Well, lets just for the sake of this story forget about the sixth book becuase well i dont know if ne one has read it so i cant say ne thing. But i think i can work everything out to still work. Remembering of course that this is during the summer of the fifth year, and trying to forget that- just pretend you dont know ne thing from the sixth i guess...

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He had asked Lee out a few thousand times, she always said no, though at the time I couldn't understand why. He was the most popular boy in our school even the seventh years wanted to be friends with him. And he hung out with the smartest and cutest boys of the school. All the girls wanted James or one of his friends to ask them out. They were all jealous of Lily and at the same time astounded that she kept turning him down. I didn't learn till that last day of school, when we were boarding the train, that the reason was because she liked me….

"This is the phone number at my house my parents don't exactly like the owls flying in and out of the window. They told me to just tell people to call instead. I hope you can find a phone to use. If nothing, you could try to go to one of the neighbor muggle houses and ask to use their phones. You do know how to use a phone is right?" She asked as she helped me haul my things up the stairs onto the train. I still had no trunk or anything to carry it with.

We found an empty compartment and then I answered, "I think I do. It doesn't sound to complicated. You can owl my house, but try to keep it by night. My dad… well he doesn't like owls either…." It reminds him I'm there and if I have an owl he'll know I have a friend. Both would get me seriously punished.

"Sounds like a deal, in fact same here. If you try to keep them at night then you might not have to figure out how to use the phone." It felt like six hours and when we were finally home I didn't know what to do. Also I was a little in awe from the goodbye kiss I had just gotten. My dad hadn't gone to pick me up so it was an hour or so walk home. That was okay though because at least it was an hour that I didn't have to be in the house.

My dad was sort of, he was, a jerk. Well I called him worse but I don't wanna give you names to use on me later. Garland laughed as if he'd need to use those words with his dad.

It was late when I got home, already dark. I went straight to my room and already when I got there was an owl. It had to be Lily who else would want to send him an owl I was so excited if. I really thought she wouldn't even remember me next year.

Sevi,

Hey I hate it here I got home and my sister locked me in the closet my mom let me out and told me to go do my homework. She said that it has to be done before I get to do anything this summer. What are you doing? Miss you already, write me back mama says that I can have owls after I finish my homework. So I'm working the fastest I ever have so you and I can owl back and forth all summer. LOL. Sorry just really miss you.

Love yours truly

Lee.

As soon as I finished reading. I wrote the reply and put it in a drawer in my desk. I was going to write her a note for everyday and then send them to her when I got word that she was able to except owls. Lily had other friends but they didn't talk to her out of school. They only hung out with her because the two hottest guys in school had the hots for and to be seen with her would be a very good thing.

I had nothing else to do in my house so my homework was done with in a week. It got to the point that I was so bored I read every book in the library. Lily sent me owls three times a week. I made her a present to send with her letters. I was really good in potions when I was young too and I made her this really good smelling perfume, Lilac and rose. When I was making the first bottle my dad smelt it and came up to see what I was doing. I told him I was making a potion and he, knowing something was up smashed the bottle on the ground. I ended up only working on the next bottle when he was gone at work. Lily finally finished her homework about two weeks later and I spent the rest of the summer sending her the letters and trying to read all the books in the house.

Sevi,

I have never smelt anything so good. I hope you like it to because I'm gonna wear it all the time. You sound like your summer hasn't been that bad. You should try going outside a little. LOL. I fell asleep outside yesterday in the middle of the yard and when I woke up I was sun burnt. HAHA. So right now I can barley move and hurts to do everything. Except write to you that is.

Love,

Lee

Lee,

Your sister sounds like a bitch. I think I would poison her. Though your dad and mom sound like they aren't that bad. I mean you get to eat with them, and they talk to you, and they don't smash your girlfriend's perfume all over the floor. Aha.

I really miss you I know I talk to you every day but it's not the same as seeing your face and hearing your voice. I thought of a really good Christmas present for you last night when I was trying to sleep, I wish it wasn't so far away. LOL. You'll like it though.

I don't know if I want anybody else except you to wear that perfume so please tell you muggle friend that I couldn't make anymore.

Love,

Severes

Dear Sevi,

My friend was sad that you didn't want to make her some and she almost cried and then I told her that I was special and she couldn't have any and now we aren't talking. Tehehe. She's funny, she thought that I was seriously saying that she wasn't special. Anyway only three more weeks until school starts, I can't wait to see you. I got you a present that you may have reasons to like and you may not like it either. It has its goods and bads and I can give it back if you don't want it. Hope you got all your books this year, but if you didn't you can share with me.

Love,

Lee

Well I didn't have my books yet they were thrown in my direction when I was boarding the train, one dint make it and the train ran it over, later I was sent one by one of the house elves that had seen what had happened.

I was so hyped about seeing Lee that I didn't even care about what had just happened. I searched almost every compartment and just my luck when I finally find her she's surrounded by the four annoying ones as he had come know them. He tried to sneak out before she saw him but to late. "Severes?" she said trying to hide it. "Are you looking for somewhere to sit?"

"Yes." He said with his back still to them trying not to look in there direction. Last night before his fathers dinner he had visited him to ask about books and instead of getting an answer he got a beating. He wasn't looking that great and sure as heck didn't want the annoying ones to see him in this state. "But I don't want to sit by you," he said walking out just in time before James slammed the door.

Luckily though there was another empty compartment in the back of the train and I had it all to myself before she showed up. I was almost asleep because I was in to much pain the night before to get any sleep, when I heard her voice whisper, "Sevi?"

I had been facing out the window but at her voice I turned my head. She was even more beautiful then I had remembered, her hair had grown a lot, I loved her hair, and I think she knew that. She had grown maybe and inch, but so had I. She was still so little. I stood up and without even thinking I hugged her. She screeched and jumped up so that I was holding her too. She was like a little teddy bear. She was that small. I set her down and we walked over to sit were I had been sitting. Instead of her saying anything about my current look she looked at me all sad. "Well at least at school that's one less thing to worry about." She smiled and I can remember that I almost melted.

"But here I have Potter." I reminded her laying my head against the wall and closing my eyes.

I felt her head resting on my shoulder and she said, "This is true." And we fell asleep, her on my shoulder and me with my arm wrapped around her. When I woke up the first thing I thought was that Potter might have seen us and was now telling the whole train and that the rest of my life was about to be spent in hell. I couldn't escape at home or school. But then I thought that if he did see us together there was no way I'd have slept through it. I looked down at Lee to see her stirring, "Hi." I said.

"Hi said a voice from the corner of the compartment." It was one of Potters friends that I hadn't known the name of at the time.

I almost hit Lee in the head I jumped so high. She was awake now. "What are you- Lily are you okay I'm sorry- and what're you doing in here?" he said trying to keep his mind on two things at once wasn't his thing.

"I'm fine," she said directing her attention to the boy in the corner. "Hey Remus, how long have you been waiting here, I didn't mean to fall asleep."

"Oh I fell asleep to just looking at you two made me tired. You know how it is someone yawns an-"

"What are you doing here?" I asked him taking out my wand. Lily pushed it down and looked at the boy.

"So this is ol' Sevi?" Remus, your god father, asked Lee with a smile on his face. "She's been raving about you all summer. We're neighbors, when she wasn't staring out her window waiting for and owl we were hanging out. Kind of funny really cause all last year she hated me and I thought she was nothing but a little sno-"

"She's not," I said cutting him off.

"Well I know that now don't I?" he said with another smile a smile that Lee once told me was the reason that she thought he was so cool, his sense of humor. "Potter has to be wondering where I am by now eh? I told him I was going to the toilets."

"What are you doing here anyway?" Lee asked for us both.

"They were giving me a headache. And I forgot to grab a book. They're both looking out the window and saying the funniest things that happened to them this summer. And of course because I'm me I have no stories to contribute."

To this day I don't know what that meant. He was friends- or acquaintances- he was almost always surrounded by girls. In those days the quiet ones got the girls attention. Lee frowned for a second and then smiled, "Yes well you did at least get all your homework done. Bet Potter and Black didn't." she joked. That year I made friends with Lupin. He was a good guy, I thought, he was always joking but nothing that would hurt someone like his friends who would do things that dark wizards were expected to do. They never hurt anyone physically, but they weren't kind mentally. In just that year I was cursed with ugliest pimples- that Lee didn't seem to mind, a number of riped backpack, missing homework, a few detentions, and a few times I ended up with detentions for things I certainly would never do.

As each year went by we were able to keep our love secret with a lot of help from Remus who was my only male confident. Every year Potter asked Lily out a few times and she always declined saying that she would never go out with a punk like him. Every time I would get madder at him but I never had a reason to attack him besides that so I always kept away. One year though Lily, Remus, and I were meeting out at the lake, after exams. It was our fifth year, Hogwarts has this wonderful lake in the front of the castle were we always met because Lee loved to watch the giant squid. As I was heading out I noticed that Lupin was with Potter, Black, and a little twit named Peter. Potter was watching Lily who was waiting at the lake. I was hoping they wouldn't see me because I recently started worrying that they would use a truth spell on me and find out that Lily and I were… well you know…?

"No," Garland encouraged.

We were intimate, which is very hard to do when your in different houses and not supposed to know each other. But anyway, I didn't go fast enough because I was only about half way there when I heard.

"Look who it is," Potter said to Black. All I could think was that this wasn't going to be good. I had been trying to hide myself in the bushes but at the sound of my name I was up and trying to get away. As soon as Potter said my name I had my wand out. I was scared. Lupin gave me a worried look from behind the two and before I could do anything they had my wand flying away from my hand.

I tried to dive for my wand but before I could get there I was thrown across the lawn by another spell, it hurt. Everyone was looking at me and I almost puked from the pain and the embarrassment. They went into this bit about how I ugly I was and blah de blah. I was to scared and I couldn't breath so I just tried to threaten them, I tried some hexes and stuff but I couldn't do anything. They threw another curse and before I new it I really was choking. I watched Lupin pull a book over his eyes, this was bad. He couldn't do anything and he wouldn't even watch.

"Leave him alone." Lee shouted "What's he done to you?" she asked after he didn't do anything.

"Well it's more the fact that he exists, if you know what I mean." He joked and a few people laughed. I got the courage to look over at Lupin who was still looking at his book but I knew he was listening because the book was upside down. She growled things that I couldn't hear because my ears were ringing but I knew she was mad because she was turning read- like you do when you're mad. In the mist of it all he says that he'll leave me a lone if she'll go out with him. She looked at me with worry in her eyes and I tried to tell her to say no. She looked over at Lupin who had lifted the book away from him head and was shaking his head.

"I wouldn't go out with you if it was a choice between you and that giant squid." She said and I almost burst out laughing. I had to get my wand and defend myself. I grabbed my wand when they were all looking the other way and Potter was bleeding when he turned back around.

I guess I should have grabbed the wand and ran because next thing I know I'm upside down in mid air, my robes over my head and my underpants showing. I wasn't really caring about that part I was just mad that I couldn't do anything to help myself, and I was also pissed because he had used my own spell against me. I had only discovered it the year before during the summer because I was so sick of Potter. I guess all you have to do is use a spell once and the school uses it on you later.

People were cheering, Lee told me later that she wanted to smile because lets face it, it was funny- you're laughing. "Let him down" she screamed holding in her smile. Sadly he listened and I fell pretty much on my head. It hurt so much I wanted to cry but I hadn't got in one fair punch so I grabbed my wand and tried at Potter. Unfortunately I forgot about black and was on the floor in seconds again. Lee kept insisting that they take the curse off and I was worried they would hurt her too. Potter finally took the curse off and as I looked up I saw two relieved expressions on Lupin and Lee's face. I couldn't think of how to get Lily away before something bad happened. I didn't know if they were going to kill me or not and I didn't want her there if they turned. So I did the unthinkable for my days and yours I called her a mudblood and told her to get away and never help me. Lupin smiled and went back to his now right side up book. Lily looked puzzled at first and then fiend anger.

"Fine," she said coolly, "I won't bother in the future and I'd wash my pants if I were you, snivellus." She said starting to back away. Potter threatened me to apologize but she said she wouldn't have any of it that he was just as bad as I was. She stormed off past Lupin and far to the other side of the lake where I couldn't see her. As soon as she turned I was in the air again. He was threatening to take off my pants when I was suddenly floating to the ground and I watched potter and Black dance around trying to stop the fire on their cloaks. Lupin was still behind his book but I watched the top of his wand disappear behind his book. I jumped out grabbed my bag and book and ran for the place I had seen Lily disappear.

I walked around the huge tree and saw her there doing her homework. I sat next to her and kissed her on the cheek. She smiled and hugged me, I don't know how she did it all the time, touch me I mean, I wasn't very clean back then. At home I wasn't aloud to bath for weeks at a time and I always worried father would somehow find out that I had at school so I only did it when I couldn't stand myself anymore. "Are you okay." She asked pointing at a few scratches on my face.

"It hurts but I'll live."

"Good," she said kissing a scratch and laying her head on my shoulder- more like elbow for her- and going back to her homework. She didn't say anything about my lack of defense, just hummed some song I hadn't heard. We sat there a few minuets before Lupin came around the tree, "Are you guys here?" He asked us. Lily had made a shield around the tree the made anyone under it invisible.

"Yea." Lee said poking her head out so he could see her. He crawled over.

"You two scared the crap out of me there." He said frowning at them.

"Your telling me, I almost cried a few times." Lily said, "It was frusterating."

"You almost cried." I said wrapping my arms around her.

"I'm fine now, Sevi."

"Thanks man for saving me out there." I said even though I didn't want to admit it with Lily there I knew I had to say it.

"Just don't do that again. Man those guys are going to be the death of me. There's no way in hell Lily would go out with him, why can't he get that?"

"They aren't as bad as some of the people dad brings home." I reminded both of them who knew what it was like at home for me since I had been talking about it since the first day of school and it was almost the last. We only had two years of school left, that meant that Lee and I had been together five years. We knew each other like… I knew she was short.

That summer was the worst I ever had. My dad suddenly realized that I was there and was dead set on me joining him at meetings with the dark lords. That summer I was aniciated as a death eater and slept maybe three hours in three days. I was afraid to talk to Lily and I was afraid to tell her what was wrong. She would send me three owls before I would answer her back and I only answered because by the third one she would threaten to come to my home and find out where I was and what was going on.

Sevi,

I've already sent three owls and I haven't gotten a reply. Lupi says you haven't owled him either and were both worried that your dad got to you. If you don't owl mw by the end of the week we're coming over there to get you and bring you home.

I always wanted to write her back asking her to come and get me, to save me from this man who made me do things I never wanted to do.

When sixth year came around my father almost didn't want me to go back to school and when he did decide I should go back I almost didn't get to go back to Hogwarts. I did go back though and I found Lupin and Lily sitting in the last compartment waiting for me. Lily didn't even give me enough time to shut the door before she threw herself at me in a hug that almost made me fall over.

Father was letting me bathe now because he didn't want to give a bad impression to his friends so I felt much more comfortable about her touching me. Lupin gave me a friendly hug to before he locked the compartment door and headed outside. That's how we made sure that no one could see us or get to us and we also stayed under the invisibility cloak just in case. Lupin was the only one that could get in and out of the room so we were locked in and people were locked out. Lupin did knock though before he came in which was a good because Lily and I were so happy to see each other we made lo- woops I almost told you. We umm… kissed for a while?

"Nasty why in the hell would you have sex on a train?" Garland asked not caring one bit that his dad was talking about having sex but just that they had done it on a moving train.

Severes looked at his son with a sad face, "Imagine what it would be like if you and Andrea didn't get to talk all summer and never really knew when you'd get to talk next."

"I guess," was all Garland could think of to say.

Lupin and Lily and I did the same thing that year as we always did. That year we had a lot of close calls because Lupin was busy a lot during the night and that's when we got together. A few times Potter would follow Lee and she would be about to pull me out of hiding when he would pop out and ask her out again. I always wondered what the deal was with him, why her? But what was I thinking? She was the prettiest in our year, maybe even the entire school. Not to mention one of the smartest.

But we were going to soon be hit by the honest truth, the one we weren't even thinking about before this time. The one that would hurt in so many ways.

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please review and um sorry. I guess for everything. I should learn not to write when im listening to music- it screws me up and sometimes i start writting what i heard and forget to erase it or something. Ne ways hope you enjoyed it and from now on the chpaters wont be coming as fast because everythings been already written up until now and now i have to start writting and get back ahead.

love, Cee