Reflections in the Deepest Light
By H-Man
Eh. No reviews. Oh well, chapter two is up, ready, and sound. Enjoy, and put up a review, at least. Even if it is to say that I suck.
My thoughts were all muddled up, confused as I walked to the lighthouse. Ampharos was still a bit shaken up, but it had been fine for the last few days. It was the best place for me to stay, while I reflected on what was happening.
There was something wrong with me, something that I felt I had repressed for days… maybe months, even. How long could it have been since I had felt those feelings?
My heart was beating faster, for some reason. Also, I did not try and control my heartbeats, like I usually did. However, I unconsciously thought that I should.
Had the training taken such a hold on me, a hold I just couldn't break?
I walked the steps that led to the top floor. Without realizing, I was moving faster and faster, and it seemed that I was being pulled towards it. My heart was beating even faster, and I could notice my breathing becoming shorter and shorter.
However, as I reached the last steps, I stopped. My body felt heavy for some reason, and I couldn't figure it. I also realized that I felt sadder somehow; for something I expected… was not there.
I walked forward, timidly. As I proceeded, I could notice that there was nothing missing from the lighthouse. The lamp shone, even though it wasn't as visible now as it was during the night. Ampharos, the source of all energy in the lighthouse, was standing there, waiting for the night to come, so it could fully energize the lamp, giving it energy enough to guide the ships.
So why did I feel something missed? Why did I feel bad for the fact that there WASN'T something?
Why was I feeling so alone?
I sat down on the floor, with my back to the wall. I couldn't understand it. I was confused by those sudden emotions that I felt, those strange feelings that took over me. But unlike the training, they felt… good. I felt as if they were the key to my happiness, which I had sacrificed long ago in the name of the common good.
Was it why I felt so strange? Why I felt the training was hurting me more than helping me?
Was it why I had started to feel a heat inside my body whenever I thought of that?
Okies, how did it go? Short, huh? Well, like I said before, it was supposed to be a one-shot...
H-Man