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Chapter 11 : Compromising

" Arrz!" Screaming in terror, Sai trembled with fear. Out of the blue, he felt nauseous, he covered his mouth with his hand trying hard not to throw up, his face was white with dread. He had just killed the boy who he had lived with for 3 years, he had just become a murderer.

Then he saw a pair of white sneakers on the glass floor, he hesitantly looked up and took a look at the person who was standing before him. His light blue eyes widened by shocking surprise, " Hik..Hikaru," he uttered in doubt, " How..how could you?" he didn't finish his line, still, his student knew what he wanted to say.

" It seems that you get confused," Hikaru said light-heartedly , " You have second thoughts and get weaker," he shrugged casually, " So I'm able to fight your power and break away from it," Then he stayed silent looking considerately at his tearful teacher who was still kneeling on the floor.

" Hikaru, I.." Sai had just realized what he had done, " I…" he stuttered.

The kindhearted boy went down on his knees and lowered his head to Sai's level, " I know…I know…,"

" Hikaru, I…"

" I know," he sat by the older man, " It must be hard to be somebody else's heart, isn't it?" he chuckled softly.

Sai curved his rosy lips in reply, " You can'timagine," he was going to explode by a feeling of guilt, " Listen, I…" he nearly killed his only friend, " Aren't you angry at me?" he wondered as the two-tone-haired boy didn't seem to be mad at all. Shouldn't he be angry at me? Why isn't he angry? If I were him…

" You're blind by your strong need and did a stupid thing," Hikaru tried to be cool, " Very very stupid,"

" Aren't you mad at me? Not even a bit?" the long-haired man pressed. It was impossible not to be cross with him for what he had done.

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" Okay, a little bit," the 1-Dans answered when he saw the questioning look on his partner's face, he pleaded guilty, " Okay, okay, A LOT,"

" You don't look so angry," Sai commented, " You know, you can hit me if you want, I don't blame you,"

" Are you sure?"

" No, I'm just saying," he teased.

Shaking his head, Hikaru snorted, " I should have known that,"

" I'm sorry, Hikaru," Resting his forehead on the teen's shoulder, Sai whimpered, " I'm sorry, Hikaru, I'm so sorry,"

" You should. You did try to kill me," Sighing lightly, the easy-going pro told the reason why he wasn't irate, " The thing is…I understand why you did it," he spoke out. Since now we're having a heart-to-heart talk, Just tell him all. " I myself wanted to get rid of you too, I didn't want you to wake up again,"

" Did you?"

" Yeah, I reallyenjoyed the peace when you slept, of course, I missed you advice but," he hesitated to tell to whole truth but… " I was glad that I finally got my life back,"

" Life with no threat from the talking heart, right?" Sai smirked.

" Yeah," Hikaru admitted, " The reason that I didn't bite your head off because I do understand how you feel,"

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Leaning his back and his head against Hikaru's, the legendary Net-Go player said in mocking tone, " We're the perfect match, aren't we?"

" Definitely, that's why you became my donor," the cute young teen made a joke of their weird relationship.

" Right," Sai said mockingly, " You know what's funny about this?"

" What?" Gazing at sparkling stars far away, Hikaru asked.

" We've never talked honestly about how we really feel about each other," the 23-year-old man mentioned, " When we did, we did it when we tried to delete each other,"

" As a matter of fact, you did, not me," Akira's rival corrected, " I maybe wanted to do it but I didn't have the guts to actually kill someone. You're very lucky that I'm a coward,"

" No, you're not," the mentor rejected, " You've moral sense,"

" Haha, I don't hear that often,"

" Your blood almost spilt over my path to the Hand of God," he hung down his head in shame.

" Yeah,"

" Can you forgive me?"

" Only you promise not to protest me or consume me again," Hikaru set the rule.

" Only you let me play with Touya Kouyo from time to time," Sai negotiated.

" Deal,"

" Deal,"

" So, what we'll do next?" the golden bangs boy asked.

" I don't know," the blue-eyed guy let out a deep tired sigh, " Learning how to live together, I guess,"

Shrugging his shoulders, the rising star consented to the idea, " Sounds good to me,"

" Sounds good to me too,"

Getting up, Hikaru reached out for his friend's hand, " Ready to start again?"

" With no attempt to destroy each other," Sai smiled kindheartedly in reply and took Hikaru's hand. The moment their hands touched, Hikaru felt a prompt strong horrible stab in his chest while Sai felt like he was pierced by hundreds of jagged arrows.

In the real world, at Tokyo Hospital, room 715

/BeepBeepBeepBeep/ Out of the blue, The Vital sigh monitor sent out abnormal fast beeping sound.

" What? What's happening?" Mitsuko cried out in alarm, " Doctor! You've just said he would be alright!"

" His heart's beating too fast! Give me that syringe!" Miyasaki ordered a young nurse.

" Hikaruuuu!" Mitsuko screamed.

" He'll be fine, Shindou-san," the nurse comforted Mrs. Shindou, " His heart's just beating too fast, Dr. Miyasaki will give him the injection to slow it down,"

In subconscious world,

" Arrzz!" Both of them screamed painfully. Hikaru who had already been on his feet dropped to the ground hard while Sai fell on his side crying, they had never been this excruciating before.

" Sa..Sai," Curling his legs up to his chest, Hikaru couldn't believe that his partner stabbed him in the back again.

" No…" Sai himself was suffering from the abrupt pain as much as the blond , " It's..not me,"

Eyes widened in great sharp sting, the poor boy didn't have enough power to speak, " What…what's going on?"

" I..I think, it's Arrz!" Kouyo's rival cried out sorely, " the rejection,"

" What? The rejection?...Arrz! Damn it! My heart, my heart…why…now," it was the best Hikaru could say, he could feel his heart racing faster every second, it was about to explode now.

" Tol…told you," Sai thought he knew what was going on, " The more we stay..together,..the more we….fuse together,"

" But..we.. didn't want to…destroy..," Rolling on the floor painfully, Hikaru had never this suffered, "..each other…anymore,"

"…Too late now, my blood…my soul…in your body," Panting tiredly, Sai clenched his teeth stopping himself cursing, " Your body…fight back," Arrzzz! It's like I'm stabbed all over my body!

" Against you…," the new wave took a deep breath hoping to control the ache, "…an intruder,"

" Yeah,"

" I..I can't stop it," he stammered, " can't control it,"

" Ne..neither can I," his friend uttered quietly, " In the end… can't…squeeze.. 2 souls into.. one..body,"

" Have to..do something," Hikaru suggested, " If not..we'll die,"

" A..agree," I can't take it anymore, " Arrzzz," It's getting worse.

" An..any idea?"

Not answering, Sai looked into Hikaru's green eyes instead, " I used to wonder why…why me…," he said pitifully, " Now I understand it all," he smiled at his friend.

" ?"

" As a Go player…I'm strong," Yes, no one could deny that. " As a man…I'm so..so weak," he laughed bitterly. Yes, I'm so selfish, so narcissistic and evil. I don't deserve this talent. " My cold soul...weaken my own heart…it's a punishment from God,"

" ……"

" Only you," Reaching out his trembling hand, he smiled softly to his only friend, " Your soul can heal my heart,"

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Hikaru looked at his mentor in shock knowing what the silent suggestion was, " You..you mean,"

" It's the only way,"

Yes, the dense boy didn't misunderstand, when it came to this kind of circumstance, he was pretty bright and always right, " Are you sure?" he asked, "… There's no.. turning back,"

" If not..we'll die," Sai pointed out.

" At least, this way…we can be together forever," Breathing heavily, Hikaru laughed quietly, " After all, it's against the Laws of God…to take someone else's heart and put into your body," Winking, he said humorously, " Right?"

" Yeah," the other man laughed, Arrz! I shouldn't have laughed! It hurts! " It's also… against the Laws of God…to live as a talking heart,"

Reaching for Sai's hand, " Hikaru said optimistically, " At least, I'm glad we don't have to kill each other to survive,"

" Yeah," Smiling, Sai took Hikaru's hand and squeezed it.

" ARRRZ!" They cried.

A/N : Do you know what's going on? Don't worry the answer is in the next chapter which is the last and the longest chapter ( 3000 words) I don't know if you notice it but the first thing that woke Sai's morals wasn't his love for Hikaru but his fear to dishonor the game, that's why I keep telling you that Sai love the game more than Hikaru.

If you ask me how a selfish soul weaken Sai's heart...Well, have you ever seen a movie " The Grinch"? If you have, you'll get it.But if you haven't...well, there's a selfish ugly hairy greencreature which hates X'mas called "Grinch", they say Grinch's heart was only in size of 1/4 of normal heart, because it's so selfish..then ..blahblahblah, In the end, Grinch learnt the true meaning of giving, and its heart grow as normal.

xiar : No cell phone for a week?My life would be strange without it. By the way, I thought you would knowsince " Arrz" at the end of chapter 10 that I didn't intend to let Sai kill Hikaru.

kari :" i guess i'll have to wait and see."Yes, you're right. I like Aizawa...Aizawa Yumi? Sounds cute.

faychan : Gald to know I can brighten you day :)

gravitation gig : AAH?

Darak : I hope this chapter can convince you to like this Sai a little bit more.

kathy : "why would he left the chance to practice against strong opponents and play more go" Well, because he think he can practice more if he have the body.

Coiling death : Well, Sai did behave well in this chapter.