Ch. 19 These Tired Eyes
"You don't think…I mean, she wasn't in that place this whole time was she?"
"I don't know Carly."' he didn't admit that the same question was eating at him, along with so many others. What if he'd gone looking for her from the beginning like Carly said? What if he hadn't cancelled lunch that day? What if he hadn't run into Robin? So many questions.
Carly saw he far off gaze in her friend's eyes and knew the whole situation had to be killing him. She turned to cast a look at her silent husband and was surprised to see he was no longer there.
"Where's Sonny?"
He stood outside the door, hesitant to go in, but swallowed hard and entered the pristine room. It was deathly silent but for the steady beeping of the heart monitor. It was annoying but calming at the same time. Because the noise meant it was healthy; it meant it was beating.
He sat down next to the bed. A bed that his little sister was sleeping in, ignorant to what was going on around her. He reached his hand to hers and let it hover in the air for a second, unsure what to do or how. He wasn't the best at this sort of thing. Slowly, he let his hand fall on hers and released a breath. It was like he expected her to break if touched.
"I don't know if you can hear me right now. I hear a lot about people talking to other people in comas and they're sure they can hear them and understand them. Yeah, I know you're not in a coma so it's not exactly the same thing, but they say you're in some sedated sleep. I swear we'll find out exactly what happened And when we find out who's responsible, they're going to beg for mercy."
He thought about how much she hated the violence that surrounded him, and would hate it even more if it was done in her name. But he would gladly put up with her griping and arguing as long as he made whoever hurt his family pay. Pay dearly.
"You probably wouldn't believe it," he began speaking to her again. "but I missed you. You know I didn't know about you for the longest time, but once I did…I knew you were something else. It was like you had this-this light that followed you. And when you were gone, it was gone. I missed it; everyone did. Now that you're back, you just need to let us know you're ok. Bring the light back into our lives." he looked at her still unconscious features and listened to the steady sound of the machine. "Please."
Not knowing if there was anything else to say, Sonny only hung his head. He didn't see the two people who stood at the door, overhearing his every word, nor did he see them turn back and leave him be.
In the hallway, the woman put her hand on Jason's shoulder.
"Everything's going to be fine."
He nodded and returned to the waiting area with her, though he'd rather be where Sonny sat, he understood. He wasn't the only one who'd lost her, let alone love her. She had a whole family that missed her and for now Jason would wait and give them their own time with her. Right now, it was her brother who wanted and needed to be there. Jason could wait. He was nothing if not patient.