August 24, 2009
Dear Diary,
After the match at Summerslam Ember, Dave, Randy, and I walked backstage and sat there in silence. "Well someone should say
something." said Batista. "Well what is there to say? We never really talked about what happened. Randy is not going to forgive me. Your
not going to forgive Ember so what's the point?" I replied. "I never said I wasn't ever going to forgive you. I just can't forgive you right now."
Randy said. "Why not? What's done is done." said Ember. "Yeah I know but what she won't tell me is why she did it." said Randy. I just
walked off. I wasn't going to listen to this bullshit. Ember came walking after me. "Alicia what's wrong?" she asked. I couldn't speak. I knew
that what I did was wrong and I knew that I couldn't take it back. Seeing the hurt in Randy's eyes just killed me. "Nothing. I'm fine. I just
need to be alone." I said. "Okay you know where to find me if you need me." she said walking off. About a minute later Randy came
walking down the hall. "I thought I told Ember that I wanted to be alone." I said. He looked at me with the most wonderful smile I had seen
from him in a long time. "She had said that you wanted to be alone but I knew that wasn't true." he said. "Well I really don't want to talk to
you right now." I told him. "Alicia listen to me. Your the one that cheated on me. I am the one that should be mad. Why are you mad?" he
asked. "Randy I can't look in your eyes and not remember what we had. I remember all the plans we had for us. I love you so much. I see
the hurt in your eyes." I said. "If you can see the hurt can you see the tears I am holding back?" he asked. I just broke down after he said
that. "Alicia I'm sorry don't cry." he said. I started to walk away. "Wait Alicia don't go." Randy said. I waited to hear those words for a
while. Even though I knew nothing would ever change. I just looked at him and started to walk off. "Alicia please don't go! I love you!" he
said. I stopped. "What?" I asked. "I love you." he repeated. I looked at him and smiled. "I...can't..." I began to say. My tears fell faster. I
couldn't see because I was crying so much. All the sudden I felt these big arms wrap around me. The smell was familar. I could tell it was
Randy. He wiped my eyes. I could see his face. "I'm sorry." he said. Through my crying I managed to say, "What? Why?" He looked at me.
"Well I just realized that if instead of getting mad I just asked you about it we wouldn't be fighting." he said. "Oh well. It's over now. You can
go find someone else." I said. He looked at me and shook his head. "Tell me one person who is better than you." he said. I thought for a
moment. I realized that he only wanted to make me feel worse. I tried to push him away. "Let Go!" I yelled under my crying. "No! I want
you to know that there is nobody in the world that I could ever love more than you." he said holding me tight. "Randy I just realized that I
need to move on." I said. He looked at me. "What? I thought about this and I want to be with you. Now your saying you want to move on?"
he cried. "I just don't want to hurt you anymore." I said. He left go of me and started to walk down the hall. He punched the wall. I didn't
even try to stop him. He was bleeding. "Oh my god, Randy are you okay?" I asked. "Yeah I'm fine." he said quietly. I walked over and
grabbed his hand. "Don't touch it!" he screamed. "Well idiot we need to get it bandaged if you want to be okay." I said. "Fine." he replied.
We walked to the doctor to get it fixed. "I'm sorry for everything." I said. "Don't worry about it. I'm fine." said Randy. He looked at me in
the eyes. He moved closer to me. We were about to kiss when Eric Bischoff ran into the room. He told Randy to get out to the ring that
Ember needed him. He left. I sat there for a minute. Eric came running back in a couple minutes later. He told me what happened. I ran out
and went through the crowd. "Ayshton!" I yelled with tears running down my face. Lita, Shawn, and Randy were already there. Dave comes
in just as they are putting Ember in an ambulence. I went to the hospital. The doctor told me she was poisioned. He said she wouldn't be
back for about a month.
Alwayz,
Leasha