"I'll stay…but there will have to be some changes."
"Like what?" Sawyer asked looking a bit annoyed and a bit amused, and maybe even relieved.
"Like you are going to have to start treating me like a human and not a piece of ass."
"I don't do that. I treat you better than any other girl besides my mom and Ginny."
"Who's Ginny?" Kate looked at him accusingly. "You've never mentioned any Ginny."
"I stayed in this one foster home for a while she was like my sister. She took good care of me."
Kate was amazed; he'd actually shared something with her. "She must have been really nice." Kate would see how far she could get with this.
"She was. Once my step-mom was beating the shit outta me. And she took me and left. I was 10." He was off in his own world a bit, Kate could tell. "Then the foster people found out, and she was only 16 and they separated us. She kept in touch the best she could but it was hard. I was planning on seeing her once I got back to the states. Last I heard she was married. I hope he's good to her. She really deserves it." Sawyer's eyes caught Kate and he snapped out of it, looking a little embarrassed.
Kate smiled genuinely at him. "She sounds great."
"Yeah." Sawyer said obviously finished with remembering.
Kate smiled again and
kissed him lightly. "I appreciate it."
"Appreciate
what?"
"That you told me that." Kate leaned up against him, moving his arm so that he was holding her. "Don't say it was nothing." She whispered.
Sawyer sat silently. That was what he was going to say. They sat in understanding yet boarding on awkward silence for a while. Neither of them knew what to say. But one thing they both knew was that they were building their own little world in the cave. Sometimes the outside didn't matter. Boone was out there, resurrected and the island was flooded but inside the cave there was a sense of security. As if nothing could harm them.
And for some unknown reason to her, when Sawyer was holding her, even when it was like this and she had made him hold her she felt safe. It was completely irrational but she felt like he would protect her from whatever the world would bring. Like her knight fallen from grace.
And Sawyer felt needed when Kate was like this. When she had moved his arm to make him hold her it had welled up a feeling in him that he couldn't explain. It had made him feel happy and…peaceful. That Kate wanted him to hold her was a huge thing for him. He felt almost protective of this creature in his arms, broken yet to him perfect. And yet he would never ever admit this to anyone. He tried not to even admit it to himself. Because that would make him attached and if they rescued he couldn't afford to be attached to Kate. Yet part of him feared it was to late.
Soon all awkwardness died out of the silence they were sharing. They both listened to each other breath. After a while Sawyer heard Kate's breathing shallow and slow. He looked down and saw she had fallen asleep. He moved so he could hold her better while leaning against the wall. After a while Sawyer started drifting off to sleep, but before he could fall completely asleep Kate's boy jerked and she let out a little whimper. She was having a nightmare
Sawyer woke back up completely and looked at her. She looked scared, even asleep. She was letting out little noises, like a hurt puppy and her muscles were tightening up. He wanted to go into her dreams and fight off whatever it was that was hurting her. And the fact that he couldn't made him feel helpless. Instead he held her close and kissed the top of her head
Finally after a while she calmed down, her breathing getting slower. Sawyer watched her until he was sure that she was happily sleeping.
The next morning Sawyer woke up with Kate still in his arms. His right arm, which she was lying on, was completely asleep. It stung a bit but he didn't want to disturb her. She looked peaceful. So he just waited until she woke up. She smiled at him, stretching and rubbing her eyes. She leaned up a bit and Sawyer moved his arm. It tingled and he shook it.
Kate giggled. "Oh poor arm." She took it and rubbed it. "I had a nightmare."
"I know." Sawyer said concern playing in his voice.
"Oh." Kate looked down as if she was studying his arm as she rubbed it. "I didn't know you knew."
Sawyer let out a little laugh. "It's fine. Not your fault." Leave it to Kate to be worried about someone seeing her have a nightmare.
"Is it better?" Kate asked gesturing to his arm and shamelessly changing the subject.
"Yeah." Sawyer stretched a bit.
Kate stood up getting changed. "I feel so gross on this island." She looked at her shirt, which had a grass stain on it in disgust.
Sawyer got up changing also, and shrugged. "We're all gross."
"Except Shannon. She seems to stay so clean how is that?"
"I don't know. Maybe it's cause she doesn't have enough flesh to attract dirt." He changed his shirt, using more muscles than necessary, reveling in the fact that Kate watched him as he did this.
"So what shall we do today?" Kate asked brushing her hair with her fingers.
"I figured we'd track through some mud, try not to deal with Boone issues and have sex."
Kate rolled her eyes at him. "You are a complete pig."
Sawyer smiled his million-dollar smile at her not even needing to say anything to be a complete smart ass. He could just give her that look of his.
"I'm going to go deal with the Boone issues." Kate attempted to kiss his cheek but he turned swiftly and kisses her.
"Don't hold out." He said smacking her ass as she walked out of the cave, causing her to sway her hips purposefully. "Nice ass Sweet cheeks." He said amusing himself with the double meaning.
"Hey Driveshaft come help me." Sawyer yelled to Charlie. He was helping add more roof to the cave.
Charlie walked over. "Sure what?"
"Hold this." Sawyer said waiting for him to hold the board then starting to hammer with his makeshift tools.
"How's Kate." Charlie asked conversationally.
"Good." Sawyer straightened the board a bit and continued hammering. "And Claire?" He added as an afterthought.
"Good. Worried about Aaron though."
"I suppose raising a baby here would be a bitch."
"You know Jack's jealous." Charlie said with a hint of humor in his voice, which surprised Sawyer.
"You don't like the Doctor?"
"No I do. But I've always found him chasing after Kate just a little amusing. I don't know, I just can't see them together."
Sawyer couldn't believe Charlie of all people made a statement like this. But he liked having someone at least partially on his side. Even if it was some has been.
"I figured that you hated me." He said looking at Charlie for a second.
"I'll admit you're not my favorite person, but you took the time to help me by reading to Aaron. I figure you're not a complete asshole."
"Aww thanks." Sawyer said sarcastically.
Charlie ignored the sarcasm use to it by this point. "Your welcome."
Charlie helped him for a little while more. They didn't' talk much but formed what some might call a semi bond. Maybe not even a bond, but after Charlie had said that he found Jack chasing after Kate amusing, Sawyer had developed a new found respect for him.