Disclaimer: I don't own gravitation or any of its characters but Taka, Lance, Darren and the band Karasu I do own.

Chapter 5: Confession

Yuki tapped away on his keyboard waiting for K to come home. The house was getting kind of lonely and K was late. Maybe K was right and he should start going out of the house more. He heard the front door open and looked up as K walked into the room. "Oh its you." He went back to staring at the screen.

"Thanks for the nice and polite greeting. How's your book going?" K tossed his jacket on the couch and came up to stand behind him.

"Pretty good, but this time the editor wants a happy ending and I guess I'm going to have to give it to him. so your advice about writing what I feel isn't coming in very handy." Yuki saw a flicker of hurt in K's eyes but he didn't say anything. That's not true, you have been feeling happy even if it's just a little bit for a while now and you'd never have taken up that book if you didn't think you could make it slightly happy. The little voice in his head argued.

"Well maybe you should just give it a shot. You can't always have your cake and eat it too." K picked up a mug of coffee and studied Yuki's cold face. He was going back to being himself…the cold controlled Yuki Eiri.

"I think I already realized that baka…I wouldn't even be trying otherwise. What happened to you? Run out of the usual stream of advice you give?" Yuki glanced at him.

"Yeah I guess. Hey I'm just going to crash for a while ok? Then we can do whatever we want to do for the night…I'm a little sick of sitting around at home." K walked off into his room, not noticing the way Yuki stared after him.

KK

Yuki watched the American disappear into his room and scowled. Why can't the guy sit down and talk for a while? Can't he see that I'm feeling lonely? K used to understand me so well and now it's almost like we're strangers. Yuki stopped the trail of thought angrily. He had never depended on anyone other than Shuichi and he didn't need to start depending on K now.

A week passed with Yuki acting unapproachable and K feeling confused and desperate. At last he decided to contact Taka and talk to her about it. If he didn't then well it would drive him nuts. He went into the studio and found her practicing for the concert, the next day. He pulled her aside.

"Taka, I need to talk to you." Before she could answer, she found herself at the café where they'd talked the day before. K looked very serious, she almost felt scared.

But when they sat down, it was in silence until she got a little impatient. "K-san…what is it?" she looked at him full of concern. He looked up at her, his eyes a little too bright as he filled her in on Yuki's behaviour for the past week.

"It's almost like he doesn't want me there anymore. I mean I knew he was cold but he's been specially cutting for the past few weeks and I don't know how to take it. I haven't said anything, but he's so sarcastic and vicious about anything I do! I know he's not feeling too good about something, but for once I have no idea what it is…he doesn't let me touch him or talk to him out right…there's always an excuse. I can't tell him anything now Taka-san. It's just going to make him feel worse." K angrily brushed away a tear that ran down his cheek…fine he was feeling desperate and hurt but he didn't have to cry!

Taka came closer and hugged him. "Maybe he's just not able to express his feelings K-chan," she said in a soft sisterly voice. "Maybe you should just sit him down and ask him what's going on and you guys should talk things out. You have a right to ask because apart from the fact that you love him, you're his roommate. And well if you think he doesn't want you there, ask him about it. I can tell you all this is purely because of lack of communication, on both your sides."

K pulled away slowly. What she was saying seemed right. He'd go home right away and talk to Yuki. He didn't have to tell him he loved him, it would just be a roommate kind of talk. He started feeling kind of stupid. "I should have thought of that, maybe been more firm, I'm feeling really stupid right now. An eighteen year old's giving me the advice, I should have thought of."

Taka grinned. "Firstly apart from music this eighteen year old is studying psychology and secondly love usually makes people desperados, neh? I mean I had to ask my little brother for advice on Darren last week. And to tell you the truth if I hadn't been feeling tired and worried I could have thought of it myself!"

K grinned at her. "I'd better get going Dr.Taka. I have to put your advice to work. Um…get on with the practicing, you sounded pretty good you know." K ran out of the café and all the way back to his car.

KK

Yuki walked out of the grocery store and stopped in surprise. K was sitting at the café across the street with a beautiful girl of about eighteen. She had long black hair that fell to her hips, dark blue eyes and full red lips. He saw K say something and then the girl came closer and hugged him. Yuki felt a wave of some strange emotion envelope him. His eyes narrowed as a sudden anger swept him off his feet. He watched as the girl smiled at K and whispered to him. it looked like they were joking around, like the girl really loved K, the knowledge certainly made him feel strange. At last after what seemed to him like hours (it was only twenty minutes) K pulled away and after a few minutes of hurried conversation, he saw K start jogging in another direction. The girl got up too watching the man jog away, before walking back to what Yuki supposed was the studio.

He stood there watching the empty table for a while, the picture of the girl hugging K still vividly imprinted in his memory. He turned away slowly and began walking back to his apartment. So K has a girlfriend and he hasn't even told me! Though why am I feeling so mad? Maybe that's the reason why he's acting so lost lately. Maybe he wants to move out…but staying with me hasn't been so binding I mean I can let him have a girlfriend if he wants one! But…I don't want K to have a girlfriend…

KK

"Yuki!" K found the whole house empty. "Maybe he's gone out somewhere. Oh well guess I'll have to wait." He flopped down on the sofa full off determination and a little bit of happiness. He was so sure it was going to work. Yuki would see reason and they'd work it out and he'd know what was bugging the blonde so much!"

He switched on the TV and flicked to one of the music channels. Karasu's new single 'Tsuki' was playing. He moved his head in time to the tune, they were not bad, not as good as bad luck perhaps…there was room for improvement, but if they did practice harder, they'd definitely reach the top! He frowned Nittle Grasper was still at the top of the charts and bad luck not far behind…so Shuichi still lived through his music. He switched off the TV…Yuki was still not back; he risked flicking through one of the drawers and found, the single 'Glaring Dream'. He shrugged as he put it on; this was one song that he liked a lot for some odd reason. He could relate to the lyrics. He lay back and closed his eyes drowning in the music.

Yuki unlocked the door, when the blast of Shuichi's voice singing hit him.

"Tsumetai toki ga yume o furaseru

kono te no naka o suri nukete

negai…"

Yuki walked up to the music system and switched it off. K woke up suddenly as the music stopped, he started at Yuki's angry pain filled face stupidly, as the realization of his stupidity dawned on him. Glaring Dream, the song that Shuichi had met Yuki with…their song what had he been thinking? He opened his mouth to apologize, when Yuki's punch hit him full in the face. He grit his teeth and turned to face his roommate.

"Yuki! I…" but what was he going to say? He'd forgotten it was their song? That he'd just been so happy at how things were supposed to be working out, that he'd stupidly decided to listen to bad luck? "Yuki, I'm sorry I wasn't thinking…I was just…"

"That's just it! You haven't been thinking at all in the last few weeks. You've just been so lost in your own thoughts that you haven't paid any attention to anybody else! You keep walking in and out of the house like a bloody zombie! It's driving me nuts you understand…I don't even know you anymore! And now you go around playing Shuichi's songs as though everything's ok! I'm still not over him! Us staying together was ok before, at least you understood me, but you're losing that too. Why can't any of you ever leave me alone?" Yuki stood glaring at him in the centre of the room, trying to erase the memory of K and the girl.

"That's because I…" K stopped in mid sentence; he knew that was driving Yuki nuts too, stopping in mid-sentence every time. He swallowed but didn't say anything. Yuki just went into his room and shut the door with a bang. K looked at the door for a while and dialed Taka's number. He got the answering machine.

"Taka, things have gone from bad to worse. Call me back I want to discuss the idea we had before." K walked into what he had considered his own room for eight months as well, hanging around in front of Yuki's room wasn't going to make the atmosphere any less tense.

KK

It was dinner time. Yuki considered staying in his room through out, but decided maybe it would be better to face K instead. He rested on the idea of apologizing for a while, and decided against it. He was not the apologizing kind of person. He yanked himself out of bed and walked out as the phone rang. He picked it up.

"Hello? May I speak to K-san please?" a soft woman's voice sounded on another end. Yuki felt himself tense a bit.

"Just a minute. May I know who's speaking?" Yuki tried not to sound so cold but it was of no avail.

"Um…this is Taka from Karasu…"

Karasu that was the band K was handling now! So it was the girl from the café in the afternoon. Yuki kept silent, when suddenly…"Yuki-san, isn't it?"

"Yes" he replied wondering what she wanted with him.

"I was wondering, tomorrow's my first live concert and well…I'd love you to come with him if possible…could you?" Taka sounded kind of nervous. Yuki frowned a little thoughtfully. He tried to kid himself that he wanted to go for the music, but he knew he was actually going to keep an eye on Taka and K.

"Fine, I'll be there. Now I'll get K." Yuki walked up to K's bedroom and knocked. "Come in." K sounded completely low. It made Yuki feel a little guilty, but when he went in, he kept up his cool appearance. "Phone call." K took the phone expressionlessly.

"Hello? Oh hey Taka. Yeah I wanted to speak to you." He looked up at Yuki with a look that plainly said he wanted some privacy. "Um yeah…well you got my message…" Yuki could see he was stalling until he stepped out of the room. When the door closed in his face, Yuki wondered whether to eavesdrop, but picking up the extension was too risky. He dropped to the ground quietly…maybe listening through keyholes wasn't as bad.

He could hear K clearly. "So maybe what you suggested earlier will have to be the solution. We can't talk things out obviously…he wont give me a chance to. No I haven't told him, I can't tell him. He'd go berserk. I'll also have to find a place to stay…yeah maybe meeting occasionally is the only way…"

"What? No I can't stay with you. I'll find a place; don't worry…after all its eight months, so you're right he should be over Shuichi. I'll have to tell the clients in my old apartment to clear out. No I've made up my mind, it's the best way. At least we won't be getting on each others nerves and we can still be friends if he wants to……fine then…if I really can't take it I'll stay with you for a day or two. Thanks for calling Taka…you're the greatest. Yeah it's helping. Bye then and best of luck…what? Oh I'll bring him then…if he wants to come that is. Yeah bye."

As he heard the phone click, Yuki scrambled off the floor and got to the kitchen just in time. K walked in looking a mixture of happiness and grimness. "So are you coming tomorrow? For the concert?"

"Yeah…I haven't been out in a while. Haven't had fun either. Do you mind?" Yuki couldn't keep the chill out of his voice.

"No, of course not. I'm sorry for this afternoon. I should've been more considerate. Sorry for not thinking for a while too, having a few problems." K turned away a little abruptly. "I'm not hungry right now. I'm going to get to bed…haven't been sleeping too well."

Yuki watched K walk away and sighed. So K wanted to leave huh? Well he had expected K to get sick of him long back. Just expecting it and having it come true were two different things. He was going to live with Taka…he had said for two days, But Yuki knew it would be more. They were in love…but for some reason he couldn't accept that! He wanted K…he wanted to walk into that room right now and tell him. He closed his eyes, the only time he had hurt this much was when he had left Shuichi behind and gone to New York…and well he had hurt more when Shuichi had left him…for good.

Yuki walked back to his room and tried to get some sleep…but the image of Taka hugging K bothered him all night long. Could he lose K as well?

KK

K on the other hand looked forward to another sleepless night. So he'd decided to leave…at least Yuki would be relieved, he didn't have to room with a blundering idiot anymore. He decided he'd leave, but first he'd give it another chance, just to see how things were going. Another argument and he'd leave for sure. Now all he had to concentrate on was keeping shut about his love for Yuki for the next few days. He hoped it would be as easy as it seemed.

KK

Yuki looked into the mirror. He looked good. The soft gray polo neck sweater and black trousers made him look sophisticated but not too formal. He never wore t-shirts…they were too casual for his taste. He smiled a little and walked out. He almost stopped dead in his tracks. K was dressed very casually…blue jeans with a red sleeveless v-neck t-shirt that looked as if he'd carelessly yanked it on. It hugged his muscular body showing it off to the best advantage. Yuki swallowed and entered as calmly as he could, fighting down the urge to kiss K senseless.

K turned as he entered and smiled. "Looking good. So shall we leave?" They walked up to the car and reached in time, thanks to K's skill in driving. The concert was really good…Taka and Lance out did themselves and the audience went wild. Nittle Grasper was also there, Ryuichi as usual getting hyper and trying to jump on Taka every time she came in for a break. At last they finished and Taka spotted them. She came running up and grinned.

"Was it good?" She asked K beaming.

"Yes it was. And I've got a surprise for you…you'll be performing on Hit stage next week!" K almost suffocated as she enveloped him in a big hug and kissed his cheek. Then she ran off shouting for Lance to hear the big news. Yuki looked away…he wondered how he could have thought he would be alright watching K and Taka together.

The party that followed was long and Yuki spent most of the time at the bar. K was drinking a lot too, but he suggested they leave early and yanked Yuki off. He was extra careful as he drove home...Shuichi's death still somewhat fresh in his mind.

As they entered the apartment, Yuki looked at him blearily.

"When are you leaving?" the words came out in a sort of mumble. K stopped and turned to face him, looking surprised. "I heard you talking to her…to Taka, your girlfriend. When are you leaving?"

K's expression turned to incredulity. "You were listening?"

Yuki suddenly pushed him away and started yelling. "You never told me! I saw you with her at the café as well. I saw you hugging. You didn't even have the courage to tell me you were leaving you bastard! You said you'd be there and now you're leaving too! You're going live with her! Are you already so sick of me? Is that why you've been avoiding me for the past few weeks?" He fell forward on to his knees; the drink wasn't letting him hold himself up. K caught him and held him. His voice was low.

"No. I'm not in love with Taka…I'm in love with you. That's why I wanted to leave…I love you Yuki."

Yuki looked up at him surprised, but before he could answer K had kissed him crushing his mouth against the younger man's. He started kissing the novelist's neck; he slipped his hands under his shirt and rubbed his stomach with slow sexy movements. Yuki moaned slowly as K's kisses got a little harder. He kissed the American hard, his hand stroking his back. K moaned into Eiri's mouth.

K started trailing kisses down his chest, unbuttoning the rest of his shirt as well. He lifted Eiri up on to the kitchen counter which was the nearest place he could find. Eiri grabbed his T-shirt and yanked him up for another long passionate kiss. Eiri slipped one of his hands under the waistbands of K's jeans and started to caress him. K gave a gasp of pleasure and broke off. "Don't you think we should head somewhere more comfortable?" his voice came out a little strangled. He continued to kiss Eiri while backing into the bedroom. He pushed Eiri down on the bed and kneeled over him. His long hair fell about them in soft locks.

Eiri undid his trousers and slipped them off as much as he could when K was in that position. He slid his hands up K's chest before fingering his nipples gently. He could see K was already hard and ready to cut to the chase. He grinned evilly. He sat up slightly leaning against the pillows for support and yanked K's boxers down a bit. Then he went down on him kissing, stroking, and doing anything he felt like doing. K arched his back thrusting in to Eiri's mouth. He couldn't take it anymore and ripped off Eiri's trousers. Then he kissed him roughly and thrust into him. Eiri groaned with pleasure. After a while he rolled K over…"I'm seme too you know" he said in a hoarse voice and smiled sexily as he started to caress him a little more.

KK

K woke up and looked at the time…it was five in the morning. He looked down at Yuki on the other side of the bed, sleeping peacefully, when all the details of last night hit him. He groaned softly…he hadn't heard Yuki say he loved him even once. What had he done? Yuki was drunk and he'd taken full advantage…he had been kind of sober. He got out of bed carefully and dressed. It was time to leave…he couldn't face Yuki Eiri after this. He picked up his duffel bag and crammed a few things into it…the trouble was where to go? K stood in the doorway for a few seconds…he made up his mind and left.

A/N: ok kinda long chapter, but I couldn't stop once I began. Do you think what K did was right? I dunno cos the idea hit kind of suddenly. I'm starting to think K's acting a little stupid…I talked to him about it but he says he'll stick with this character for now…Shuichi's still going ballistic that I dared get them together, but we've got him tied up and stuffed in the closet for a while. And anyway Yuki's still in New York unaware of this story which might be done before he gets back. (Ok back from imagination now.) Hope you liked it. TT

Arashi.