Forgiveness

Hey people luv the reviews and the votes heres what I have so far.

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Mariandra: 2

Aurora: 2

Betsy: 1 but I can't take her out becuase at the moment she's playing a big role

Blackflame: 1

Derek: 1

Mirage: 1

It seems that a lot of you want Alex in, and Blackflame and Xa and Derek. Who knows so far I hoped yeh'all who checked out the OC history thing on my author profile liked it.

Enchantedlight: Thank yeh for voting I don't think anyone at the moment likes Betsy for what she's doing to Rogue but who know's your feelings may change in further chappies.

Chica De Los Ojos Café: thank you for the review and it's funny that you don't really care for some of the ones everyone really likes but highfive to you and Spagetti too!

Starfire: I think I was in a hurry to edit that chapter because we were heading on a all weekend trip and I wanted to post it before I left and sometimes I get so caught up in the story and how I see it in my mind then how I write I really need to work on it. Oh and I will neveh tell you're just going to have to keep reading Thank you.

BrazilianGirl: again what I said before I get all the languages from a sight my French and any other spoken language (except English) sucks.

Bored247: sometimes it's a good thing to be indecisive I won't hold it against you I'm like that most of the times and don't worry I plan to fade them out slowly or to send them to another new secret base that's being set up. Tehehe have said too much.

Emi13: luv the review and it's good you have the a big opinion about the characters that means my stories getting through, I mean I had this story planned as a small story maybe three chappies at the most but when I started writing I just discovered new hidden pathways and I took them. Thanks again.

Okay on with the show

Chapter: 15

Betsy sighed as she finished the bottle of beer from her secret stash in her room.

She was in a predicament. If she told Rogue the truth, (which she desperately wanted do) it might make Rogue remember her lost memories, and if she remembered she might lose control of her abilities which would make the 'ghosts' as Rogue nicknamed them to come back and she might lose total control again.

But maybe she wouldn't, the phyics had evolved last time forcing her to evolve with them. Maybe that was the whole reason why Rogue had lost control, so completely. Yet Betsy was still unsure. The 'ghosts' had left her mind in a total ruin the last time they got out of control.

She just couldn't risk anything that would set the physics off again, Betsy decided.

The truth would put to much emotional stress on Rogues mind. Though Betsy didn't doubt the power of Rogue's mind, but a blow like that would be shattering.

She knew she couldn't risk it, but she hated lying to Rogue like this, sooner or later Rogue was going to figure it out and she'd probably hate Betsy forever. Hate was something Betsy had learned to bare, but if Rogue unleashed the physics again, and she wasn't ready to control them, Betsy would never forgive herself.

But she had to give something to satisfy Rogue's suspicions.

She rubbed her temples trying to massage her headache away. Rogue was defiantly getting stronger she had almost weaseled her way past Betsy's defenses, trying to force herself into Betsy's mind using Betsy's own power to do it. It had taken a great amount of effort on her side to keep Rogue out. It had left her with a killer headache.

But enough of whining, she had put off the conversation with Xavier too long.

It was time to give him a piece of her mind and find out what on earth had he thought he was accomplishing with locking Rogue away.

In other words Betsy was pissed and even Xavier wouldn't know how to deal with Betsy when she got pissed.

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She found him speaking with the Wolf man and Black Flame.

"…that could be possible but I do not believe he would be able to block me out, you said he had only minor telepathic abilities." She heard Xavier say, she recognized him as if he were her own father, at least that's how Rogue had seen him.

"But he could have modified dampening equipment to enable any mutant to find him. I mean it's not improbable. I've heard of such things done." BlackFlame pointed out.

"Xavier." Betsy stated, coldly announcing herself.

He looked up and his blue eyes seemed to search her own abnormal purple ones.

Betsy almost cried on the spot as she remembered them filled with pure compassion and caring. She threw Rogue's memories aside and replaced them with her own, of Rogue lying in a coma, her mind ripped to pieces, of each physic fighting over who should posses her next, of how he had locked this poor girl away in this condition. He didn't deserve to even look Rogue's way.

She stopped in mid thought as she felt a gentle probe seeking entrance in her mind. She sent her own probe striking his away with such violent hatred she saw Xavier recoil outside his mind.

I am the telepath that healed Rogue, I lived her life, I saw the sins you've committed. I had to fight the physics for every little piece of her existence. Then I had to sew those pieces up to some how recreate her soul. I had to watch as she struggled to even complete simple tasks such as eating and speaking when she finally awakened from her 5 month long coma. I had to nurse her mind back to health, when at first she couldn't even put together two thoughts. I think we need to talk. Meet me in virtual reality room when your done here I await your arrival.

She saw the shock in his eyes and as her accusations got longer she seemed to see a flash of sadness in the depths of them but it was quickly hidden along with his previous shock.

She turned on heel and stormed from the room.

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Betsy stared into the artificial starlit sky that twinkled above her.

It all seemed too real to be fabricated from some man made machine.

That was until she heard the swish of the medal door and her majestic night sky seemed a blur for a moment. Then as the door shut again and the sound of wheels on tile reached her ears, the night once more settled into the picture that Betsy projected.

They sat like that for what seemed like hours then Xavier finally spoke.

"I did not know the MPRS had access to this type of technology."

"And this is only but the surface to the secrets MPRS holds." Betsy answered cryptically.

There was another short silence and Betsy spoke again.

"Why did you do it?" There was no point to embellish her question any further they both knew what she was talking about.

Xavier let out a long, almost tired sigh.

"I felt as if there was no choice at the time. I was desperate… When I probed Rogue's mind there seemed no way to save her the physics were at their peek of evolution…it seemed so hopeless…So I did the only thing I thought I could do. I suspended her mind and the physics along with it." Xavier let out another exaggerated sigh.

"I thought I had no choice, people were being hurt." This time his voice seemed to be chocked with emotion.

But Betsy's anger made her merciless.

"So you gave up on her, condemned her to a life of dreamless sleep." She snapped venomously.

"I did what I thought was best" he responded defensivly.

"You did what was convenient!" She accused still keeping her eyes on the night sky refusing to look at him.

The room seemed to echo her voice and there was a long pause in the conversation before the professor continued.

"I can feel the anger projecting from you and I know no matter what I say it will never justify myself in your eyes." He said softly, even so, it seemed to be shot at her heart. "How did you do it?"

"As I told you in your mind earlier, I fought off the physics and separated what was left of Rogue from them. Then I gathered the pieces of her mind and sewed them together merged her memories into one. She came back slowly at first but she managed to find herself in the end."

"You mean almost all of herself? She still is missing her memories. How did this happen?" He questioned trying to make it sound like a mild curiosity rather then an accusation.

This time she turned to face him a glare in her eyes.

"Are you trying to say I did this purposely!" she yelled in a outraged manner.

"I said no such thing." Xavier replied calmly.

"but you hinted it." She said in a frosty tone. "I believe it happened as I tried to put her soul self together. I didn't notice until she was starting to talk again that something went wrong. When her mind had healed enough for me to enter with out damaging it I checked over my work but I found nothing that might have caused her memory loss. It must have been a postponed reaction to the physic attack."

She knew Xavier doubted her explanation but he wasn't a man to push it.

"What of the physics now?"

"I locked them away in the back slots of her mind."

The professor's eyes widened in surprise and maybe fear but it was hard to tell. "But that's what I did before it only delayed their attacks."

"But you cut them completely off from Rogue. They were like a pop can that keeps on getting shacked around. If you cut them completely off from Rogue then their powers aren't being used and then they get frustrated, and finally pop your shield, their powers go crazy. I kept a slight link to them, allowing Rogue to use their powers. I talked to the physics and threatened to cut the link if they sent anything that isn't their powers or abilities through it. They weren't too happy about it but in the end agreed."

Besty felt Xavier's eyes burning into her back and shock was projecting from his thoughts.

"Why-why didn't I think of that it's so simple and yet-." He closed his mouth abruptly as if just realizing he had said those words aloud. "I'm sorry you feel the way you do about me and my decisions and sometimes I make mistakes but I tend to pay for them dearly. I can't say-."

Before he could finish that sentence Betsy lashed out at his psychic shield throwing her memories of Rogue's tortured mind at him, of what Betsy found when she first entered Rogue's mind, of Rogue's soul self now.

The room was soundless.

Not until she heard the noise of Xavier leave did Betsy let out her breath in a quiet sob. She started to remember what Xavier had been like from Rogue's point of view, Rogue had really loved him. Through her memories Betsy had seen what a caring person he was. But he was a dreamer he couldn't see the evil this world has taken form in. He might accomplish this dream of his but he also might fail miserably. Bringing students like Rogue along with him, thinking they owe him their help.

The truth is Xavier is right, everyone has some good in them even if it takes a while to find.

But he's usually so wrapped up in trying to find that good in that someone that he misses the evil that's lies there.

The natural animal instinct is to save one self.

Humans will kill mutants out of fear, and mutants will kill humans out of fear, until one day they realize that all this could have been avoided if they hadn't listened to their fears.

But it happens every day. Even Xavier can't change that.

Betsy sighed she needed another drink.

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I was going to do more but I think this is good ending. Next chappie is going to be Remy and Rogue's first date! author skips around then stops I still need votes from all I appreciated the voters I got from you'll that did vote! Spagetti for you! Well tahtah byebye

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