A huge thank you to everyone who reviewed. I really appreciate the
feedback. Also I am so sorry it took this long to get the next chapter
written. This one is going to be in Aya's pov which is partially why it
took so long. I seem to have a hard time writing him in character, though I
have no clue as to why. Anyway enough babbling, on with the story.
Summary of second chap: Since the first chapter was in Ken's pov and some people said that I should do one in Aya's, so here it is.
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We all have our demon's, that is what you told me one day when I shut you out. You were right, we all do. We all creep along the edge of the abyss testing fate to see how long we can keep our balance before falling in and letting the demon's consume ourselves. However I did not want any help with the burden of my nightmares, but still they pushed. So I found a solution, just shut everyone out of your life and no one will want to get close to you. I told myself this so many times and I eventually started to believe it. To my delight it worked, or so I thought.
You were the exception. Every time I would push you away you would just try harder to get close to me. You infuriated me to no end with your menial attempts to get through, what Yoji has so kindly named, my ice wall. Instead of giving in and giving you the reaction you wanted I would walk past you without even so much as a glance and start on some little task,. I found many ways to keep myself busy. Sometimes it would be tending to the flowers in the shop and sometimes it would be sharpening my katana, which by chance proved to be the best way to keep people away.
I always came out being the victor, that is until that day. Weiss had just found out that I had a sister and wanted to know why I took her name as well as why they were never told. Only you were silent, just staring at me blankly. Suddenly I had to get out of this room, this house, so I decided that despite the rain that was falling I was going for a walk. I quickly turned around and mentioned that I would be back.
After walking blindly for quite some time I ended up in the park. Glancing around I was pleased to find that the grounds had been deserted due to the weather. I walked up to the nearest tree and sat down leaning against it, not minding that I would have to clean mud off my close later on. I closed my eyes and let my mind wander over my past until I heard footsteps. Looking up I saw you. You were standing next to me looking off in distance. Finally you looked at me and sat down patiently waiting for me to make the next move. Since you were often times brash and hot headed I thought you would do something if I waited long enough. I was wrong again you just sat there looking at me. So I instigated a little staring match.
Finally I let out a sigh and looked at the ground. Realization hit me then, you had never pushed me to say anything before, you just gave hints to let me know that you were there for me. I started to tell you about my past. When I got to the part about my family's death and what happened to my sister I started to cry. I tried to choke the tears back like I had done for so long but that only resulted in me sobbing harder. You put a comforting arm around my shoulders and let me cry. Never once saying a word. When I was able to regain my composure I finished telling you my story.
When I was finished I just sat there leaning against your side while you still had your arm around me. After a few moments I looked up at you I gave you a slight smile as a thank you , you smiled back then stood up declaring it was time we got going. I stood up as well and started to walk away then stopped realizing that you weren't following me. When I turned to ask why you shocked me when you started saying that you to had a confession to make. That is when you told me that you loved me. I just stood there stunned at what I had heard then I saw the hurt in your eyes, yet there was understanding in them as well. You walked past me slowly keeping your eyes on the ground. I quickly reached up and grabbed your wrist. Those chocolate eyes looked up at me confused.
"I'm not sure we'll work, but I'm willing to give it a try if you are." I told you. You looked stunned but recovered quickly and gave me a hug. With that we left for home. This was were everything started to go downhill. At first it was just the occasional tiff about the fact that I wasn't opening up anymore, but that quickly changed into all out brawls.
Tonight was the worst fight we had ever had. You were mad bout the fact that I never showed you affection and that I was always so cold to him. At this I got mad since you knew that this was how I always was. The harsh words started to flow out of both of us. Finally I sighed in defeat, I was getting tired of this routine that never got us anywhere.
"It's over." I say to you quietly.
"What do you mean it's over?" I couldn't tell whether you wre more confused, hurt, or angry.
"We're through, I am tired of this. Just leave me alone." I started to leave until I heard you mummble something. "What did you say?"
"I said you were a heartless bastard who never deserves to be loved." You say looking me straight in the eye. Another argument quickly ensued. However you were quick to deal the breaking point.
"I bet your sister would be ashamed at how you are today." These were the last words I heard you say.
"How dare you even talk about her. You have no right to even think about her. You know nothing." I ran towards you punching you square in the jaw knocking you over. "You know what would make me the happiest man alive, to have you disappear and never come back." I left after saying this and locked myself up in my room.
I never thought I would hate silence, but now I do. It allows your mind to wander and that can sometimes hurt. After hearing your door slam I began to think over everything that had happened over the past weeks. I felt heartbroken and I couldn't figure out why. It wasn't as if you ever meant all that much to me anyway, did you? I can't get rid of the empty feeling I now have. I begin to remember when we first started 'going out' we used to talk in my room after the others fell asleep, normally about menial things but it was still nice. Suddenly I felt something wet on my cheek. I was crying, but why. Then I realized that it was because you really did mean something to me and I just let you go. I quickly resolved to get you back. I walk to you room and turn the handle, completely unprepared for what I was about to see.
You were laying on the floor in a puddle of your own blood, a blade is on the floor by your hand. I run to your side as fast as I can.
"Why, why did you do this? Ken you idiot. What the hell were you thinking?" Tears start to fall from my eyes as I hold you in my arms. The light in your eyes starts to grow dim. "No, Ken stay with me, everything will be fine." This can't be happening you had to be alright. ""Aya..Ran, I'm sorry. Goodbye." You whisper as your eyelids start to fall shut tears are now flowing down your face as well. Finally I get the nerve to tell him my true feelings in one last attempt to keep you here with me.
"Aishiteru, Ken."
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TBC
Well I hope everyone likes this chapter. I'm not sure I like it. I have trouble writing Aya but I hope it was at least a good attempt. The next chapter will not be written in his pov though, so hopefully it will be better. Anyway please tell me what you think.
Again thanks to: Gonyos, ko0okai, I-Love-Ken-Hidaka, HeeroDuo4eva, Olivia-yuymaxwell, Susan, Celeste1, Misura, and Kirei aya.
Summary of second chap: Since the first chapter was in Ken's pov and some people said that I should do one in Aya's, so here it is.
********** *********** *******
We all have our demon's, that is what you told me one day when I shut you out. You were right, we all do. We all creep along the edge of the abyss testing fate to see how long we can keep our balance before falling in and letting the demon's consume ourselves. However I did not want any help with the burden of my nightmares, but still they pushed. So I found a solution, just shut everyone out of your life and no one will want to get close to you. I told myself this so many times and I eventually started to believe it. To my delight it worked, or so I thought.
You were the exception. Every time I would push you away you would just try harder to get close to me. You infuriated me to no end with your menial attempts to get through, what Yoji has so kindly named, my ice wall. Instead of giving in and giving you the reaction you wanted I would walk past you without even so much as a glance and start on some little task,. I found many ways to keep myself busy. Sometimes it would be tending to the flowers in the shop and sometimes it would be sharpening my katana, which by chance proved to be the best way to keep people away.
I always came out being the victor, that is until that day. Weiss had just found out that I had a sister and wanted to know why I took her name as well as why they were never told. Only you were silent, just staring at me blankly. Suddenly I had to get out of this room, this house, so I decided that despite the rain that was falling I was going for a walk. I quickly turned around and mentioned that I would be back.
After walking blindly for quite some time I ended up in the park. Glancing around I was pleased to find that the grounds had been deserted due to the weather. I walked up to the nearest tree and sat down leaning against it, not minding that I would have to clean mud off my close later on. I closed my eyes and let my mind wander over my past until I heard footsteps. Looking up I saw you. You were standing next to me looking off in distance. Finally you looked at me and sat down patiently waiting for me to make the next move. Since you were often times brash and hot headed I thought you would do something if I waited long enough. I was wrong again you just sat there looking at me. So I instigated a little staring match.
Finally I let out a sigh and looked at the ground. Realization hit me then, you had never pushed me to say anything before, you just gave hints to let me know that you were there for me. I started to tell you about my past. When I got to the part about my family's death and what happened to my sister I started to cry. I tried to choke the tears back like I had done for so long but that only resulted in me sobbing harder. You put a comforting arm around my shoulders and let me cry. Never once saying a word. When I was able to regain my composure I finished telling you my story.
When I was finished I just sat there leaning against your side while you still had your arm around me. After a few moments I looked up at you I gave you a slight smile as a thank you , you smiled back then stood up declaring it was time we got going. I stood up as well and started to walk away then stopped realizing that you weren't following me. When I turned to ask why you shocked me when you started saying that you to had a confession to make. That is when you told me that you loved me. I just stood there stunned at what I had heard then I saw the hurt in your eyes, yet there was understanding in them as well. You walked past me slowly keeping your eyes on the ground. I quickly reached up and grabbed your wrist. Those chocolate eyes looked up at me confused.
"I'm not sure we'll work, but I'm willing to give it a try if you are." I told you. You looked stunned but recovered quickly and gave me a hug. With that we left for home. This was were everything started to go downhill. At first it was just the occasional tiff about the fact that I wasn't opening up anymore, but that quickly changed into all out brawls.
Tonight was the worst fight we had ever had. You were mad bout the fact that I never showed you affection and that I was always so cold to him. At this I got mad since you knew that this was how I always was. The harsh words started to flow out of both of us. Finally I sighed in defeat, I was getting tired of this routine that never got us anywhere.
"It's over." I say to you quietly.
"What do you mean it's over?" I couldn't tell whether you wre more confused, hurt, or angry.
"We're through, I am tired of this. Just leave me alone." I started to leave until I heard you mummble something. "What did you say?"
"I said you were a heartless bastard who never deserves to be loved." You say looking me straight in the eye. Another argument quickly ensued. However you were quick to deal the breaking point.
"I bet your sister would be ashamed at how you are today." These were the last words I heard you say.
"How dare you even talk about her. You have no right to even think about her. You know nothing." I ran towards you punching you square in the jaw knocking you over. "You know what would make me the happiest man alive, to have you disappear and never come back." I left after saying this and locked myself up in my room.
I never thought I would hate silence, but now I do. It allows your mind to wander and that can sometimes hurt. After hearing your door slam I began to think over everything that had happened over the past weeks. I felt heartbroken and I couldn't figure out why. It wasn't as if you ever meant all that much to me anyway, did you? I can't get rid of the empty feeling I now have. I begin to remember when we first started 'going out' we used to talk in my room after the others fell asleep, normally about menial things but it was still nice. Suddenly I felt something wet on my cheek. I was crying, but why. Then I realized that it was because you really did mean something to me and I just let you go. I quickly resolved to get you back. I walk to you room and turn the handle, completely unprepared for what I was about to see.
You were laying on the floor in a puddle of your own blood, a blade is on the floor by your hand. I run to your side as fast as I can.
"Why, why did you do this? Ken you idiot. What the hell were you thinking?" Tears start to fall from my eyes as I hold you in my arms. The light in your eyes starts to grow dim. "No, Ken stay with me, everything will be fine." This can't be happening you had to be alright. ""Aya..Ran, I'm sorry. Goodbye." You whisper as your eyelids start to fall shut tears are now flowing down your face as well. Finally I get the nerve to tell him my true feelings in one last attempt to keep you here with me.
"Aishiteru, Ken."
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TBC
Well I hope everyone likes this chapter. I'm not sure I like it. I have trouble writing Aya but I hope it was at least a good attempt. The next chapter will not be written in his pov though, so hopefully it will be better. Anyway please tell me what you think.
Again thanks to: Gonyos, ko0okai, I-Love-Ken-Hidaka, HeeroDuo4eva, Olivia-yuymaxwell, Susan, Celeste1, Misura, and Kirei aya.