A/N: I finished reading HBP and this piece came to mind. To me, it never seemed like Snape betrayed Dumbledore. And thus, this was born. Enjoy!
He always knew that he couldn't continue playing the double agent. In the back of his mind there would come a time when he would have to choose sides. He never dreamed it would be like this. He never in a million years dreamed the question would be why.
The worst part of this whole situation was that no one would understand. The whole Order would be too caught up with his evident betrayal. There was no way they would realize he hadn't betrayed them. No way would they realize they had gained a powerful ally.
Nothing seemed real anymore. He couldn't feel anything at all. No, scratch that. All he felt was pain. He couldn't help but wonder why he was chosen to do it. Yet, inside he knew why. Trust.
Trust was a powerful feeling to have about a person. He knew no one in the Order would ever trust him again. And how could they? He had double-crossed them and used an unforgivable curse on the only one you-know-who ever feared.
Snape slumped down on his couch in his home on Spinner's end. It wouldn't be long before the Dark Lord summoned him to congratulate him on killing Dumbledore. There was no doubt in his mind that the Dark Lord would regard him as one of his most faithful servants. And hopefully if he was lucky he could convince Voldemort to spare Draco's life.
At least Draco hadn't been able to do it. Snape was glad for that. After all, anyone who has blood on their hands is never the same. He knew that for a fact. Taking a life changes you. A part of your innocence is lost. And to tell the truth, Snape never thought Draco was ready for that. Dumbledore probably didn't either.
But most of Snape's worries didn't rest on Draco. He was fine. Besides the fact that he was worried about the Dark Lord coming to take his life, he was fine. Draco hadn't done anything near as bad as Snape. And he could always plead to the Ministry that he had been put under the Imperious curse.
Snape's main worries were about his job. How would he get his job back if Hogwarts ever reopened? Minerva, and half of the current Hogwarts staff probably would never trust him enough to teach, much less be in the same room alone with Harry Potter. And then, of course there was the fact that he was now a fugitive. The last time he had checked the daily prophet there was a price on his head. Snape knew he would have lay low for at least a couple of months so that people wouldn't try to kill him on sight. Part of him was still hoping that there was some way that his fugitive status would disappear. He secretly hoped Dumbledore left a note that specifically stated that he didn't betray Dumbledore. If only he was an animagus like Sirius had been...
Snape knew he should have never agreed to this. He knew upfront he was putting himself in a bad position. In fact, he knew it two years ago when Dumbledore first asked him to start spying for the Dark Lord again. If only he had never made that Unbreakable Vow…that was what caused this situation. But of course, Dumbledore would still of made him protect poor Draco's innoncence. Was there any way to get out of this mess?