Reflections in the Deepest Light

By H-Man

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I was still sitting in the ground, waiting for the mess that was my heart to be fixed. But I knew it wouldn't be so until I had figured it out myself, rather than waiting. That wait was what caused the problems in my life.

I decided to focus on the past few months, trying to remember if anything out of the ordinary had happened. Surely it was a recent thing, but since it felt like it wasn't the first time I felt it, it had to be something from some time ago.

Well, not much had happened in the last few months… there had been that time Ampharos was sick, but other than that…

"Hey, Jasmine! How was that battle you did?"

Wait. What was that again? Something about a battle…

"Jasmine! There's some kid that has been fighting his way into the lighthouse, even though he wasn't allowed! Can you please stop him?"

A boy? Who had entered the lighthouse?

"Your Ampharos is sick? But how can it be?"

"It overcharged with the power failure… I couldn't do anything to help then, and now it might be in serious danger."

I had revealed him how it had happened, even though I had not told anyone else… Why? Why had I done that?

"It needs a special medicine that's only developed in Cianwood Island… but there's no one we can spare to go there. And no trainer has returned yet…"

"A special medicine… say, I'll go there and get it for ya!"

That was strange… why would someone do that for her? She couldn't impose herself onto him… not when everyone else hadn't returned…

"That really isn't your concern… you don't have to go."

"Nah, I have decided. I'm bringing your medicine so you can make Ampharos go back to normal in no time! Don't try to make me back down!"

What was that about? He had no reason to do that for me. He wouldn't gain anything from helping me then. Why had he decided to do it?

"Why didn't you go help him before?"

"It was too much for me! How could I do anything?"

"You know what you are going to be, right? You should have gone there."

"I… I couldn't. I just can't go."

I was feeling even worse than when I started. I had let someone go do what I couldn't at the moment, even though it was my duty. It was what I had to do. It was the right thing to do. It was a subconscious decision that I should have forgotten that had happened, because I couldn't face it. It was something that hurt, but… I didn't feel as bad as I thought I should. But why?

"You helped me there… why did you do it? I have nothing you'd like…"

"Why shouldn't I?"

My body froze. I couldn't move. I couldn't breathe. Lugia, I couldn't think!

That boy… I only met him for a few moments and he had completely crashed my beliefs. It was too much for me, but I couldn't help but keep reviewing what happened. All those memories were too much, but I had to keep up, to face what was in front of me… to understand it.

Was I so conditioned I repressed all that without realizing it?

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