Lost Memories

"Three months ago," Cyborg started, raising his glass, "We visited you, drowning in our own miseries. But thanks to the somewhat helpfulness of Larry, you are now free! To Terra! In hopes that this time, she will join our happily ever after!"

"To Terra!" The Titans echoed, Raven half-heartedly. She had gotten used to Terra around, getting a lot of attention, but whenever she looked at her… The sensation of Slade still cloaked her. Something was going on in Terra's mind, something plaguing her, and Raven was almost afraid to find out what.

"So Terra, how much can you remember?" Robin asked, grinning slightly.

"Uh, not much more. Just a few things… Things I'd rather not remember…" Terra muttered, embarrassed with herself. "It's frustrating sometimes, like this should be going faster."

"At least you can comprehend that," Raven said under her breath, taking a sip of water.

"Pardon?"

"Nothing." Seems like she can't comprehend sarcasm. Raven smirked at her wittiness.

Beast Boy rolled his eyes at Raven. He blushed lightly when he noticed that Terra was staring at him. "You okay?"

Terra shook her head, a light shade of red creeping across her face. "Oh! I'm fine! I just spaced out there!"

Cyborg grinned. "Hey Ter, how would you like to meet the Titans East?"

"There's more of you?"

"Well, yeah. I guess you could say that," he explained, tripping over his own words.

"Slow it down a bit, Cyborg," Robin said. He turned to Terra, "Instead, how would like to train with us tomorrow morning?"

"Train with you? I can barely remember who you guys are sometimes," Terra said bashfully.

"We'd like to see what your skills can do. How about it?" Robin urged.

Terra considered his proposal for a moment. She was being given the chance to rejoin the Teen Titans, or at least train with them. She let a small smile slide on her face. "All right, sounds wicked."

"You got who out of what now?" Bumblebee raised her eyebrow, puzzled.

Cyborg sighed in a frustrated manner. "We got Terra out of stone a couple months ago. I tried to tell you earlier, but uh…"

"Too flustered around me?" She said easily. Cyborg blushed lightly.

"You could say that." He cleared his throat. "So… are we…?"

"Dating?" Bumblebee grinned. "Sure, why not Sparky. But to make it final, how about you take me out this Saturday?"

He nodded eagerly. "Sounds good. I'll meet you there or what?"

She placed a finger on her chin. "How about… you come here."

Cyborg grinned and then bid her farewell. He turned off his communicator and sighed contently.

Now he knew what Beast Boy felt whenever he saw Terra.

Terra placed the bowl to her lips and drank its contents – hot soup Beast Boy had made her. She turned to him and smiled, nodding approvingly. He was always so kind to her – she felt kind of bad that she didn't exactly feel the same way about him.

Sure, Beast Boy was funny and sweet… Everything a girl could want. But something was nagging her inside. Terra tried to like him, she honestly did, but something stopped her from fantasizing about him.

And it was too complicated to explain.

She closed her eyes and pictured him in her mind; a smile curled on her lips. But then, his face went dark, and images of cliffs and sharp, jagged rocks filled his place. She snapped her eyes open.

There was something significant about those formations, but she couldn't place her finger on it. Suddenly, she felt a headache coming on.

"Ter, you okay?" Beast Boy asked in a concerned manner.

"I'm all right, just my head hurts," Terra tried not to sound too pained. Her attempt failed.

"You want a cold washcloth? That's what helps me. I mean, after a training session like this morning. Did I mention you were awesome?" He scrambled around for a spare washcloth. "Fast too. You rock. Now, where did I put that-"

"Beast Boy, it's okay," she told him, sounding a little too hostile, "I don't need anything. It'll pass."

"Are you sure?" He felt his expression (and heart) fall.

Terra hopped up from her seat and said hastily, "Yes, I'm sure." She then stormed out of the room, leaving Beast Boy stunned, and sort of heartbroken.

Beast Boy couldn't explain her actions more than she could. She's just frustrated, He told himself. Training with us for the first time in a while. It must put a lot of stress on her. That's it. She doesn't hate me. She's just aggravated.

I'll check on her later. Maybe bring her some tofu with ketchup.

Terra stormed up to her room and ran to her sacred spot, her windowsill. She placed her hand to her forehead, feeling it throb. This was a first. Usually it just hurt.

It had been three months, as Cyborg had told her. She had only remembered so much… And so much was never enough.

I'm just never gonna be good enough for you, am I!

When the pain began to cease, Terra determined that tomorrow, or maybe later, she would tell Beast Boy that she was sorry for snapping at him. After all, he was only trying to help.

She glanced out the window, feeling a floaty feeling in her chest whenever his name resided in her mind. In her memory. Beast Boy. She smiled at the thought and bowed her head. She could almost imagine how dumb she looked.

I have to be bipolar or something. Just a few minutes ago I didn't like him… Like I him now. She frowned at her wording, puzzled.

Terra spied a mountainside out of the corner of her eye. A rock jutted out of it, causing a cave to form on the inside. She thought nothing of it, until a figure appeared in the broad daylight, and stared back at her.

Slade.

He did nothing; something she wasn't expecting. He stood, staring at her, acknowledging her. He raised his hand toward her, and closed his eyes. A chill ran up her spine. Suddenly, his voice echoed in her mind.

Come to me, Terra. Don't try running away this time. Wherever you go, I'll be right there with you.

Terra stayed, frozen in her spot. Her mouth hung open slightly. How did he do that?

She jumped off the windowsill, slamming her window shut. The chills still resided, and the headache was worsening.

Don't hide from me, Terra.

Terra screamed, her hands on her head. "GET OUT OF MY MIND! GET OUT! GET OUT!"

Beast Boy burst into her room, looking around wildly. He felt his heart rate nearly triple at the thought of Terra being in trouble. But when he glanced around, there was no one to be found.

Terra was on her knees, slouched over. Her fingers locked on her head, her nails digging into her skin. She shut her eyes tight, so tight it hurt. She was alone… Slade had to be gone… He had to…

"TERRA!"

She snapped awake, looking around her surroundings. She was on her bed, in Beast Boy's arms.

"Terra, what happened? Is everything all right? Who was here?" Beast Boy asked frantically. "Who hurt you? I'll kill them."

Terra felt a strange security being in his arms. She leaned in to his embrace and muttered, "No one. I thought I heard someone talking to me, but no one was there."

"Are you sure no one was around?" She nodded. "Well… maybe it was a bad dream."

"Hopefully," She used the same tired tone. Terra pulled away from him, and pushed a strand of hair of her face. "Thanks for caring, Beast Boy."

Beast Boy blushed. "N-No problem." He then stood up and headed for her door. Just before he left, he told her, "If you need anything at all, I'll be there for you."

Terra waved after him, feeling herself start to swoon. Amazing how so much can change in a day.