The last week has been awful. . .well one good thing but I will get to that later on.
On our way to Kilika, we were attacked by Sin. I've never seen him that close before. It was so big! The crew was afraid of Sin attacking their homes and families back in Kilika and wanted permission to fire at Sin to try and stop it, or at least slow it down. Wakka thought it was a really bad idea but they asked me and I told them it was okay. I didn't want people to get hurt or killed by Sin. We got attached to Sin after the crew shot their harpoons at it.
Sin started shooting things at us that Lulu called "sin spawn". They were ugly little grayish black things with spikes and an awful smell that I couldn't quite identify nor do I think I'd want to.
After what seemed like forever of attacking, Lulu yelled out that we needed to attack the fin. I was no good for that since it was so far away, so while Lulu attacked it with black magic and Wakka threw his ball at it, Kimahri, Tidus, and I fought with the sin spawn. It finally gave up and left us alone.
We lost half of the crew because of that little run-in with Sin. Most of them were thrown over board. I wish I could've sent them. Now they'll probably turn into water fiends.
When we arrived at Kilika, it was a total mess! And all because of Sin! The entire village was in shambles. As soon as we all got off the boat, two of the natives came to me with tears stained faces, not that I blame them. The explained everything to me and I asked them to let me do the sending. They were grateful for it. The Aurochs went around helping various people start cleaning up and trying to rebuild some things.
I was led to the place were the survivors had gathered up as many bodies as they could find and put them in one spot. I saw Tidus walk up just as before I began. I saw him talking to Lulu with the look of confusion on his face and then it seemed that she was trying to explain what was about to happen. I began to dance the sending. Twirling and swooping and jumping. I caught glimpses of Tidus every few seconds and he seemed to look stunned, maybe even afraid.
That was the first sending I've ever performed. I cried the whole time too. It was all so sad and I felt so bad for the people of Kilika, I just wish there was more that I could do for them.
On a better note: I finally got to speak with Tidus alone. It was before Sin attacked us. He is such a kind and sweet person. I'm beginning to really "like" him. I know I shouldn't have these sort of feelings, but I can't help it! I feel like I can trust him with anything, including my life. I'd really like to make him my guardian, but I don't know how the others would take it. Actually, I think that if I wanted him as one of my guardians, I should be allowed to!
I found out that he is the son of Sir Jecht! I was so surprised! And the dates matched up the same also. I knew it wasn't a lie. But then again, I feel that Tidus would never lie to me. If I asked him to become a guardian, I hope he wouldn't think that I was just asking because his father was one of my father's guardians, seeing how that he apparently hates his father. He only told me a little bit about why.
Well I must be going to bed now. It's very late. Tomorrow we're going to the temple so I can pray to the Fayth. After that we leave for Luca. Good night.