Elementals – Thanks for pointing out the mistakes, I went back and fixed them. I don't know why but I keep getting their names mixed up.

A/N – "Thoughts"

Chapter 19 – Not Forget But Move On

A few hours after their talk, Amanda and Rebecca were walking out of the Digital Bean and down the street. They decided they could better come up with a battle plan over breakfast. As they were walking, Rebecca could feel Amanda watching her. Glancing over, "What?"

"You alright?"

"I guess," Rebecca said with a shrug. "I mean with everything that's happened, I feel alright." Taking a sip of her cinnamon coffee, "Why?"

Amanda looked down at her own vanilla coffee for a moment, "When you walk past fresh chocolate chip muffins without so much as blinking, something's off."

Rebecca shrugged again, "I'm just not hungry." Sipping her coffee, "Its like Mom bakes and bakes all day and I see all this food that I'd normally wolf down, and gain thirty pounds off of, but it just makes me nauseous."

"Have you been eating anything at all?"

Shrugging again, "A little, when I get really hungry, but for the most part, I'm just not hungry." Amanda sighed softly and Rebecca looked at her, "Don't."

"What?"

"The last thing I need right now is a second mother. My mom is already on me about not eating, I don't need it from you too," Rebecca told her.

"Ok," Amanda agreed to stop, for now at least. "You still wanna go talk to Jase?"

Pausing for a moment, Rebecca stared off blankly into space, "Yea. We gotta deal with this now." As they continued to walk towards the Gordon's, Rebecca and Amanda talked about the best way to approach what's been happening.

Miranda stood in the back doorway and watched Jason bounce the ball in the air off his foot. She watched him kick it higher and higher, until he finally swung his foot back and drilled the ball into the chain link fence that surrounded the yard. As Jason chased after the ball, Miranda frowned a little.

While she was proud of Jason trying to fix things between the three of them, she was upset cause she knew how much it hurt Jason to breakup with Amanda.

"Jay." She waited till he turned towards her, "I heard what you did."

"How," Jason started to ask but was cut off.

"Please. You actually think there's anything you three do that we don't eventually find out about," Miranda said with a false smile as she walked out on the deck. "Takes a lot of guts to do what you did."

"What?" Jason said sarcastically, "Going face to face with two very angry girls. I'm use to it, especially after living with you and Maria."

Miranda smirked a little, "Watch it," she shot back. Sobering a little, "You know what I mean."

"I just did what had to be done."

"You know," Miranda said, "the older you get, the more you remind me of your father. Sometimes you both think too much."

"What the hell do you want me to say?" Jason snapped, "I didn't want to do it but its not like I had any other choice."

Miranda had to bite back a smile, "He may be his father's son but there's still some of his mother in him." "You always have a choice."

"The only other choices I saw was them trying to kill each other or at the very least throwing away a life long friendship," Jason said is voice getting louder, the angrier he got. "So tell me Mom, what other choice did I have?"

Not waiting for an answer, Jason started ranting, "Why is it when everything starts fitting together, it all falls apart again," he snarled as he brought his leg back and kicked the ball hard, back into the fence.

"Come here kid," Miranda said, gesturing him over. Reluctantly, Jason walked over and sat down next to her. Miranda draped an arm around his shoulder and even though he tried to shrug it off, he let his mother pull him into a hug. "Have I ever told you about how your father and I got together."

Jason groaned and Miranda snickered. "We've all heard it," Jason said, "You two bumped into each other in the airport in New York."

"That's how it started but not how we got together," Miranda corrected him. "When your father came back after he finished filming that movie, everything was supposed to fall into place; he'd come back, we start dating, and I at least dreamed of getting married. Well, right before your dad came home, I got a letter from an old flame and things kinda got a little crazy."

"Crazy? With you?" Jason teased and Miranda playfully slapped him upside the head.

"As I was saying; everything was looking like it was coming together, when your father got home, we'd be together. But then the letter came and threw me for a loop. I didn't know what to do. Your father, just wanting me to be happy, was willing to let me go even though he didn't want to, just so I'd be truly happy," Miranda told him.

"What happened?"

"A few days later your father was offered another movie and we had to decide what we wanted. I realized I didn't want him to go, at least without me. The rest you pretty much know."

"And this helps me how?" Jason asked.

Miranda smiled, "I wouldn't be surprised if Amanda came around soon to snap you to your senses like your father did for me."

"Yea right," he said a little dejectedly. Hearing a noise, Miranda glanced at the corner of the house and her smile widened.

"I'd listen to her Jase," a very familiar voice said to him, "She knows what she's talking about."

Jason's head snapped around, "Amanda." He watched as Amanda and Rebecca walked around the corner of the house into the backyard and towards them.

"Hey," Amanda said, giving him a weak smile.

"I'll let you three talk," Miranda said as she stood up and then walked back inside.

"So you two talking again?" Jason asked cautiously.

Rebecca and Amanda looked at each other for a moment, "Yea," Rebecca answered.

"After your little speeches yesterday, we talked this morning," Amanda said.

Rebecca finished for her, "And we decided you're an idiot."

Amanda smirked at Rebecca's choice of words and watched Jason practically jump to his feet. She could tell he was trying his best to reel in his temper.

"What the hell did I do now?"

"Calm down sparky," Rebecca teased, "We're talking about your stupid idea of bringing everything back to the way it was. We can't, especially not now. We've been through too much."

"So what now?" Jason asked, calming a little.

"We figure out how to move on," Rebecca said as she walked over and sat down on the deck steps. Looking up at her two friends, she frowned a little at how awkward they seemed around each other. "Look," she said, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cause this. I was just so lost that I,"

"Stop blaming yourself," Amanda told her, "All of us had a part in this." Amanda walked over and sat down next to her.

"How?" Rebecca asked confused, "It was my dad who died, I'm the one that went psycho with you and Jason."

"We've been through this once already," Amanda said as she draped an arm over Bec's shoulders, "I was there too, not worried about how you were dealing but getting jealous," Amanda sighted, "I'm sorry for bein a lousy friend."

Rebecca said softly, "None of us has been really good friends lately." Looking up at Jason, "When my dad died, I just didn't know what to do. Before, my dad would be gone but I knew he'd be back and where he was. Now…I don't know." Rebecca glanced back and forth between Amanda and back at Jason. "But I still started this. Even though I didn't want to admit it, I was just so scared of losing someone else. I think that's why I kinda clung onto Jason. He's always been the one to keep me grounded."

"Yea, he's good at that," Amanda than smirked a little, "Isn't it annoying?"

Jason rolled his eyes, "I feel so cheap and used right now…and not in a good way." Both girls looked at him and rolled their eyes.

Amanda looked at him with an arched eyebrow, "When was there ever a good way?"

Jason smirked at her, "Wanna go swimming again?"

Rebecca turned to look at Amanda, "You left something out?" she asked with a devious smile.

Amanda flushed red, "I may have."

"What?" Rebecca pushed wanting to know more details.

Jason answered, "I was tricked and used. Amanda just used me as her play thing." He turned slightly away from them, "I'm not ready to talk about it," Jason said, trying to be melodramatic. The girls looked at him, knowing he was full of it, and started laughing at him. Jason's smirk widened and he started laughing too.

After a few minutes, the laughter died down, and the three were grinning at each other. "I think this is the first time in awhile that someone hasn't been yelling or crying," Jason pointed out.

"Yea," Rebecca said, "Thanks."

"I think we may actually have a chance at salvaging this sham we call a friendship," Amanda said sarcastically.

"If the three of us have a chance," Rebecca said, "how about the two of you?" Jason and Amanda looked shyly away from each other, and Rebecca smirked. "You two are hopeless. You two are gonna get back together eventually, so why not cut out the crap, and just get back together already."

"Its not that easy," Amanda said.

"Only if you make it that way," Rebecca said standing up, "Look, I gotta get going anyway. You two talk, I'll call you guys later."

Amanda and Jason watched Rebecca walk around the corner of the house and then looked back at each other, neither really sure where to start.