Forgiveness

IMPORTANT NOTICE

Thanks yeh'all for the reviews. Oh and I set up my profile it tells a lot more about my OC's and the stories about their pasts and such. Unfortunately I don't think I can keep all my OC's in the story, because I want you to get a little more indept feel for them but with so many I can't do this and keep Romy going good and the plot going good. So I please review and tell me which ones you think I should keep. I know I'm going to keep Garret, Hack, Xa, probably Mirage and maybe Blackflame, and if I'm keeping Black fire I have to keep Derek , and probably Gravitate because they were my original MPRS. But I'm not sure about the rest. There were some more cool volunteers (other OC's) I was going to throw in but now I doubt I will. But you might get a hint of them. So send me a review with your vote soon.

Chapter 13:

"There's 125 bottles of beer on the wall, 125 bottles of beeeeer, take one down pass it a round now there's 124 bottles of beer on the wall." Xa sang.

"SHUT UP IF YOU SING THAT SONG ONE MORE TIME I AM GOING TO BURN YOU TO PIECES!" Alex yelled.

"How can you do that with out your powers?" Xa asked.

"AAHHHHH!" Alex screamed pulling at her hair violently.

"I'll….find…ways…" She forced out through clenched teeth.

They had been sitting in this room for five hours now. Rogue had already knocked out both Garret and Remy multiple times. And Xa had been slowly driving everyone nuts singing the beer bottle song for hours, she had started at a thousand. Kitty had been silently sitting in the corner seemingly sleeping.

Lucky girl, Rogue thought, wish Ah could knock myself out.

"Any one wanna plah cards?" Remy asked.

Every one groaned. "NO!" They shouted simultaneously.

"Hey Remy jus' tryin' to beh friendleh." Remy said hands up in the air in mock fear. "Why don' you wanna plah cards wit Remy?"

"Let's see Cajun maybe it's because you win at any card game we play and that's been about roughly 100 games so far!" Rogue snapped.

"Well yeh haven't tried playin' strip poker wit Remy maybe he not so good at dat." Remy said with a grin. It never ceased to amuse him over how hot Rogue looked when she was pissed.

"HELL NAH CAJUN!" Rogue yelled and Alex had to stop her from lunging at him.

"Boy next time I'm letting her loose on you and we don't have first aid boxes in here." Alex said sending a glare his way.

There was an awkward silence.

Rogue sighed and rolled her eyes then curled up in the corner.

God she was so tired she could barely keep her eye lids open she felt as if something was weighing them down maybe if she just rested them for a while…

No.

She couldn't.

Every time she fell asleep she would dream those horrible dreams.

They had been getting worse.

But they couldn't be true.

It just didn't make sense.

Every one she had talked too about them had told her they were just dreams and she should ignore them.

But they were getting so hard to ignore.

Then again they made no sense she dreamed of these ghost like colorful wisps that had the faces of the X-men on them, there were other wisps too.

Like this man with a huge red helmet on his head, this woman with blue skin, this girl with short dark hair dyed half way red, there were so many.

They attacked her and called her names. They were horrible.

The other strange thing was she had never seen them before in her life yet they were so familiar.

Sometimes she dreamed of her being with the X-men.

Sometimes with the blue woman.

Sometimes with this blind woman wearing sunglasses.

Sometimes she dreamed of living on a farm but sometimes she lived in Hollywood.

It was whirl of pictures, people, words, colors.

She wanted them gone.

She tried to get rid of them but nothing worked, not sleeping pills or warm milk, nothing.

Finally she had just stopped sleeping or at least she tried sometimes she would accidently fall asleep.

She just had to…not fall…

Resting my eyes wouldn't hurt…

Only a few seconds….

uhhh…..

She was falling in utter darkness.

Falling falling falling….

Then she wasn't.

She was under water submerged in this green liquid, her lungs burning for the taste of air. She pushed her way to the surface as fast as she could pumping the sticky liquid under her. Even if she couldn't tell up from down. She just new she needed to take those precious gulps of air.

But no matter how fast she swam she couldn't reach the surface.

It was just endless green liquid.

She could hear strange sounds like muffled voices so far away.

There was then quiet thudding. Thud. Thud. Clunk. Thud thud. Clunk. Then it stopped for awhile.

She couldn't hold her breath in much longer her brain was going warning system.

She saw dark spots flashing before her eyes.

The lack of oxygen started to rip at her lungs.

Her mouth yearned to open and just breathe in the liquid but her brain fought back not willing to give in.

The green hue color around her started to fade and the spots flooded her whole vision.

The last thing she heard was a loud explosion and the smash of glass.

123412341234,1234,12341234,1234,1234,123412,341234,1234,1234,1234,1234,1234,12

Hmm….

She woke in what seemed like seconds later.

Everything was still blurry but she could make out the room she guessed it was white.

A shadowy figure sat to the side. She heard a voice next to her head but she couldn't make out what he or she was saying.

It sounded like a broken tape being played in slow motion.

Just as her vision slowly cleared she saw a blonde haired woman, beautiful, like an angel with a halo of light around her head.

That's when the ghosts inside her mind attacked, making her cry out.

They tore at her mind ripping away her memories.

She couldn't remember who she was, maybe she was a boy name Xavier or a girl name Katherine, she wasn't sure but one name came more clearly then the others, that name was Rogue.

That's all they had left her with, Rogue.

They screamed at her telling her what a horrible person she was, that she didn't deserve to live.

She could feel arms wrapping around her trying to comfort her but it all seemed so far away.

She could feel 'it' come then, though she couldn't remember what 'it' was.

But she could feel the person who had taken her in their arms shutter violently and try to pull away.

Please don't leave me! Rogue grabbed on and wouldn't let go.

'Don't LEAVE me, not again!' Part of her cried, but she didn't know what that meant. Not again? Did this person leave her before?

The ghosts started attacking her again they tried to pull her away from the comforting arms.

No! She wouldn't let go. You won't take me!

Memories started flooding into her brain maybe the ghosts were stopping, maybe they were giving back her memories.

But these memories were so strange to her.

Her name was Carol, she had blonde hair and blue eyes. She had these amazing powers. she could fly, have super strength, be invulnerable. I must be a super hero.

The ghosts started whirling around like a giant tornado trying to suck her in. That's when a new wisp appeared it was yellow it had almost a goldish hue to it. The front of it slowly transformed into a face.

Wait!

That's supposed to be my face!

'No it's my face!' the wisp yelled and the wisp slowly started to get bigger.

'But my memories-!"

They're not your memories they're mine!' The wisp started to form into a body.

'What? I don't understand?"

'You stole my memories! You stole my powers! You stole who I am!'

NO! I wouldn't- I don't know- what- who I am!

Rogue

That's all I remember.

Rogue.

Rogue….

….

ROGUE!

Her eyes snapped open to look straight into the face of Betsy.

"Betsy!"

"Rogue are yeh right?" Betsy asked a concerned look painted over her face.

"Ah think so-." Rogue said softly holding her head.

"You think so! Luv you betteh be sure, yeh almost scared the life outta me."

Rogue gave a small smile. Some things never changed, and Rogue was lucky that Betsy was one of them.

Her black hair with violet highlights at the tips were up in a siphosticated bun and her clothes were perfect not a wrinkle in sight, yet totally stylish.

She looked like she had stepped out of a magazine which wasn't all that far from the truth. When she was younger she had been a big supermodel. Even today she modeled for some anti aging cream commercials.

Once she had hit 40 none of the big modeling corps had wanted her, but really she could pass for a 20 year old and most of the times she said she was. But the terrible truth of birth certificates could never hide the fact of age.

When Rogue first came to the MPRS Betsy had taken Rogue under her wing. Told her the does and don'ts and had been mothering her ever since. Rogue pretended to be annoyed by it but deep down she kind of liked it.

Kind of liked to have a mother.

"I had to use telepathy to get yeh out of that little dream yeh were havin'" Betsy ranted, she stopped for a minute to give her a worried look.

We'll talk later she said telepathically.

Rogue nodded.

"So Hack wanted me to scan each of your minds to see if any of you have any connections with Essex." Betsy said facing everyone who was staring at Rogue. "Little paranoid if you ask meh but yeh can neveh beh to careful. So who's goin' first?"

"I will." Kitty said stepping forward.

Betsy inspected her coldly. Which confused Rogue, Betsy usually was drawn to people or maybe it was the other way around, but either way Rogue had never seen her act like this before.

"Alrigh then." Betsy pulled out a chair and sat down in front of Kitty.

She closed her eyes for a few what seemed hours then opened them with a sad look in her eyes. "Well your innocent, yeh tipping over the container was complete accident."

That's when Hack's face appeared on one of the computer screen. "Sorry I'm late folks had matters to attend to." She said flashing a grin then remembered these were serious matters and put on a stern front. "I heard what Betsy pronounced though and you have my apology Shadow Cat."

Kitty nodded with a tired smile tracing her lips.

"You can leave when we're all finished. Next Garret."

Garret walked over. "I hope I can trust you not to look any further then you have to Betsy." He said accusingly.

Betsy glared. "Why you have something to hide, boy?"

He gave her a look that could freeze over the Bahamas and said "No I just like to keep some of my thoughts privite thank you."

"If that's truthfully all, then you have nothing to worry about." Betsy responded, then closed her eyes and after while opened them.

"Well you were correct Garret and you had nothing to hide. You're innocent." Betsy gave a mischevious smirk then added. "In this matter."

Garret's eyes widened but he said nothing just stood up and walked over to wait by the door sending a glare in Betsy's direction now and then.

"Xa you should go next." Hack said.

Xa skipped over and sat down as Betsy eyed her warily then sighed.

"Rogue if anything happens use your telepathy to get me out."

Rogue nodded and Betsy closed her eyes.

They waited for about ten minutes and Betsy started to shake and sweat.

Betsy do you need me? Rogue sent out.

No, no it's just-! She snapped, but then was cut off quickly.

"She's innocent and mentally insane." Betsy said rubbing her head.

Xa grinned "Told you so." She spat at the chair next to her then skipped around the table.

Betsy just shuttered. "Alright next un please, before I lose my stomach."

"Remy" Hack gestured to the chair in front of Betsy.

He walked up and sat down, god even being tucked in this room for five hours hadn't done anything to his looks she thought checking him out. He looked great in that ruff just out of bed look. As if sensing the eyes that were on him he turned and winked at her. She looked away fast but it didn't help he had seen her.

He turned to look at Betsy. "Madame Remy surprisingly agree wit' Garret on dis one he hope yeh don' pry to far in where yeh don' belong."

Betsy rolled her eyes. "Yeh boys and your superstitions I am not going to do any such thing now would you relax, luv?"

He nodded his head and Betsy instead of closing her eyes to concentrate looked deep into his eyes as if searching his soul and somewhat she was. She stayed that way for a long time her eyes unblinking. Then a bewildered look crossed her face.

"He's… innocent from all that I can find." Her eyes turned back to Remy's for a few seconds a curious gleam in her eyes but as quickly as it had come it left and Remy was allowed to stand by the door.

All eyes were now on Rogue. If none of them were guilty and the only one left was her.

Rogue looked shocked at their accusing expressions, her shock turned slowly into anger and she gave them an angry glare.

"Oh don't yeh dare give meh those looks, Betsy hasn't even searched mah mind!" Rogue stomped up to the chair that sat in front of Betsy and let herself fall down into it.

"Ah have nothing to hide Betsy search mah mind through every than' if yeh want!"

She nodded and everyone watched intently as she closed her eyes and concentrated. She again stayed that way for a while.

Rogue started to get impatient.

Hmm…. Ah wonder what taken her so long.

Well if I just slip in and watch her it ain't gonna hurt.

She closed her eyes and let her inner peace take over.

She was inside her mind it was pretty in there.

Standing before her was a long open field with a glowing sunset flooding the night sky.

She could smell the sweet sent of newly grown buds.

Memories danced through the trees and the sky.

Rogue sighed and gave a small smile.

Now to find Betsy.

She focused on Betsy's face and her personality.

Every thing seemed to melt away from her like a water picture left in the rain.

Then she was in a different part of her mind.

Strange she had never seen this part of her mind.

Which was weird because when she meditated she placed everything perfectly she new her inner plane better then even Betsy she reckoned.

This place was dark and she thought maybe it was a cave.

She studied her surroundings and memorized them, she'd return here later and figure out why she never had found this place.

Rogue spotted a faint glow from up a head and she slowly followed it.

When she came to the end of the tunnel there stood Betsy her back turned form Rogue.

She stared into a bright green what looked to be a portal except she was seeing a picture. It was Rogue's memory of her was listening to Xavier and Mirage.

Something caught her attention away from the odd green portal. It was a slight movement in the shadows.

Rogue focused on it and slowly her eyes adjusted to the new kind of lighting.

And what she saw there made her let out a strangled cry.

It was herself.

Or maybe a younger version of herself. Her hair was shorter and her make up was watered away smeared in odd places. She wore a green and black armored suit but it was so torn up she could barely make it out. She had bloody gashes that covered her body along with some dirt smears. Her body was wrapped in long chains cuffs binded her wrists and ankles. But the thing that scared her the most was not the chains or the blood it's what was there when this thing that was her younger self turned to look into the present day Rogue's eyes.

What Rogue saw there sent tremors down her spine and her hair to stand on end.

Those eyes were blank.

They were dead.

They showed no sign of anything and yet they looked unseeing at her.

Betsy spun around and when she spotted who the cry had come from her jaw fell open.

Before Rogue could ask any questions she was thrown from her mind in a violent jerk.

Her eyes popped open and she was back in the Planning Room with all eyes giving her a worried look including Betsy excluding Xa.

"What- what happened?" She yelled at Betsy

"Wwhat was that- who was-?"

"Rogue calm down." Betsy commanded in a calm voice.

Relax for a few minutes so I can tell them you're innocent and I can answer all your questions in another room. She said telepathically.

Rogue shot her a glare before she took a deep breath and calmed her self.

Betsy turned too Hack. "Sorry about that my mistake I was surprised when Rogue came into her mind and I threw her out. But she is innocent she didn't know anything about the explosion or anything else."

Hack looked a little suspicious but only nodded.

"Everyone can leave then." Hack stated and the doors opened. "You each will have a few days as a break I apologize for the misunderstanding."

The door slid open and everyone was about to leave when Hack said. "Oh yeah and when I mean a few I mean one day."

They groaned but didn't have enough strength to argue.

Remy was the last to leave he sent a look Rogue's way. His eyes held sorrow, shock, anger and something else that even if Rogue comprehend she wouldn't have wanted to.

He then sent a glare of pure hatred Betsy's way and left.

"Rogue, yeh probably want to shower and sleep. We can talk in the mornin." Betsy said and was about to turn around and discuss something with Hack when Rogue grabbed onto her arm.

"No thanks Betsy Ah wanna talk NAW." Rogue said her eyes hardening.

Betsy gave her a sad look but nodded.

"Umm… sorry Hack I'm gonna have to talk to yeh later I need to explain some things to Rogue fehst."

Hack nodded and then sent one look at Rogue before moniter shut off.

Betsy shut the door and sat down in one of the chairs motioning for Rogue to do the same.

Betsy POV (sorry to change it but I want to do it from Betsy's point of view.)

God… did she ever grow up,(not sarcastically) Betsy thought smiling inwardly. Rogue's hair had gotten longer and she must have gotten taller. She could easily be more of a supermodel then Betsy had been.

I just wish she didn't have to deal with this right now.

Why did the X-men have to come back and wreck her life again. Oh yeah that's right the MPRS needed they're help. Pft!...

Well I suppose we need as much help as we can get.

Even if it's from monsters like them.

Well maybe not all monsters, Betsy had searched through that Kitty girl's mind and she saw the pain she had went through when Rogue was locked away. Betsy almost felt sorry for her.

Too late for that, Betsy had live through Rogue's memories in order to sew them all together again.

She saw how the 'X-men' had treated her flinching away from her or letting her push them away. The only people who had stickin close to her were that Wolverine person that Kurt who was her adoptive brother and the Kitty who was her room mate. Sigh, even the professor had feared her. That's why he locked her away. The Ass she'dd have to have a little private discussion with him telepath to telepath.

Well maybe Betsy was being a little biased, but she had walked through Rogue's life with a needle mending it.

Only to put it behind a wall hiding it from Rogue, she thought guiltily. She knew what she did was wrong but she had thought that that would have been better for Rogue then having her going back to her miserable life with the X-men.

Now that Rogue forgot about her past she was able to control her powers.

She could be herself.

She could be happy.

But now that she saw her olderself what could Betsy say 'oh and by the by I am the source of your amnesia and you used to be an X-men but I thought you had a terrible life so I hid your memories from you.'

Yeah that would go by quite nicely.

"So Ah'm waitin for an explanation." Rogue said sitting on the table.

"What you saw was…" What could she say she didn't want to lie to Rogue but she didn't want to lose her either.

"Yes?" Rogue said raising an eyebrow.

"She's the caretaker of your memories." Not a total lie.

Rogue gave her a confused look "but why was she all torn up and in chains?"

"because when you lost your memories that's what happened I…can't give you any more information then that."

Rogue gave her a suspicious look. "Really… and why's that?"

"Because even I have not all the answehs on the working of ones mind," Betsy said.

Rogue searched her eyes and Betsy could feel her reaching out with her empathy and her telepathy. Betsy forced her mind to go blank to focus only on Rogue's green eyes.

Rogue's eyes narrowed into a glare. "What are you hiding Betsy? Don't lie to me!"

"I don't keep things from you Rogue, you know that!" Betsy sent her a sad look. "I only ever wish for your happiness." And that truthfully was…the truth.

Then Betsy put on a face of mock frustration. "and I am shocked that you would even think of such a thing."

"Why did you force me out of my own mind?" Rogue lashed out.

"I-I…was jus-just shocked that's it…I didn't expect you to be there and I just lost control for a moment-."

"Oh don't feed me that BULL!" Rogue yelled.

Crap now she was pissed.

Rogue got up and inched her face towards Betsy.

"Don't try to lie to me Elizebeth I was trained by the best." She sneered coldly and then stamped out the door yelling back "When feel like telling the truth you Come to talk to meh!"

Betsy sighed rubbing her temples only thirty minutes back at the base and already she needed a drink.

IMPORTANT NOTICE!

Sorry haven't written in a while but yeah I'm not gonna feed some lame excuse because that's just dumb so whatever I hoped you liked it! READ AND REVIEW AND SEND ME YOUR VOTES! GOTTA NOW I'M ONLY GOING TO WAIT TWO CHAPTERS PEOPLE BEFORE I'M CUTTING FOLKS OUT SO HURRY! So check out my bio and pick which characters yeh don't want. I'll post the postings next chappie if it's not worth posting I might not so again vote people! And I know I haven't been huge into the Romy but I 'm going to try to get on it but I mean this is going to be centraled around Rogue.Oh and if you want to check out my one shot you might like it. Though it's not a Romy, it's pretty good anyway. But whatever you wanna do it's all up to you gotta go now the squirrels have finally found my secret base in my grandma's basement and there coming to suck out my mind then to use my body to take over the world so I have to get my deed ready before it's to late. But they said they'd put my mind in a computer so I can finish my story heaven forbid if I don't. Toodles all

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