Sumary: This is the sequal to "Remembering to Breathe."
Disclaimer: Once again, I do not own the characters. They belong to Joss. I only own the words.
Dedication: This is dedicated to a wonderful friend and person. Martin, you will never be forgotten and your love will shine forever. May you rest in peace.
I have taken many lovers in my lifetime, both men and women. But none have touched me like she does. All in the world can not hope to hold a candle to her flame. She would blind even the brightest sun. She is truly one of a kind.
Before I met her I was nothing but walking and living eternal flesh. Nothing really mattered before she came along into my life. From the first second I saw her I knew she was something special. In all of the millions of years I have lived and the world has turned, there has never been a creature such as her.
She is not the most talented, she is not the fairest in all the land, and she is not the wisest. She has her faults just as any mortal. But she has done something for me in all my years of living that no one has ever been able to do. She taught me how to love and has given her love in return. I have heard about love, I have seen love, and I have read about love; but I have never before felt love. When she came along she canged everything.
Once we met we were inseperable. Her friends, and later mine as well, joked that we were joined at the hip. For once I felt myself reciting poetry and fully understanding the words. Her smile would only light up a room but my soul as well. Until she touched my soul I never knew I had one. I assumed they were just for mortals. She was my goddess, she was my light and happy ending. Being with her was like a fairy tale come true. But like all fairy tales mine came to an end.
We spent over fifty glorious years together. It never even mattered when she aged and I stayed the same. We never really noticed. Her spirit was as young as ever and I always saw her as the beautiful sun goddess I first laid eyes upon. The difference between us never struck home until one morning when she didn't wake up.
I tried everything I could to wake her but nothing worked. She died that day while I keep on living. That task is hard though. How does one keep living when their soul, their heart, their reason for life has stopped? How does one keep living when the brightest other half is no longer? How does one live?
That is a question I keep asking myself. Without her by my side I just go day by day. I never really knew how to love until I met her. Now that she's gone I am learning how to live, for her.