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Okay y'all well I've been trying to keep up with school stuff so I'm pretty busy and I hope you don't mind. If you're wondering where I got all this angsty stuff from I recently broke up with my boyfriend and I was pretty sad. I guess I put some of that in here.
Falling Apart ~ Regret
I can't tell him. He'll never believe me. I know he won't. He'll think I'm using my parents as an excuse for not feeling the same way as him. I feel like an idiot. How could I have done that? I'm surprised I even had the guts to say that I thought we were only friends.
This position is starting to kill me. I am standing on my head to try to get my thoughts to my brain. Tears are flowing steadily and my head feels like it's about to explode with blood. I guess that little "exercise" to get my brain working didn't work.
Could I tell my parents? Could I tell them that I was in love with Yusuke? They would probably kick me out of the house. Maybe I could live with Yusuke.
That's the solution. There it is. When my parents come home I'll tell them. But when are they coming home? I can't wait forever. Yusuke might think the wrong things. I just have to have trust him.
Trust. What is trust? I regret being so obedient to my parents. It seems as if that I am too used to being obedient to them so it is imprinted into my mind. But they trust me. Regret.
And yet again what don't I regret? Regret. Betrayal. I had betrayed him. I have sent him into the chains of betrayal and depression. What has my mind done? My brain and my heart definitely were not agreeing with each other. It was ripping me in half.
Yusuke. Yusuke was the only thing that kept my head from twisting off. But now, I've lost him too. Why hasn't my head been decapitated? Maybe I still have hope. Just a hint of hope is clinging loosely onto my head. I'm seriously on the verge of insanity.
~Yusuke's POV~
I'm a fool. She just wanted to be free of me. I'm a monster and she just didn't want to look at me. I set her free.
I walk to the grocery store, feeling very numb. Looking around, I see many things that somehow seem very uninteresting. It seems that everything that used to be interesting to me is not anymore. Everything, everyone has lost its tint of life.
I'm tired. Very tired. Maybe all this sadness has made me exhausted.
So sleepy. I just want to sleep.
My vision fades as my body collapses and curls into a bent shape. Darkness.
~Keiko's POV~
I shouldn't think of him. It will only make me sadder to know that he's hurt. I turn on the TV. The Daily News was on.
"A boy in the grocery store has blacked out for a reason that the doctors have not announced. If anyone knows this boy please come to the Hospital to identify him."
The TV screen showed the boy on a hospital bed, sleeping. I scream for dear life.
"YUSUKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I jump up off the couch and run as fast as I possibly could. People moved out of my way as I ran past. The people I did knock over shouted at me as I ran faster and faster.
I burst into the hospital and tried to run but some nurses held me back. I screamed at the top of my lungs.
"YUSUKE!!!!!!!!!!"
Why? Why is this happening? My words came out scrambled and unclear.
"Yusuke.....boy is here......please no." I stretched out my hand in an attempt to escape the nurses.
"Ma'am, we need you to calm down." The nurse put a reassuring hand on my back. I tried to breathe but my hoarse throat did not let me do that.
"Ma'am do you know the boy shown on the daily news," the other nurse asked.
I managed to nod. The two nurses walk me to his room. I stare at the ground in horror.
We come to a white door with a small window. I can see his legs through the window. The nurses opened the door for me and walked in.
"He is in a coma. We are very sorry ma'am."
A coma? Oh good spirits why did you have to curse me like this? Screaming over and over again in my mind, I manage to shuffle my feet towards his bed. I finally saw his face. He was sleeping peacefully, like an angel.
"Ma'am do you know this boy's name?"
"Yes I do," I replied to the brown haired nurse in a very shaky voice.
"May I ask what it is ma'am?"
"Please call me Keiko. His name is Yusuke Urameshi...." I broke out in tears and in full racking sobs. The only one that I loved more than anyone in the world is in a coma. And it's all because of that stupid promise to my parents. I should have told him. I should have refused to promise my parents. Why didn't I tell him?
The nurses seem to have realized how much he means to me. They looked at me sorrowfully and sat me down on a chair. Tears streamed down. Cold tears. They made the cold floor wet. They asked me if I wanted to be closer to him. I didn't respond. The only person I see is Yusuke. Everything else is blurred. Why is this happening to him? He never deserved this. He fought for everyone in the world almost everyday. He risks his life every time he fights. And what does he get? A coma because of me. It's all my fault. I should have told him I loved him. And now I can't.
Regret.
The nurses had left quite along time ago. It was only he and I in the room. I had to try to tell him. I went to the side of his bed and held his freezing, white hand. I kissed his forehead.
"Yusuke, I love you. I always have. I'm not making this up just so you wake up. It was all a stupid promise to my parents," I took a deep breath. "I told them that I would never get in any serious relationships until after college, so it wouldn't disturb my schoolwork. I should have told you but I was afraid that you might not understand. I realize that I should have told you this a long time ago. I was just so foolish. I'm sorry Yusuke. I don't think even the words 'I love you' express the feelings I have for you. They're not enough. I love you. I love you more than anything or anyone in the world. You are my world. You are my everything. I'm fighting for you, Yusuke Urameshi."
I buried my face in his blankets while I sobbed.
"Kei?" I heard a familiar voice. I must be going insane. That voice is impossibly real though. I still sob into the white blankets.
I felt a hand on my back. If it's a nurse then I don't want to talk to her. But, what if it isn't a nurse? Then who could it be? I look up and I see familiar chocolate brown eyes looking into my eyes. Yusuke.
"Yusuke!!" I scream and jump into his arms.
"I didn't know you loved me Keiko. I would've understood." He pulled me closer to him.
"I'm sorry Yusuke. So sorry." I was crying because of my joy. Tears were steadily flowing down. I looked up at his face.
He looked down at me and kissed me. I kissed him back. I wish I could've done this a long time ago.
Yusuke pulled back and looked at me with a serious face. "Kei, what will your parents say?"
I thought a moment. "We will talk to them when they come back." I hoped my parents would except it, even though I promised them.
"Okay Kei." Yusuke hugged me.
This is the way it should've been. This is the way I was looking for. This is the road. It feels like it fits perfectly along the path of life as a major interstate or something.
~Yusuke's POV~
It was strange waking up.
I was dreaming about Keiko leaving me forever. She had thrown me in a black, endless pit, never wanting to see me again. I was crying, but no sound could be heard.
Then I heard a voice. I knew it was Keiko. I knew it was real this time. It wasn't a betrayer. I smiled in my dream, in the timeless pit.
"I love you Yusuke. Promise..parents.....college...love......no one or thing more......I love you Yusuke Urameshi." I reached out for her when I heard her voice say those things. It seems as if life was restored. All my hope flooded back. I felt a hand grasp mine and pull me out of the dark void of no light. It was like someone pulling me through water. And when I emerged I came up from my sleep.
I saw Keiko, crying. I knew what she had said was really her saying that. I patted her back and when she realized it was me she cried tears of joy. I held her to me. This was the best day of my life. I love her and now I know that she didn't want to be free of me. She loves me back.
There's only one problem in this brilliant day.
Her parents.
~End of Regret~
This chapter took me a while, though it's a bit short. I had to think of what was going to happen. I know people don't come out of comas that quickly but I felt that he had to wake up. I'll try to update my other stories soon. I think this chapter was really choppy. Sorry.
EVERYONE HAVE SOME HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!! (it's Christmas eve)
Okay y'all well I've been trying to keep up with school stuff so I'm pretty busy and I hope you don't mind. If you're wondering where I got all this angsty stuff from I recently broke up with my boyfriend and I was pretty sad. I guess I put some of that in here.
Falling Apart ~ Regret
I can't tell him. He'll never believe me. I know he won't. He'll think I'm using my parents as an excuse for not feeling the same way as him. I feel like an idiot. How could I have done that? I'm surprised I even had the guts to say that I thought we were only friends.
This position is starting to kill me. I am standing on my head to try to get my thoughts to my brain. Tears are flowing steadily and my head feels like it's about to explode with blood. I guess that little "exercise" to get my brain working didn't work.
Could I tell my parents? Could I tell them that I was in love with Yusuke? They would probably kick me out of the house. Maybe I could live with Yusuke.
That's the solution. There it is. When my parents come home I'll tell them. But when are they coming home? I can't wait forever. Yusuke might think the wrong things. I just have to have trust him.
Trust. What is trust? I regret being so obedient to my parents. It seems as if that I am too used to being obedient to them so it is imprinted into my mind. But they trust me. Regret.
And yet again what don't I regret? Regret. Betrayal. I had betrayed him. I have sent him into the chains of betrayal and depression. What has my mind done? My brain and my heart definitely were not agreeing with each other. It was ripping me in half.
Yusuke. Yusuke was the only thing that kept my head from twisting off. But now, I've lost him too. Why hasn't my head been decapitated? Maybe I still have hope. Just a hint of hope is clinging loosely onto my head. I'm seriously on the verge of insanity.
~Yusuke's POV~
I'm a fool. She just wanted to be free of me. I'm a monster and she just didn't want to look at me. I set her free.
I walk to the grocery store, feeling very numb. Looking around, I see many things that somehow seem very uninteresting. It seems that everything that used to be interesting to me is not anymore. Everything, everyone has lost its tint of life.
I'm tired. Very tired. Maybe all this sadness has made me exhausted.
So sleepy. I just want to sleep.
My vision fades as my body collapses and curls into a bent shape. Darkness.
~Keiko's POV~
I shouldn't think of him. It will only make me sadder to know that he's hurt. I turn on the TV. The Daily News was on.
"A boy in the grocery store has blacked out for a reason that the doctors have not announced. If anyone knows this boy please come to the Hospital to identify him."
The TV screen showed the boy on a hospital bed, sleeping. I scream for dear life.
"YUSUKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I jump up off the couch and run as fast as I possibly could. People moved out of my way as I ran past. The people I did knock over shouted at me as I ran faster and faster.
I burst into the hospital and tried to run but some nurses held me back. I screamed at the top of my lungs.
"YUSUKE!!!!!!!!!!"
Why? Why is this happening? My words came out scrambled and unclear.
"Yusuke.....boy is here......please no." I stretched out my hand in an attempt to escape the nurses.
"Ma'am, we need you to calm down." The nurse put a reassuring hand on my back. I tried to breathe but my hoarse throat did not let me do that.
"Ma'am do you know the boy shown on the daily news," the other nurse asked.
I managed to nod. The two nurses walk me to his room. I stare at the ground in horror.
We come to a white door with a small window. I can see his legs through the window. The nurses opened the door for me and walked in.
"He is in a coma. We are very sorry ma'am."
A coma? Oh good spirits why did you have to curse me like this? Screaming over and over again in my mind, I manage to shuffle my feet towards his bed. I finally saw his face. He was sleeping peacefully, like an angel.
"Ma'am do you know this boy's name?"
"Yes I do," I replied to the brown haired nurse in a very shaky voice.
"May I ask what it is ma'am?"
"Please call me Keiko. His name is Yusuke Urameshi...." I broke out in tears and in full racking sobs. The only one that I loved more than anyone in the world is in a coma. And it's all because of that stupid promise to my parents. I should have told him. I should have refused to promise my parents. Why didn't I tell him?
The nurses seem to have realized how much he means to me. They looked at me sorrowfully and sat me down on a chair. Tears streamed down. Cold tears. They made the cold floor wet. They asked me if I wanted to be closer to him. I didn't respond. The only person I see is Yusuke. Everything else is blurred. Why is this happening to him? He never deserved this. He fought for everyone in the world almost everyday. He risks his life every time he fights. And what does he get? A coma because of me. It's all my fault. I should have told him I loved him. And now I can't.
Regret.
The nurses had left quite along time ago. It was only he and I in the room. I had to try to tell him. I went to the side of his bed and held his freezing, white hand. I kissed his forehead.
"Yusuke, I love you. I always have. I'm not making this up just so you wake up. It was all a stupid promise to my parents," I took a deep breath. "I told them that I would never get in any serious relationships until after college, so it wouldn't disturb my schoolwork. I should have told you but I was afraid that you might not understand. I realize that I should have told you this a long time ago. I was just so foolish. I'm sorry Yusuke. I don't think even the words 'I love you' express the feelings I have for you. They're not enough. I love you. I love you more than anything or anyone in the world. You are my world. You are my everything. I'm fighting for you, Yusuke Urameshi."
I buried my face in his blankets while I sobbed.
"Kei?" I heard a familiar voice. I must be going insane. That voice is impossibly real though. I still sob into the white blankets.
I felt a hand on my back. If it's a nurse then I don't want to talk to her. But, what if it isn't a nurse? Then who could it be? I look up and I see familiar chocolate brown eyes looking into my eyes. Yusuke.
"Yusuke!!" I scream and jump into his arms.
"I didn't know you loved me Keiko. I would've understood." He pulled me closer to him.
"I'm sorry Yusuke. So sorry." I was crying because of my joy. Tears were steadily flowing down. I looked up at his face.
He looked down at me and kissed me. I kissed him back. I wish I could've done this a long time ago.
Yusuke pulled back and looked at me with a serious face. "Kei, what will your parents say?"
I thought a moment. "We will talk to them when they come back." I hoped my parents would except it, even though I promised them.
"Okay Kei." Yusuke hugged me.
This is the way it should've been. This is the way I was looking for. This is the road. It feels like it fits perfectly along the path of life as a major interstate or something.
~Yusuke's POV~
It was strange waking up.
I was dreaming about Keiko leaving me forever. She had thrown me in a black, endless pit, never wanting to see me again. I was crying, but no sound could be heard.
Then I heard a voice. I knew it was Keiko. I knew it was real this time. It wasn't a betrayer. I smiled in my dream, in the timeless pit.
"I love you Yusuke. Promise..parents.....college...love......no one or thing more......I love you Yusuke Urameshi." I reached out for her when I heard her voice say those things. It seems as if life was restored. All my hope flooded back. I felt a hand grasp mine and pull me out of the dark void of no light. It was like someone pulling me through water. And when I emerged I came up from my sleep.
I saw Keiko, crying. I knew what she had said was really her saying that. I patted her back and when she realized it was me she cried tears of joy. I held her to me. This was the best day of my life. I love her and now I know that she didn't want to be free of me. She loves me back.
There's only one problem in this brilliant day.
Her parents.
~End of Regret~
This chapter took me a while, though it's a bit short. I had to think of what was going to happen. I know people don't come out of comas that quickly but I felt that he had to wake up. I'll try to update my other stories soon. I think this chapter was really choppy. Sorry.
EVERYONE HAVE SOME HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!! (it's Christmas eve)