Everyone stood silently in Laura's parents house, they had just attended her funeral.

Lily sat with Jess and Emma on Laura's bed, they were huddled together all crying over the loss of their friend. They had escaped upstairs to be alone, although being in her room only made them more sad.

There were many photos of them all when they were at Hogwarts, even one taken in their first year.

Jess had her head on Emma's shoulder as she cried, and she clutched a picture of her and Laura taken when they were a lot younger.

"I can't believe she's gone." Emma whispered as if scared to talk to loud.

"I don't understand why she did it." Lily said, "we could have helped her sort it all out, there was no need for her to… to." Lily didn't finish her sentence, it was too painful.

"I urm, this was, I found." Jess said croakily, she hadn't been using her voice much lately, all she seemed to do was cry. She pulled an envelope out of her pocket. "This was in Laura's room when I found her, I couldn't bring myself to open it."

Lily took it, it was addressed I I'm Sorry /I and it was defiantly Laura's handwriting.

"Shall I open it?" Lily asked.

The other two nodded and Lily slowly pulled it open, inside there was a piece of parchment.

"Shall I read it out loud?" Lily asked.

They nodded.

I Dear Everyone

First of all I would like to say I am sorry for any pain that I have caused anyone in doing this, but it was the only thing that I could do to put an end to it.

You may have noticed that I had the dark mark on my arm, but it's not what you think. I wasn't a death eater, but me saying that you probably wonder how I got it on my arm.

Well it all started when I got to Paris and Jess wasn't there, I got worried and I thought that something ay have happened to you, even thought a few seconds earlier I was standing right next to you. I called out your name and no one answered, then someone came up to me, a man, he was really good looking, he asked me if I was OK, I told him that I had lost my friend and he said he'd help me look.

Well after a while of looking I said that I was going to go catch the next port key back home as it was obvious you weren't here, but he stopped me, he said that he wanted to get to know me better, and against my better judgement I said I'd stay for a while just in case you turned up.

After that I don't really know what happened, I nest remember when I'm back here in England. I'm in Lily's kitchen and she'd making tea, I call out for help but she didn't hear me. I was under a spell, the imperius curse, the man I met in Paris was a Death Eater, he did it.

The next thing I remember doing is waking up and writing a note asking for help, I was going to send it with an owl but I couldn't fight the curse for long enough.

Then after that the curse was lifted, it must have been a day later, maybe less. I was so happy, but then I found it on my arm. The dark mark. I tried everything t get it off but I wouldn't go away, in the end I saw no way out, no one would believe that I wasn't a Death eater if I had the Dark Mark, I couldn't say that I was put under the Imperius curse no one would believe that. Then it came to me, the way out. I was so lonely and I felt no one would help me, this was what I should do, then I'd be a peace.

I wrote this note then I did it, I'm so sorry for hurting you, but there was no other way. I love you all very much and I know you're going to blame yourselves, you're going to think there was some way that you could help me but there wasn't. I'm happy now, I'm at peace, tell my parents that I love and will miss them.

Please don't be sad for me, don't cry too much, when you remember me I want you to be happy, not sad.

I will miss all of you, but I'll be watching from where ever I am.

Love always

Laura /I

Lily's voice finally broke when she read this bit, she dropped the tear stained letter and started to cry.

Emma squeezed her tightly, "Lily you know what she said, she doesn't want us crying, and plus it makes you look ugly." Emma joked feebly although she was crying her self.

Lily laughed a little.

"Let's ur, lets go down stairs." Jess said, "lets get out of this room."

They filed down the stairs into the hall, many people had left to go home, the boys were sitting in a huddle around the fired talking sombrely.

James got up as they entered the room, he went to Lily and hugged her, "are you alright?" He asked.

"I will be," Lily said and she hugged him tightly.

Sirius went over to Emma and kissed her on the cheek.

"We should go," Emma said in a quiet voice, "I want to get back to the twins."

"We don't have to go now, they'll be fine with your mum for a little bit longer." Sirius said wiping a tear from her cheek.

"I know, but I want to see them." Emma said, Sirius nodded.

"I'll get your coat." He said.

"Thank you for coming," Laura's dad said coming into the room. "Please feel free to drop by anytime." He said.

Jess went over to him and hugged him, normally this would be strange thing to do, but she felt it was right at that moment.

Lily and James were back at their house, it was late and James was getting into bed.

Lily came out of the bathroom slowly and into the room a look of shock on her face.

"What is it?" James asked concerned sitting up.

Lily walked in as if she was in a trance.

James got up and went over to her, "Lily, what is it?" He asked concern showing in every line of his face.

"I'm… we're… I was…." She stuttered, and a smile came over her face in spite of how sad she felt. "I'm pregnant."