Hello. This is just something I had to inform everyone of. I may not be posting chapters as fast as I used to. They may take a bit more time to my sudden thinking I have depression. Let me inform you about it.
There are ten symptoms for depression. Me being at my young age, hit nine. I'm sure if I ever had sex I woulda hit number ten. Sadly, through further research, I'm more convinced than ever, so I may not be the best writer..I'm also becoming a bit suicidal, having suicidal thoughts.. So I'm sorry..
You don't know how it feels, everyone expects me to be perfect.. Everything thinks I'm perfect, and no one notices. Read this poem below.. It suits me perfectly..
At work
With other people
At times
On
the outside
I look fine
I seem fine
I feel pretty
good
I have a positive attitude...
But inside, alone, I
carry dark & heavy thoughts
fleeting thoughts of suicide.
The words cannot convey,
the feelings, the pain
Somehow I
ignore them
for a while, perhaps
a long while, all day,
or many days
figure it will go away ignore
It's
automatically not even recognized mentally.
I go back
forcing
myself
forcing day to day, week to week,
contact with people
and life
My sorrow is hidden,
My anguish contained.
I
push forward;
I feel like dying.
I tell no one.
No one
knows how I feel..
And this is the end of my poem. I hope you all understand. I'm sorry about the inconvinience, I promise you all, I'm getting help..
Ja ne!