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Btw…they own the jeep and the 'vette…
Justin sat on that bed for hours after Brian left.
He didn't move…
He just sat there thinking about what he had done.
Soon it was one in the morning and he felt the bed sink under someone's weight next to him.
"Daddy?" Gus asked.
" Are you ok?"
He got no answer.
"Daddy?" Gus repeated and still…
no answer.
" Fine…
If you won't talk then I will.
I heard the whole thing."
That got a reaction.
Justin turned his head to look at Gus and for the first time Gus got a look at his father's tear-streaked face.
His eyes were red from crying and his nose was all red at the tip too.
And in place of his usual sunshine smile there was nothing.
His face was completely expressionless.
But even though he couldn't see it on his face,
When Gus looked into his father's eyes he saw complete and utter sadness.
The twinkle that was in his sapphire blue eyes when he was with Brian was gone.
It was replaced with just a blank stare.
And it broke Gus's heart to see.
But he continued to talk.
" I was standing at the bathroom door when he walked away.
When I heard you tell hem about Parker I was so mad.
I wanted to scream and yell and tell you that I hated you and that I wished I had never told you anything in the first place...
And that I wished that you weren't my dad…
But…
Then I heard you say that even though there is no blood relation between us that you love me like I was your own son.
And I realized that I could never say anything like that to you because I didn't…
I don't mean it.
I love you daddy….
And I know that dad does too."
" Thank you Gus," replied Justin in a monotone voice…
" I love you too…
But its time for bed…you have school tomorrow."
" Goodnight daddy."
But he got no reply.
After Gus left the room, Justin thought about what he had said.
He knew Brian loved him.
They had been through so much and no matter what they always wound up together.
He couldn't let him just walk away.
For the first time since Brian walked out the door, Justin got up off the bed and ran to Gus's room
"I'll be back.
If I'm not back by the morning to take you to school call grandma…and if she asks where we are tell her…well just…make something up…love you…"
Justin didn't even give Gus a chance to reply before he rushed out of the room and flung the loft door open.
He ran outside and saw that Brian had taken the 'vette so he hopped into the jeep and drove off.
Justin pulled up in front of Woody's and ran in.
He quickly found the guys who looked at him,confused.
" Have any of you seen Brian?"
"No honey," Emmit answered, " we haven't seen him all night."
" Ok…
Thanks…
Bye"
Justin heard them call after him but he didn't take the time to explain what had happened.
He hopped back into the jeep and drove away from the curb.
There's only one more place he could be, Justin thought as he turned onto the highway.
Brian sat at the bar, nursing his second double beam of the night.
He knocked back the drink and signaled to the bartender for another.
He looked around him…
He was sitting in some seedy little breeder bar.
He had stumbled across it long before Justin came along.
It was his secret spot…
Just some hole in the wall where he would come to think.
But the last thing he wanted to do right now was think…
To think about what Justin had said.
He told himself not to believe it….
That Justin was just pissed when he said it and it wasn't true…
He was a good father and he did what was needed to support his family…
And he needed to be at the office to do so…
That's all bullshit and you know it Kinney, he thought.
Then he thought back a couple of years…
The fact hit him like a brick wall….
Justin was right…
He was never home when Gus came home from school…he was always working…
And all those softball games he had missed…he couldn't even remember what the name of the team Gus played for was.
How the fuck did this happen?
When did he become so obsessed with work that he couldn't even take a little time off to spend with his son?
What made Brian feel even worse was that he had just…
Left…
And Justin had no idea where he was….
What an asshole, he thought.
Only seconds after he thought those words did he hear the door open.
He turned around to see who it was and came face to face with a pair of blue eyes.
"Justin?" he said.
He saw that Justin's face was streaked with tear marks and he noticed the same thing that Gus did.
The sparkle was gone.
No longer did he look into those eyes and see them shining back at him…they were blank.
The only thing he saw in them was the face of some forty something year old asshole staring back at him.
"I…how?" was all Brian could manage to say before he got up and threw his arms around the smaller man.
He felt the warmth as tears ran down his cheeks.
"How did you know I was here? I never told you about this place…"Brian asked.
" You talk in your sleep," Justin replied.
" Baby I'm so sorry for walking out like that…
I should have never left like I did…"
"No…I'm sorry…
I should have told you about what happened with Gus…
but he made me promise and I wanted to keep it but I should have told you any way…and…"
"Shhh…its ok…you were right.
I do need to spend more time with him.
I never realized how work obsessed I was…
You need to come before work and I put you after…I'm gonna change that…I promise.."
"Don't promise…just do it…"
they threw their arms around each other again and kissed each other like each of them had just come back from a ten year trip…
It was like they hadn't seen each other in years but it had only been a matter of hours.
"Lets go home baby…" said Brian as he linked his arm around Justin's waist.
They both left the bar together and got in their respective cars and followed each other home.
They got back to the loft just as the sun was rising.
Brian and Justin had been awake all night and all they wanted to do was climb into bed and go to sleep.
They got into the loft and fell right into bed, not bothering to even change.
Justin snuggled into Brian's arms as they fell asleep.
When they finally woke up the loft was empty.
Gus must have called Deb to bring him to school, Justin thought.
He told Brian this and they snuggled back under the covers, not bothering to look at what time it was.
Gus came home from school and walked quietly into the loft.
He stood at the bottom of the stairs and looked at his sleeping fathers.
He loved them both and he knew that they loved each other just as much.
And that they always would…
THE END….
Haha…JUST KIDDING!
Preview for next chapter: Brian, Justin and Gus go on vaca!