wrestling. A lot of things changed since I was last on Raw. Chris Beniot finally made his decision that he was staying on Raw. Well, thanks in
large part to my begging and pleading on my time off. When Randy was in the hospital he had a lot of things to think about. He still loved me
but he wasn't ready to forgive me. I understand that he was hurt. I don't blame him for being mad. I was just hoping he would in time forgive
me. He doesn't look at me like he used to. After the accident we didn't think he was ever going back to being a wrestler. Randy trained hard
everyday. He was determined to prove everyone wrong who thought he couldn't do it. For a while I had blamed the accident on myself. I
kept thinking that if I wouldn't have told him he wouldn't have gotten hurt. I love him more than anything. It killed me to see him laying there
helpless. I have made a lot of friends since joining the WWE. One who was there for me during all of this was Lita. She has been great. One
of my best friends though is Ember (Ayshton). I keep telling Eric Bischoff to bring her back to Raw. See a couple months ago Ember was
with me during the whole John Cena thing. She was dating Dave Batista but she slept with Mark Jindrak. Ember, Mark, John and I all figured
that we were all going to get it as soon as we got to Summerslam. Raw and Smackdown were going to be there together. Batista decided to
challenge Jindrak for a match. Then Randy decided for his comeback he was going to challenge Cena. Eric Bischoff and Teddy Long
decided that they should just have an inter-brand tag team match. So at Summerslam it was going to be Batista and Orton vs. Jindrak and
Cena. When we found out about it a week before I called Cena to ask what he was thinking. He said he had to do this. I think it was man
defending pride sorta thing. Batista, Randy, and Jindrak all said the same thing. Randy asked me if I was going to be in his corner for the
match.I told him that I didn't want to see anything happen to him. He said he would kill Cena for what he'd done. I told him that it wasn't
just his fault. I seen the hurt in Randy's eyes. I think back to when Bob Holly asked me what I thought Randy would do if he was me. I'm
not really sure what Randy would do but if I could go back and change what I did I would. The night before Summerslam I overheard
Randy talking to Shelton Benjamin and this is where my story begins.