Lost Memories

"…And now she's gone again?" Bumblebee raised her eyebrow, unsure of what she just heard. "Why not just put a leash on the girl?"

"Bee, this isn't something to joke about." Cyborg furrowed his brow. "She's been gone for a month. I think Beast Boy's given up all hope; he hasn't left his room in weeks."

Bumblebee frowned sympathetically. "I'm sorry… I didn't know she was gone for that long. And you've searched everywhere?"

Cyborg nodded. "Robin's been up every night till nearly two A.M. looking from the computer. He's found nothing. Slade is gone, and he's taken Terra with him."

She didn't know how to react to this. She had never known Terra, but she knew that she meant a lot to the team. Terra was almost like their experiment – what would she do in a crisis? Who would she go to for help? As cruel as it may sound, that's how they presented her. And like any experiment, they wanted the result to come out in their favor.

Their favor being the regain of her trust.

"Okay Sparky, so what do you want me to do about this?" Bumblebee asked, breaking Cyborg out of his trance.

"When can you get your team out here?"

"Well, not all of us can leave. However, I can scoot Aqualad out here with me."

"When?"

"Anytime you need."

Cyborg smiled, relieved, "How about right now?"

Beast Boy sighed for what felt like the millionth time that day. He felt heavy, like he had packed on the pounds, rather than lost them. Using all his strength, he sat up in his bed, and glanced toward the window. The shades were drawn, leaving his room dark.

The team hadn't give up looking for Terra. They were all still determined to find her. Sure, he was too, but there was something nagging him… Something he couldn't ignore. The night in the house of mirrors continued to haunt him.

What would have happened if he had trusted her? Let her come back home with him? Fought harder to make sure Slade didn't take her away?

Someone knocked on the door, breaking his train of thought. "Come in," he croaked. Beast Boy made a mental note to at least drink some water.

The door slid open, revealing Bumblebee. "Hey there. When's the last time you saw the light of day?"

Beast Boy smirked. "Nice seeing you too."

"Seriously, what's going on?"

His expression fell. "Nothing."

"How come you're not helping the others look for Terra?"

He suddenly became defensive. "I'm looking."

"From your room? I've heard you haven't gone anywhere in weeks."

"Yeah, well…" Beast Boy hesitated in answering. He had hardly talked to Bumblebee before. And now, he would be telling her something that was so fragile to him. Was it safe?

"I don't bite, BB." Bumblebee smirked at her own joke. "And I'm not leaving until I hear what's going on with you."

For one year, the titans had left him to mourn, doing almost nothing about his "condition". For one year, they let him do whatever, eat whatever. For one year, it almost seemed like the titans were avoiding him and didn't even care.

But here was a not-so known titan, one of whom he'd barely conversed with. Did she come to talk to him on her own? Or did the others send her? It didn't matter to him – at least someone was aggressive enough to try.

"I just think that… this whole mess is my fault. Terra wouldn't be in this situation if it weren't for me. So I figure if I stay out of it, nothing bad will happen. The other titans know what they're doing more than I do."

Bumblebee narrowed her eyes. "BB, that's not true. You know Terra the best, you know what's been going on in her mind; the others don't. If you back out of this mission, it's like you're backing out from her. I mean, if they rescue Terra and you're not there, what is she going to think?"

Beast Boy remained silent. He felt the familiar sting of oncoming tears begin to rise.

"She'll think that you don't care about. And to that girl," she turned on her heel toward the door, "that'd be devastating. Now, if you are done, we got your girlfriend to find."

Beast Boy stared as Bumblebee disappeared from his glance. She was right. Terra would think that she hated him. Or does she already? Who knows what Slade's been telling her?

But he didn't want to take that risk. He didn't want to see her end up hurt again, or even worse, in stone again.

After a few more moments, Beast Boy stood up and exited his room, suddenly more determined than ever.

Terra stumbled over what seemed like the millionth rock/stump that day. She had wandering around in the woods for hours, trying to find some form of human civilization. She had found nothing.

She stopped, collapsing on top of a convenient stone. She sighed, pulled her shoe off, and began to fish for loose rocks. All the while, she began to wonder what Slade was doing.

No, forget about him. He's not your friend. He betrayed you. He… hurt you.

She closed her eyes and cringed, remembering their short time together. According to Slade, it has been half a year since her accident. Half a year since she made the biggest mistake of her life. But it didn't feel like an accident, or a mistake.

Terra placed her shoe back on, and then stood back up. She began to regain her pace again, trying to put those memories behind her, no matter how much they nagged at her. Perhaps if she sped up, she could run from her memories. After all, there was no harm in trying.