Two week absence due to a holiday…no sorry a "school cultural trip". So yeah, back from my holiday in Florence, nice and tanned and with a new chapter. Visited the REAL Lucca (spelt with 2 c's in Italian) which was super cool! Anyway here's the chapter.
Tidus POV
I awoke perfectly at peace. That kind of peace that is usually only attainable in fairytales. Yet here I was completely tranquil.
Then I opened my eyes.
It took me a minute to realise where I was. Not in lying Yuna's bed surrounded by soft cotton sheets, but standing upright, surrounded by mist that hung heavy in the atmosphere, the pungent scent of flowers and stale air filling my nostrils. The mist stung my eyes, making them water, and the cold air hugged me like a cold, wet blanket, making me shiver. Though if I was shaking purely because of the temperature or whether the location had something to do with it, I wasn't sure.
This definitely wasn't a dream. Everything was just too…real.
Apprehension flooded my body. I had barely been in Spira for a few hours, and already the Fayth had decided to drag me away again.
Fayth…
Where was that annoying little child anyway?
I spun my head and upper body around, arms flying out at my sides like an airships wings in a very childlike manner, scanning the space around me. And when I saw a silhouette, I froze. My feeling of anxiety increased tenfold as I noted the familiar attire, the long lilac skirt, the large yellow bow, the pink fading to white material hanging from her arms. Clothes I hadn't seen in two years, yet the clothes I always pictured her in. A courageous summoner.
She too seemed to be frantically searching the area for some sign of anything, or, more specifically, anyone.
"YUNA"
My voice, which should have easily alerted her attention, seemed muffled by the dense mist. The sound appeared to die as soon as it left my throat.
I started to walk towards her, though she was rather far away. How could I get her attention…? And then it hit me. No big mystery, not an ingenious idea, more like a very obvious thought.
"Duh Tidus…" I muttered as I raised my hand to my mouth to let a shrill whistle pierce the air. And it did just that. Like a hot knife cutting butter it easily sliced through the impenetrable atmosphere.
As her head snapped round I broke into a jog, and soon was at her side. I hugged her as her arms snaked round my waist, and the force in the embrace was unbelievably strong.
"We're in the Farplane, aren't we?" She was barely audible, a combination of her head firmly nestled at my shoulder and the thick fog.
"Yeah…" I wondered if I should tell her if this was that last place I had been before I returned. Extremely quickly, I came to the conclusion, yes I should. I wanted her to know the truth from me, and I knew this event was of importance.
"Yuna, before I got back to Spira, I eh…appeared here." I ended rather lamely, not knowing how exactly to explain to her how I had materialized. "The fayth, y'know the little one, he was here as well. And he told me…" I trailed off trying to think what exactly it was he had said. It had been only a few hours ago I had been here last, yet it seemed like years ago.
"End the dreaming." The fayth's last words to me echoed around me, though by the look on Yuna's face, it was only I that had heard them.
As details of my talk with the fayth trickled back into my brain I thought it better to tell Yuna.
"End the dreaming." My eyes locked on Yuna's, and as I spoke confusion flashed across her face.
"The fayth…he told me to end the dreaming…"
"End the dreaming…but you already did that…" Her voice was barely a whisper. "A-Are you still a dream?"
I didn't want to answer her question. I hated her question. Hated it because I knew, deep down, I knew the answer. It was not an answer I liked.
"Yes." I didn't recognise my own voice, it was deep and hoarse. It was filled with grief.
Her eyebrows furrowed and I saw her eyes were glistening with unshed tears. My heart tore in two, ever since I had been back, which could have only been 5 or 6 hours, I had seen Yuna cry numerous times. And every single tear that fell from her eyes was like a dagger stabbing me.
"Does…does that mean that you'll…" She couldn't finish that sentence. She didn't have to. I knew what she would ask. Would have known she wanted to ask even if she hadn't. And the thing that was killing me inside was that I couldn't promise that I would stay. In my conversation with the fayth previously, I had not realised that by ending the dreaming forever may mean my disappearance. I had faced and accepted this once before, however I was not prepared to again. This time I would try my hardest to stay.
I pulled her body to mine, feeling her warmth. No words were spoken. We knew neither of us could say anything to make the sudden, unexplained misery disappear.
I don't know how much time we spent like that, holding each other. I don't know how long Yuna cried before her sobs died. I don't know how long I cried before my sobs died down. And, at that point, I didn't know how long we had left together.
It was when we had both grown silent that they began to appear, their glow illuminating the flowers on the ground and the now pitch black sky. They gathered a few feet away from us, dancing around the air until they would merge and begin to take a shape.
I had always thought they were beautiful. Their swirling colours melting into a glowing white centre. The way they floated elegantly through the air. Yet despite their magnificence, they symbolized the Farplane. They symbolized death.
They had all come together at that point, and knowing that I was probably not going to like what I was going to hear, I turned away from Yuna, though stood by her side, my arm firmly around her waist. She too had noticed the Fayth, and she too turned to face him.
With both of us staring at him you'd think he would say something…but no, it was me who had to say something first. Again.
"Why are we here?" I had decided that I was going to be blunt with my questions.
"To show you answers."
He said nothing more. I was liking him less and less by the second. WHY wouldn't he just explain in a clear way what was going to happen, why I was back? End the dreaming he had told me, but how, where to start, what do to? Well I just about ready to throttle this kid.
"Why am I back? How have I to end the dreaming? Where to I start? What do I do? When I have finished will I disappear…AGAIN? Cause if I will, well I'm not gonna help you…" I felt Yuna's gaze on me, no doubt what I had just said replaying in her head. But it was true. I was not going to leave her again.
The fayth remained silent for a while, then he turned his head upward to look at me, and, for the first time I saw his face.
"You are back to end the dreaming."
"I already know that."
"Why do you ask then?" he tilted his head in question. I felt ready to pounce on him; he was trying my last nerve. Then all of a sudden, all anger left me. I felt tired, weary. confused…the list goes on.
"Just, answer my questions…please"
He nodded, lowering his head again so that I could not longer see the details of his face.
"When you have ended the dreaming, when we finally rest, you will remain in Spira. You will no longer be a dream."
At these words my face lit up. I opened my mouth to talk, but before I could say anything…
"How?"
I looked at Yuna in awe. Her voice was unwavering and her eyes burned with the fierce determination I had seen many times during her pilgrimage.
I saw a smile play across the lips of the Fayth. This time he did not pause before answering.
"He must merge with the one last dream."
Last dream? But…? My confusion must have shown on my face, as he spoke again.
"Two dreams remain in Spira. While it is not as energy draining to maintain them, it means we cannot yet rest. Yet they are too connected to this world to disappear altogether. These dreams must merge, become one. Two half dreams become one whole. This means that the fayth can finally rest, as Tidus will be like the rest of Spira. He will be real."
Too many questions flooded my brain for me to make sense of any of them. I just need to know more. Thankfully, the fayth continued talking, so I was spared from deciphering the jumble of words in my head.
"You know that one of these dreams is Tidus. Do you have any thought as to who the second is?"
I think I actually laughed at that point. We were here for answers, yet were being asked questions. Not particularly funny, however my mind was not exactly working correctly at that point.
"No." I couldn't be bothered thinking, and really had no idea anyway.
He looked to Yuna, who shook her head.
"He is currently in the Farplane. It was you that sent him there."
Oh jeez. I now had a fairly good idea of who he was talking about. Actually I was really pretty sure.
"Yes you have guessed correctly." He looked at me. Directly at me.
"My old man…?"
Yuna's head snapped round, she obviously had not reached the same conclusion as me.
"Yes, Jecht. You and he must become one."
"So do we just go to the Farplane?"
"No. Jecht must be alive for the merge to occur."
Alive? Did that mean going back to Zanarkand? Or Braska's pilgrimage?
"When is that?" Yuna's tone was polite; I don't know how she managed to be so nice to everyone.
"The last time you met with him. When you defeated him."
Ooookay, explain please.
"You must return, two years in the past. Return so that you can end what you started. Relive your memories."
And with that he and the world around us faded to a bright white light.
After that, I think I dreamed. A dream of Yuna and I, our future together, our past together.
Our past. Somewhere we would be returning to. However all sense of foreboding had left me. At the end of this I would be here, with her. I would always be here with her. No longer did I have to worry about abandoning her a second time, no more did she have to worry if when she woke up the next day and I would be gone.
Always I would be here. Always. I had promised that, long ago…and it looked like I might actually be able to keep that promise…
Wayhey! Chapter 5 FIN! I had to keep changing it, and it still feels like I kinda rushed it a bit. Anyway, work has already begun on Chapter 6, so expect it sooooon! And don't forget to review!
