I'm going to be working on this story a little more until I finish it I
think. I've never seen any stories where Yusuke was the one who was
getting rejected so I thought I would make this a little different.
This is why Keiko was acting that way if you were wondering! This chapter is...good I think. I got a lot of different opinions. Some people said it wasn't angsty. One person did. I thought it was sad. Maybe because I wrote it but......whatever. Lots of crying.
Disclaimer: If there's a word saying 'disclaimer' should that mean I'm Dis- claiming? Starts in Keiko's POV
Falling Apart Chapter 2 ~ Reflection
How could I have done that to him? I feel like screaming at myself. How could I have rejected him like that? Oh, I didn't want to reject him. I wanted to take him in my arms and tell him how I love him too. And then kiss him. But, I had to keep my promise to my parents. They wanted me to not get in any relationship until college is over. I couldn't sneak behind them.
I feel terrible. At least I know that Yusuke felt the same way about me that I do about him. Does he still love me? I wanted him to hold my hand. I wanted to make sure he was okay. But he refused. I love him so.
Tears drip down my cheeks at the thought of saying, "I thought we were only friends."
I don't know how I got that out. I was choking when he said that he loved me. And somehow I managed to say those horrible, sickening words.
I shiver.
I should be doing my homework. But I can't. I can't concentrate. All I can think about is Yusuke. Yusuke. Poor Yusuke. What will he think? I have to tell him why I told him that we were just friends. I have to. Before my life ends, I will tell him no matter what.
I hope he's not too sad.
Dear lord, I'll kill myself if he becomes depressed.
I clutch one of the teddy bears that Yusuke gave to me when we went to the fair together. It was a fuzzy brown bear with a cute little smile and big, shiny eyes. It reminded me of Yusuke. How I wanted to hug Yusuke the way I was hugging this bear. I don't care about anything at the moment except for not hurting Yusuke.
I get up and walk around my room, trying to decide what to do to try not to think of him. I sit down at my desk and start working on history. Wet splotches fall onto my paper. It blurs the ink.
I try to wipe away my tears but ten more replace the one I wiped away. My parents aren't home. Not that I need their help anyway.
I scream in a silent way that makes my voice hoarse. I scream until my stomach hurts. My head is spinning in circles. I put my head on my arms and fall asleep.
~ Morning ~ I wake up. It's 7:30. I guess I should get to school. I really don't feel like going though. I didn't do any of my homework. I'll make up a stupid excuse then. I'll say I had a fever and couldn't concentrate.
Yusuke. He'll go. I have a feeling that he'll go to school today. I have to tell him.
I slip into my uniform and try to flatten my hair but I don't bother to brush it. My eyes are puffy and red. Just great. Now everyone is going to ask what happened. Oh well. I don't care anymore.
I run out of the house. My parents are still not home. Why would I want them home? They were the ones who started this mess. But I can't blame them. They didn't know I loved Yusuke.
I jog to school. One tear falls down my face at the thought of seeing Yusuke. But I quickly wipe it away.
"Hey Keiko. What's wrong?" One of my friends ask.
"Oh nothing. Just allergies." My voice was on the verge of breaking.
"Oh okay. Can you believe that the great Urameshi actually came to school today?" Her friend whispered to her.
"He's not that bad of a person you know." I was almost about to explode and start yelling at her for saying that but I kept it in.
"That's what you think Keiko."
I roll my eyes and she tells me that she will see me later.
Yusuke.
I see his face. Everything seemed to be getting blurry except for him. He seemed to stand out.
He looks at me sadly. I can tell that he tried to smile but nothing came out of his sad face.
I start to walk towards him and he turns away quickly. I start running. I grab his arm.
"Yusuke wait! I have to tell you the real reason for rejecting you!!!" I whisper hoarsely.
"I know already," he says in a steady tone, "we're only friends."
He pulls his arm away from me and I watch him disappear into the crowd of students.
I fall to my knees and bury my head in my hands. Several of my friends gather around me and ask if I'm okay. I don't answer. I just stare straight ahead at where Yusuke disappeared.
One of my friends shakes me. I stare at her blankly.
She gasps, "I think Keiko just passed out."
I am silent. I don't care about the world anymore. I don't care about my grades. I don't care about my friends at the moment. I don't care about my parents.
A teacher comes and pulls me to my feet. I just stare blankly. I despise myself. Why me?
The teacher walks me to the nurse's office. The nurse waves a hand in front of my face. I don't even blink. I close my eyes and float away, drifting off into the nightmare world.
~ Yusuke's POV ~
The real reason. What is that I wonder? I know she thinks I'm just a friend like her other friends. Is that the reason? I'm confused.
Confusion.
I walk up the stairs heading to my favorite spot on the roof but a hand yanks my ear. I look at Mr. Takenaka.
"Don't you dare skip class again mister!"
I look at him with blank eyes. He's almost seems to flinch back. I don't think he's ever seen me not argue. I turn to walk down the stairs and go to my next class. Chemistry. I can feel the old man's eyes staring after me.
I walk into class. Kuwabara stares at my expressionless face. He knows something is wrong. I know he knows. I sit and stare at the teacher.
The teacher starts writing on the board and telling us that we should write this down. She turns around and stares at me.
"That means you too Mr. Urameshi." She started preparing for an argument. But I just take out my notebook and a pen and write. She stares at me amazingly and smiles. I don't smile back. I just stare. I've become an anti-socialist. I've hurt Keiko. Why?
The teacher turns around and checks if everyone is in the class.
"Where is Ms. Megumi?" she asks.
One of the girls speaks up, "Keiko fainted and Yuki went to help her."
WHAT? SHE PASSED OUT? WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME!!!?
I ran out of the room at blinding speed. I push everyone out of my way. I can hear my teacher calling my name as I run across the hall towards the nurse's office.
Keiko.
Dear Kei, I love you so much.
~ Keiko's POV ~
I wake up. There is a face staring into the window.
Yusuke.
He is there. Sorrow and worry covering every inch of his handsome face. He was worried for me. I feel even worse. How could I have done that?
My parents' faces float before me. I hear their voices. "If you get in any serious relationship before college we are not going to help you through your life."
Shoot.
Yusuke.
Or.
Parents.
I love them both so much.
Would Yusuke understand if I told about what my parents? What if he thinks that I would choose them over him? I go to the nurse.
"I think I'm okay now. Thank you for your care." I smile weakly.
"Are you sure you're okay Ms. Yukimura?" She grins at me and then at the face at the window.
"Yes." I keep my tears from falling. What could we have been if it weren't for my parents?
I run out the door and stare at Yusuke.
"Shouldn't you be in class?" I try to smile at him but all that appears is a tear.
His eyes brim with tears.
"Kei, I'm sorry," his tears fell to the floor. This is the first time I've ever seen him cry. My soul ripped apart right at that moment. But I was shocked too. Why was he apologizing? I should be the one apologizing.
"Why?"
He looks at me with his chocolate brown eyes. Those eyes that were filled with sorrow and confusion. 'I hurt you."
I smile. "Yusuke I'm sad because I hurt you."
"That's how I hurt you." Yusuke's tears multiplied.
"Yusuke my parents were.........." I pause. How would he take this? What if he really thinks that I would choose my parents over him? I silence myself. I shouldn't tell him this.
"Your parents what?" Yusuke grabs my shoulders and looks into my wet eyes, tears still falling from both of our faces.
"Nothing never mind. You're such a good friend Yusuke." I hug him but he flinches.
~ Yusuke's POV ~
That's it.
"You're such a good friend Yusuke." Keiko says.
That's it.
Nothing else.
Nothing.
She doesn't love me. I'm just comfort. She probably had a fight with her parents and was so sad that she fainted. It had nothing to do with me. I was just there to pat her on the back. And I was here thinking that she was sad because of me. She isn't.
"Okay Kei. I hope you feel better." I manage to say. I walk away. I know she's staring at my back.
Goodbye.
I walk out of the school. Walking. Going wherever my feet take me. I don't care. No one cares about me. The gangster. The punk.
Keiko.
She never thought of me as a punk.
Maybe that's why I loved her.
~ End of Reflection ~
This is why Keiko was acting that way if you were wondering! This chapter is...good I think. I got a lot of different opinions. Some people said it wasn't angsty. One person did. I thought it was sad. Maybe because I wrote it but......whatever. Lots of crying.
Disclaimer: If there's a word saying 'disclaimer' should that mean I'm Dis- claiming? Starts in Keiko's POV
Falling Apart Chapter 2 ~ Reflection
How could I have done that to him? I feel like screaming at myself. How could I have rejected him like that? Oh, I didn't want to reject him. I wanted to take him in my arms and tell him how I love him too. And then kiss him. But, I had to keep my promise to my parents. They wanted me to not get in any relationship until college is over. I couldn't sneak behind them.
I feel terrible. At least I know that Yusuke felt the same way about me that I do about him. Does he still love me? I wanted him to hold my hand. I wanted to make sure he was okay. But he refused. I love him so.
Tears drip down my cheeks at the thought of saying, "I thought we were only friends."
I don't know how I got that out. I was choking when he said that he loved me. And somehow I managed to say those horrible, sickening words.
I shiver.
I should be doing my homework. But I can't. I can't concentrate. All I can think about is Yusuke. Yusuke. Poor Yusuke. What will he think? I have to tell him why I told him that we were just friends. I have to. Before my life ends, I will tell him no matter what.
I hope he's not too sad.
Dear lord, I'll kill myself if he becomes depressed.
I clutch one of the teddy bears that Yusuke gave to me when we went to the fair together. It was a fuzzy brown bear with a cute little smile and big, shiny eyes. It reminded me of Yusuke. How I wanted to hug Yusuke the way I was hugging this bear. I don't care about anything at the moment except for not hurting Yusuke.
I get up and walk around my room, trying to decide what to do to try not to think of him. I sit down at my desk and start working on history. Wet splotches fall onto my paper. It blurs the ink.
I try to wipe away my tears but ten more replace the one I wiped away. My parents aren't home. Not that I need their help anyway.
I scream in a silent way that makes my voice hoarse. I scream until my stomach hurts. My head is spinning in circles. I put my head on my arms and fall asleep.
~ Morning ~ I wake up. It's 7:30. I guess I should get to school. I really don't feel like going though. I didn't do any of my homework. I'll make up a stupid excuse then. I'll say I had a fever and couldn't concentrate.
Yusuke. He'll go. I have a feeling that he'll go to school today. I have to tell him.
I slip into my uniform and try to flatten my hair but I don't bother to brush it. My eyes are puffy and red. Just great. Now everyone is going to ask what happened. Oh well. I don't care anymore.
I run out of the house. My parents are still not home. Why would I want them home? They were the ones who started this mess. But I can't blame them. They didn't know I loved Yusuke.
I jog to school. One tear falls down my face at the thought of seeing Yusuke. But I quickly wipe it away.
"Hey Keiko. What's wrong?" One of my friends ask.
"Oh nothing. Just allergies." My voice was on the verge of breaking.
"Oh okay. Can you believe that the great Urameshi actually came to school today?" Her friend whispered to her.
"He's not that bad of a person you know." I was almost about to explode and start yelling at her for saying that but I kept it in.
"That's what you think Keiko."
I roll my eyes and she tells me that she will see me later.
Yusuke.
I see his face. Everything seemed to be getting blurry except for him. He seemed to stand out.
He looks at me sadly. I can tell that he tried to smile but nothing came out of his sad face.
I start to walk towards him and he turns away quickly. I start running. I grab his arm.
"Yusuke wait! I have to tell you the real reason for rejecting you!!!" I whisper hoarsely.
"I know already," he says in a steady tone, "we're only friends."
He pulls his arm away from me and I watch him disappear into the crowd of students.
I fall to my knees and bury my head in my hands. Several of my friends gather around me and ask if I'm okay. I don't answer. I just stare straight ahead at where Yusuke disappeared.
One of my friends shakes me. I stare at her blankly.
She gasps, "I think Keiko just passed out."
I am silent. I don't care about the world anymore. I don't care about my grades. I don't care about my friends at the moment. I don't care about my parents.
A teacher comes and pulls me to my feet. I just stare blankly. I despise myself. Why me?
The teacher walks me to the nurse's office. The nurse waves a hand in front of my face. I don't even blink. I close my eyes and float away, drifting off into the nightmare world.
~ Yusuke's POV ~
The real reason. What is that I wonder? I know she thinks I'm just a friend like her other friends. Is that the reason? I'm confused.
Confusion.
I walk up the stairs heading to my favorite spot on the roof but a hand yanks my ear. I look at Mr. Takenaka.
"Don't you dare skip class again mister!"
I look at him with blank eyes. He's almost seems to flinch back. I don't think he's ever seen me not argue. I turn to walk down the stairs and go to my next class. Chemistry. I can feel the old man's eyes staring after me.
I walk into class. Kuwabara stares at my expressionless face. He knows something is wrong. I know he knows. I sit and stare at the teacher.
The teacher starts writing on the board and telling us that we should write this down. She turns around and stares at me.
"That means you too Mr. Urameshi." She started preparing for an argument. But I just take out my notebook and a pen and write. She stares at me amazingly and smiles. I don't smile back. I just stare. I've become an anti-socialist. I've hurt Keiko. Why?
The teacher turns around and checks if everyone is in the class.
"Where is Ms. Megumi?" she asks.
One of the girls speaks up, "Keiko fainted and Yuki went to help her."
WHAT? SHE PASSED OUT? WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME!!!?
I ran out of the room at blinding speed. I push everyone out of my way. I can hear my teacher calling my name as I run across the hall towards the nurse's office.
Keiko.
Dear Kei, I love you so much.
~ Keiko's POV ~
I wake up. There is a face staring into the window.
Yusuke.
He is there. Sorrow and worry covering every inch of his handsome face. He was worried for me. I feel even worse. How could I have done that?
My parents' faces float before me. I hear their voices. "If you get in any serious relationship before college we are not going to help you through your life."
Shoot.
Yusuke.
Or.
Parents.
I love them both so much.
Would Yusuke understand if I told about what my parents? What if he thinks that I would choose them over him? I go to the nurse.
"I think I'm okay now. Thank you for your care." I smile weakly.
"Are you sure you're okay Ms. Yukimura?" She grins at me and then at the face at the window.
"Yes." I keep my tears from falling. What could we have been if it weren't for my parents?
I run out the door and stare at Yusuke.
"Shouldn't you be in class?" I try to smile at him but all that appears is a tear.
His eyes brim with tears.
"Kei, I'm sorry," his tears fell to the floor. This is the first time I've ever seen him cry. My soul ripped apart right at that moment. But I was shocked too. Why was he apologizing? I should be the one apologizing.
"Why?"
He looks at me with his chocolate brown eyes. Those eyes that were filled with sorrow and confusion. 'I hurt you."
I smile. "Yusuke I'm sad because I hurt you."
"That's how I hurt you." Yusuke's tears multiplied.
"Yusuke my parents were.........." I pause. How would he take this? What if he really thinks that I would choose my parents over him? I silence myself. I shouldn't tell him this.
"Your parents what?" Yusuke grabs my shoulders and looks into my wet eyes, tears still falling from both of our faces.
"Nothing never mind. You're such a good friend Yusuke." I hug him but he flinches.
~ Yusuke's POV ~
That's it.
"You're such a good friend Yusuke." Keiko says.
That's it.
Nothing else.
Nothing.
She doesn't love me. I'm just comfort. She probably had a fight with her parents and was so sad that she fainted. It had nothing to do with me. I was just there to pat her on the back. And I was here thinking that she was sad because of me. She isn't.
"Okay Kei. I hope you feel better." I manage to say. I walk away. I know she's staring at my back.
Goodbye.
I walk out of the school. Walking. Going wherever my feet take me. I don't care. No one cares about me. The gangster. The punk.
Keiko.
She never thought of me as a punk.
Maybe that's why I loved her.
~ End of Reflection ~