! I am so sick and tired of always hearing you say that! You don't love me! You never did! The only thing you wanted from me was my money!"
He stopped and stared at me for a moment.
I hadn't meant to say that.
But I was teetering n the edge of an emotional breakdown, what did you expect me to do?
"That's not true Kaiba, and ya know it!"
"Oh yeah? Then why in hell did you fuckin' cheat on me! Wasn't I a good enough fuck for you!" I retorted, nearly falling over the edge.
His eyes narrowed at me… and I never saw the slap coming for my face. I held my cheek as I glared at him… he wasn't done yet.
"That's not true! I neva cheated on ya! You're da one's who cheatin' on me!" He talked back, slamming his hands on the front of my table, making the pens clatter and fall to the floor.
I snorted at what he said. I never, in our short- lived relationship, ever cheated on him!
"What about Honda, then? And I never cheated on you when we were still together so don't try to blame this on me!" I growled angrily at him, letting my fury get the best of me. I slammed my own curled fists down on my table, making the papers that I was supposed to be signing flying through the air.
"Dat wid Honda was nothin'! And I'm talkin' 'bout Ryou!" He seethed at me, evil fire igniting in his orbs; something Bakura would have been proud of.
I unclenched my fists.
"Nothing! Goddamnit, that wasn't nothing! And I decided to be with him after we broke up! I never cheated on you because I fuckin' loved you too much!" I confessed bitterly; once again reopening the wounds he caused me.
I felt like blood was pouring out of them.
He stopped seething all at once, blinking at me like I had said the weirdest thing ever. I thought he was just going to pass out on my carpet, or maybe make me melt under his gaze… but …
"Seto, do ya still love me?"
This caught me unaware.
Did I still love him?
After all that we've been through?
After the he'll he put me through when he decided I wasn't good enough for him?
…
…
…
I looked at him again; for the first time noticing the hurt look on his face. I cursed inwardly; I'm a protégée (2), not some emotional expert. First his betrayal, then Ryou and his beatings, and now this? What's next, the fall of Kaiba Corporation?
I knew how to deal with work stress…
But I didn't know how to deal with this kind of stress.
"Get out."
I couldn't deal with all of this in one moment.
"I won't"
"I said get out."
I needed to think things through.
"No! you hafta answer me first Kaiba!"
Damn!
"Just get out."
I needed to be alone; to think things through.
"But Seto-"
I snapped.
"JUST GET THE HELL OUT OF MY OFFICE!" I bellowed as I got up and shoved him out the still ajar door. Hell, my staff could have heard everything but I didn't care. I had more things on my mind than the branches of Kaiba Corp. all over Japan.
"Seto! Fuck! Just quit bitchin' on me an' tell me if ya still love me!" he was whining now, nearly crying again. He banged his fists on the door, getting hysterical.
I hate it when he cries.
Especially, if it was because of me.
"Seto! Damn it, let me in! I still wanna talk to ya!" He was still beating at my door; his shrill voice pierced through the silence of my office, making me fall on my kness.
"Just go…"
"I can't! I still… I still… love-"
"No you don't love me… you wouldn't have cheated on me if you did."
Silence
I sighed deeply.
"Don't you love me anymore Seto?" His quiet voice echoed through my mind.
What now?
Do I still love him?
After everything?
After he did that to me?
…
…
…
Yes
I still do…
Somehow, someway, deep down inside me, I know I did cheat on him – somewhat…
And that I was- and still am, in love with him…
…
…
But
"N-" I couldn't bring myself to say it.
Because if I did, I would never be able to get take it back…
… Wait…
Take it back?
Why would I want to take it back?
I still had Ryou…
Ryou…
Or
Him?
Ryou…
But then why? Why can't I just tell it outright? Why can't I just say no?
Am I…
Am I…
Am I afraid?
Afraid that once I let him go, I'll never get him back?
Afraid that I'll completely lose him?
"Seto?" His voice sounded strained.
"N-" I started.
Was I sure about this?
Was I really sure about this?
"Seto… don't ya?" His voice was cracking now.
"No…" I weakly whispered, but loud enough for him to hear. "No… I don't anymore. Please just go…," I muttered in defeat as I rested my head on the doorknob.
"Please just go," I repeated, silently pleading him to go away… to leave me alone.
"You… Seto… Ya do-don't mean dat…"
I bit my lip.
"Yes… I do mean it."
Silence
"Sayonara, Kaiba."
I cringed at his tone.
It was…
It was…
It was…
Cold
Cold as death.
He left.
MG's POV
I froze at the spot as Seto told me he meant everything. I wanted to cry, but I knew this neither the time nor place to do that…
I clenched my fists…
I bowed my head, allowing my anger to surface…
"Sayonara, Kaiba." I quietly warn him as I left the building.
It was pouring outside…
Yes, WARN him…
So he doesn't want me anymore does he?
What gives him the right to throw me away like that?
I narrow my eyes as familiar sensation crept through my throat.
Seto didn't love me anymore…
Seto didn't care for me anymore…
I wasn't his koi anymore…
Ryou
It was Ryou now…
It was all Ryou now…
Tears were pooling at he brim of my eyes…
I ran…
Where am I supposed to go now? At the distance, I saw the Kame Game shop…
Yugi…
My best bud…
He'd help me…
I ran as fast as I could towards the shop.
Yugi's POV
It was already nine in the evening and I still was up to my nose buried in homework. Those stupid teachers were seriously trying to kill us! Specially technical writing!
I sigh in frustration as I tried to make an abstract for the technical composition, "Laser: Boon or Bane." (3)
/Having troubles aibou/
/Uh-huh…/ I turned back to my work.
/Maybe I can help you with that/
/I doubt it Yami… they didn't teach you how to make abstracts and thesis when you were pharaoh in Egypt/
/Fair point/
/Lucky you…/
I then received a mental smirk coming from my Yami. I shook my head as I stuck my tongue at him mentally.
/What are you doing in there anyway/
/Making dinner what else/
/Oh… I-/
My thoughts got interrupted as the chimes tinkled, announcing a customer.
"Good evening, what can I do for-" I looked up after placing my pen back on the table top and was surprised to see…
"Kami!" I yelled in surprise I saw my best friend standing there by the door, eyes red and puffy, clothes and hair drenched with the cold salty rain.
He was crying again.
And I only have a vague idea why…
"What happened?" I ask him as jump from my seat to take him and drag him to the kitchen. When yami saw us, he was quite surprised.
"What happened to you?" Yami asked him as I set him down on a chair, wrapping his shivering body in a towel.
/Yami, can you get me some hot tea/
/Sure aibou… but what's going on/
/I don't know yet… but I think it has something to do Seto/
Yami snorted and got working on that tea. I returned my attention to the blond in front of me.
"What happened to you?" I ask him as I got another towel to wrap around his mop of hair.
"Se- Se- Seto doesn't love me anymore… Yuge…" he wailed as he clung to my shoulder.
"But I thought you two were over?" I smile gently at him as I put a hand behind his back.
This though was certainly the worst thing to say.
"Yes, but I still love him!" He cried even harder after that simple statement. I frowned; I never knew the reason of their breakup. I only knew it involved Honda but that's all there is. Only the three of them know what happened.
/Yugi/
/Yes Yami/
/Did I hear right/
/Yes Yami…/
/…/
/…/
/Yugi/
/Hai, Yami/
/I think Seto has some explaining to do/
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1 trust Seto to always know if something is cheap or not (shakes head) geez… I wish I had his keen sense of smell…
2 so I've heard that our favorite CEO is a protégée… hmmm… maybe I should make him do all my technical writing problems.
3 grr… technical writing just sucks the creativity out of people doesn't it? So I have decided to take the liberty of bashing it with the help of Yugi… oh you haven't seen the bashing part yet though… and not only Yugi would be helping me…
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Yume: it's about time you wrote the next part, Gale!
Gale: sorry! I have been sulking my butt off coz my computer lost everything in it! (sniff sniff)
Yume: everything?
Gale: EVERYTHING!
Yako: so what the hell is 'everything' that you lost?
Gale: my yaoi pics of YuGiOh, Beyblade and Gundam Wing... and then some…
Aya: And of course all the other chaps of Destiny…
Yume: oh… pity on you… (pats Gale's head)
Yako: (raises eyebrow) you probably deserved it anyway…
Aya: shut up…
Gale: well, see you guys in a few…