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Chapter 5 : Breaking the habit

Since Shindou Hikaru had been a little kid, he had been aware that he was different. His parents had told him about his condition. It had been hard to him to accept that he might have a short time left in this world but he couldn't do anything about it anyway so he had decided to accept his fate bravely, got over it and moved on.

He had also heard that he would die by 10 but he had proved them wrong. Hikaru was always thankful for his understanding family and his caring friends for that. When he had been in his grandfather's attic and gotten another heart stroke, he had realize that he had been about to die. It's the time. That was what he had thought at that time. He had already cheated death for 2 years now, his time had been over.

One day Hikaru had wakened up in a strange hospital, they had told him that they had found the way to help him…by putting someone's heart inside him. It was the weirdest idea he had ever heard.

Now, someone's heart was beating in his chest, Hikaru thought life couldn't get any weirder…but he was wrong.

A week after he had come home, he started hearing a voice…a soft bewitching voice that didn't belong to this world that only he could hear. At first, he thought he finally lost his mind but he didn't. Then another theory came up " Maybe, it's a ghost," he said to himself but Hikaru was wrong…again. It wasn't a ghost, it was his heart…well, practically, Fujiwara no Sai's.

They could say that it was his heart since it was in his body but it wasn't, his heart didn't belong to him. Once again, he didn't know what else to do but accepted the truth that the heart beating in his own chest wasn't his and decided to talk to the heart. Yes, it became ' The heart' now, not ' His heart'. Life just got weirder and weirder everyday.

The heart or its owner was some kind of an introvert. He didn't want to talk much about his private life. However, Hikaru managed to get some information about his guest. Apparently, his new friend was…or had been a university student who studied Literature called Fujiwara no Sai. Sai showed only 2 interests, first was classical Japanese literature, the other one, of course, couldn't anything else but Go.

Sai didn't only love Go, he was completely obsessed with it. Go, Go, Go, Go, every breath in and out, days and nights.

Hikaru hadn't heard about the game before, the first time Sai mentioned about it, he was like… " Go? Where?"

The boy's ignorance brought Sai both great frustration and disappointment in the same time. " What? How come you don't play Go?" he once blew off. He didn't understand how someone could possibly not know the game, Go wasn't just a game to him, Go was...everything to him. He thought of it every breath he took, he lived for it, it was the reason for his being, Go and the Hand of God.

The Hand of God, yes, he wanted to reach it desperately. He just wanted to be God, only once would be enough, he just wanted to know how it would feel to cross the line between human being and God. The Hand of God, yes, he wanted it more than anything else in the world. This desire was strong enough to bring him back to life, Fujiwara no Sai maybe lost his own body but he didn't lose his passion for Go, he gained his awareness again and found himself living in a stranger's body as his new heart.

So, Shindou Hikaru wasn't the only one who got a second chance to live, so was he. Even he was just a heart in the boy's chest but his yearning and his goal didn't change. He still wanted The Hand of God. Especially, now he got a healthy body, it would be such a waste if he didn't use it properly.

When he told Hikaru, the owner of the body, that he wanted to play Go, the boy quickly dropped his request without a second thought. He was definitely angry, not realizing, he uncontrollably beat heavily causing the 12-year-old boy a great pain in the chest. It was the first time Sai knew he could do something horrible like that. Not for long, he learned how to apply his advantage and it became his habit to pound hard whenever Hikaru rejected him.

Honestly, he wasn't proud of it a bit, he felt so evil to threaten a child like that but he couldn't control himself. Besides, Hikaru wasn't interested in Go at all, every times he asked to play the game,the kid flatly refused him.

Sai guessed that he had no other choice but to lived with this not-a-Go-lover boy for the rest of his life.

Then Sai began his first project. If Hikaru didn't love Go, Fine, if he didn't want to play it, Fine, at least he wanted the stubborn boy to learn a basic of Go so he could know where to place the stone. He forced Hikaru to go to Go school, the blond was beyond frustrated with the idea, yet, he had to comply if he didn't want to have a stroke. Sai was relief that in the end his life was getting into place, the path to The Hand of God opened to him again… but he miscalculated Hikaru. He had forgotten that it was Shindou Hikaru, the infamous trouble maker, who he was living with. Hikaru was kicked out from the school after the second class.

Sai had never felt this pathetic before, he wanted to cry but he couldn't since he didn't have eyes. All his hope and his dream fell apart in a minute, despairingly, he felt sorry for himself. Thanked to God again that Hikaru was quite a sweet boy, he felt a bit guilty about letting his new friend down so he decided to make it up for him by taking him to the Go salon near Tokyo Station.

It was then that Hikaru met a boy of his own age, Touya Akira, and everything changed. Sai liked Akira a lot, he was impressed at his exceptional skill and his great determination. He adored the young prodigy and wished to live with him who loved Go as much as he did. If he had been with Akira, things would have been much much easier for him. But he couldn't choose his heart receiver, could he? Moreover, it's no use crying over spilt milk. Although he had to stick with the headstrong teen, he was glad to meet Akira. Maybe Akira didn't realize but he did make a great impact on Hikaru, he leaded the not-a-Go-lover boy into the Go world. Though Sai was with Hikaru all the time, he failed to have the blond's attention, somehow the 12 year old Akira had.

Curiously, Hikaru started to wonder what it was all about, he wanted to know why everybody loved this boring game so much. Why everybody was talking about The Hand of God? Was it a new trend or something? Why did they all so…obsess with it?

That was how Hikaru first became interested in Go, he almost caused Sai stop beating when he asked the heart to teach him the game. Then they became more than the body's owner and the talking heart, they became a student and a teacher…Yes, Sai owed Akira for this.

It didn't take the cheeky blond long to fall in love with the game, though he hadn't reached Akira's level yet, he progressed fast…very fast. While Hikaru's Go was growing, so was Sai's. They played all day all night, when Sai was getting bored of playing with the same old opponent, his student found a way out…A Net Go.

Sai was very proud of Hikaru and himself for being a good student and a good teacher. Hikaru got strong in a short time, he only took a year to train the boy to be an insei!

Time flied, Hikaru passed the Pro exam as Sai became the most secretive and greatest internet Go player ever. Then the God of fate played trick with them again, Sai got a chance to play with the great Touya Meijin…and won.

A/N : I know I'm suck in describing things. But you guys got it, right? Well..if you don't…Let's say that Sai is dead but his spirit and his love for Go still remain in his heart so he becomes alive again as a talking heart in Hikaru's body. This is the real meaning of the prologue in the 1st chapter.Next chapter, we'll go back to the Present time.I know there're a Lot of grammar mistakes, I'm very confused, I accept.

I proudly tell you all that this fic is inspired by you guys, again! …Well,two of you, my wonderful readers.

Ice-Ari wrote a review for Turn back time ( chapter 2) and said "...Sai and Hikaru squeeze together in one body.."

That's when I came up with a theme " Two DIFFERENT persons Squeeze in one body" In Turn back time, Hikaru created Sai, right? So Sai was a part of him. We can't say that they're different person 'coz both of them were Shindou Hikaru ( a cute version and a cold one) Unlike this one, Fujuwara no Sai and Shindou Hikaru are totally strangers to each other. And as you all know, Along the Sanzu river is inspired by kathy's review for Turn back time, this's why this Weak Hikaru come up right after the nearly-dead Hikaru because I got the inspiration in the same time when I was reading the review.

Who is the 2nd one? I can't tell you now, it'll spoil the ending. I'll tell you later,ok?

See? Your review can Create a fic! So don't hesitate to comment me :)

kari : Hey! Welcome back! I thought you got bored of me :) Welcome back!

Coiling death : Yap, By the way, don't forget that the real Sai disappeared after Shindou-pro played 2 games only. ( which means that he almost disappeared right after Hikaru became a pro)

kathy : Well, Sai's introduction is here, about his " vacation"? Wait for the next chapter :)

d.a.r.s.h. : "you think becan transplant a you tter brain for me?" ( Evil grin) Read the prologue in the first chapter, really really, carefully, if you know the hidden meaning, maybe you change your mind.

Firehedehog : It's been a while, welcome back.

gravitation gig : Here is another chapter :)