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Lugga: Yay! I'm so glad you kept reading it! You'll find out why Davis is ignoring Ken later on in the story ., I hope you enjoy this chapter too! But I'll warn you now, it's much sadder than the last one! Here's your update!
Reaoki: Thanks for the review! Sorry it felt a bit rushed, but for the story to play out in had to be later on in the school year but I still wanted to write about the first day of school. And yet again, I'm really sorry about the Ichijouji spelling, I realized my spell check changed it after I posted it….I still feel really bad about it. And don't worry, Davis and Ken will get together in the end . eventually. I hope you like this chapter, it's definitely has some more angsty elements than the last one.
LoveSovereign: Yay! You keep reading! claps in delight. But unfortunately Ken doesn't know, but T.K. does! You'll find out more in this chapter…..or you'll kill me for the cliffhanger! Ohh the cliff hangers! Hope you like this chapter and keep reading!
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Disclaimer: Sorry I didn't put a disclaimer on the last chapter! I meant to! Anyway, I don't own Digimon, Digimon owns me.
Oh, and this text means Dream Sequence and this text is future thing that Ken feels, expect for Davis' email reply to Kari.
Walking in the Dark
Chapter Two: The Nightmare Begins
Ken sighed and pressed his fingers to the cool glass of his window watching the rain trickle down. He remembered one time a couple of years ago when him and Davis played soccer in the rain and got covered with mud. Ken's mother nearly had a heart attack when they came back and fussed over Davis until he went home. Ken smiled at the memory, and then winced in pain because thinking of Davis now gave him a sharp ache in his heart. He stumbled over to his bed and laid down, wishing with all of his heart that someday there'd be more memories that wouldn't bring pain.
Walking next to Davis in the mornings made Ken feel really awkward. Davis walked the way he usually did, his bag over one shoulder and his hand in his coat pocket; however, instead of the grin he always had there was an indifferent look that made him look like he didn't care about anything. It worried Ken, Davis told him for a fact he wasn't mad about the dumb project, they even got a eighty-seven percent on it which wasn't bad at all. Ken sighed and clutched his school case with both hands in front of him, he looked shyly over at Davis and asked, "So….how are you."
Davis grunted but said nothing.
"Did you have a good weekend?"
Davis looked at the ground and still said nothing.
A few minutes later, T.K. and Yolei caught up with them, Cody and Kari went in early to study for a math test. T.K. ran up next to Davis who immediately grinned, "Yo T.K. how's to going?"
"Good Davis, how's it going for you?"
"Just great!" Davis gave a huge grin and laughed, "And hey! We even got a B on our project so I'm not complaining!"
T.K. smiled broadly, "Yeah, but next time we'll have to work harder!"
"Totally!"
Yolei sighed, "Boys."
T.K. looked over at Ken and cocked his head to the side, "Hey Ken."
"Hey."
T.K. looked at him questioningly and was about to say something until Davis butted in,
"Hey T.K., did you get that new Star Wars video game?"
"I did," Ken responded quietly.
"No, not yet, have you?" T.K. answered.
"Naw, but I really want to play it."
Ken muttered, "Yeah, it's really cool, you can come over and play it with me Friday."
Davis heard Ken but still ignored him and keep talking, "I heard you get to play Darth Vader at the end, it looks so cool."
Yolei shot Davis a look, "You know Ken has the game Davis."
Davis looked at Yolei, "So Yolei, did you see that new horror movie…..uhhh it had something to do with a haunted house?"
Ken sighed and walked next to Yolei, far away from Davis, "I did, it was okay."
"Yolei? Aren't you going to answer my question?"
Yolei looked at the two confused, "Davis, why aren't you talking to Ken?"
Davis fell quiet for a few minutes and then said, "Man, it's a great day out today isn't it?"
"Yeah…oh hey look we're here, at the school," Yolei said quickly, she grabbed Ken's arm and dragged him inside, "Me and Ken are just going to put his clarinet in the band room haha."
After they were inside, far away from Davis and T.K., and Ken's wood clarinet stored in his locker, Yolei pulled him into a corner and looked down at him, "Okay, what's going on? Why isn't Davis talking to you?"
"I wish I knew Yolei," Ken then felt the first stab of pain in his chest, later in the month it was all he felt, "I wish I knew so I could fix in somehow."
Yolei bit her lip, "Man, I wish I could help you Ken, I'm sorry."
"So…..why did you drag me into a corner?"
"I wanted to tell you a secrete!"
"What is it?"
Yolei smiled and clapped her together once, "I'm going out with Willis!"
Ken gave a small grin and hugged her, "I'm so happy for you Yolei."
"Thanks, now let's go find Kari and Cody."
They found Kari and Cody with Davis and T.K. standing next to them, Cody sighed and closed his book, "Man, I really hate remembering all of these different formulas, it's so frustrating sometimes."
Davis leaned over his shoulder, "The way I remember Cody is that in Geometry they all intermingle with each other, so if remember one and halfway remember the rest, you can usually get them when you need them."
"Thanks Davis!"
"No problem, hey Yolei."
"Hi Davis!"
Davis went over and gave Yolei a big hug, "Willis just told me the good news before he went rushing off to the school library, I'm so happy for you two!"
"Oh thanks Davis! That's so sweet of you."
Ken sighed and sat down next to Kari. He gave her a small smile and asked quietly, "How was your weekend?"
"Good, yours?"
"Alright."
Kari giggled, "Man Ken, your hair is getting pretty long. Are you going to grow it out?"
"Most likely not…I haven't had any time to get it trimmed because I got that new Star Wars game on Friday."
"Ohhhhh no fair Ken! I love Star Wars!"
"Well….I asked Davis if he wanted to come over and play in on Friday but he ignored me, I bet my parents wouldn't mind if you and T.K. came over instead."
"We'd love to! I know T.K.'s been drooling over that game for two months! He tried to get in Saturday but they were all sold out!"
Ken nodded, "Thanks Kari, I'm sure it will be a lot of fun."
The bell rang and they all went to their separate classes. Ken felt the pain dull a bit when Davis wasn't around, but he was still sick with worry. If Davis had a problem with him then he would've told Ken, he should've told Ken. Even in band Davis would ignore him and then blast that trumpet freakishly loud in his ear. By lunch time, everyone noticed that Davis was purposefully ignoring Ken but didn't really make a big deal out of it. T.K. sat next to Ken and clapped a hand on his shoulder.
"Don't worry Ken, Davis did the same thing to me last year, but he got over it. You just got to wait, he does it to everyone sometimes. Man, I thought when you came back that he would stop doing it all together but I was wrong!"
"How long did it last to you?"
"Two weeks or so, don't worry about it Ken."
Ken narrowed his eyes at the table, "But T.K. I'm his best friend, he told me that he wouldn't mind if it was just me and him…..Davis wouldn't do this to me."
"I'm sorry Ken."
"I just wish I knew why at least."
Kari who was standing behind them whispered to Ken, "I'll try to find out for you alright?"
"Thanks Kari."
"Hey, what are friends for?"
The lunch bell rang and Davis bolted off to French class leaving T.K. and Ken behind when they always have walked together. T.K. and Ken walked slowly up the stairs taking their time. The blond haired basketball player thought for a moment, "You're right Ken, this is pretty weird. And since this morning, Davis has never treated me better."
Ken nodded and walked into the French room, "Bonjour Madame Eggleston."
The younger teacher paused from writing on the board and smiled, "Bonjour Ken!"
He took his usual seat behind Davis and stared at the back of his head. Ken could see the different lengths of Davis' hair and the black band from the goggles, he sighed and starting poking Davis shoulder, "Hey Davis, talk to me. Please?"
Davis tried to brush Ken's hand off and said nothing, Ken continued to poke him until Davis finally said in a very irritated voice, "What?"
"Why are you ignoring me Davis?"
"I'm not," Davis leaned forward to avoid the poking, "now shut up."
Ken sighed, the pain increased tenfold as he leaned back in his chair and stared at the back of Davis' head. The bell to begin class rang and Ken halfheartedly paid attention to Mme Eggleston explain the rubric of the French essays they were suppose to write. He started to feel sick, he felt numb and useless, Davis was the only person who knew Ken really well, Davis was his best friend for crying out loud! The bell rang and Davis yet again ditched him and T.K., Ken wanted to talk about it with T.K. but he could see the other boy was annoyed already with Ken worried sick and Davis acting like a two year old. The indigo haired teen forced a smile and walked off to Science, two weeks wasn't that long….was it?
The next day, Davis didn't even slow down or acknowledge Ken was calling for him to wait, he didn't say hi after Ken said good morning, he didn't even look at Ken. When T.K., Cody, Yolei and Kari finally met up with them, Ken walked next to Kari and asked her, "Kari, can you see me?"
"Yes Ken…."
"Can you hear me?"
"Yeah Ken….."
"Am I a ghost?"
"No Ken."
"Just making sure."
When they met Willis at the school he pulled Ken off to go to his locker with him, "So, how's the Davis thing?"
"Terrible Willis…"
"I know how it feels."
"You do?"
Willis kneeled down and put in the combination to his locker, "Yeah, some of my old friends did it to me back in Colorado, middle school was the worst. Except the friends I had had the decently to tell me what was wrong and we fixed it. I'm afraid Davis won't listen to anything now."
Ken stared at the floor and tried to tell his heart to stop feeling pain all the time. Willis pulled out a binder and a text book, "We've been talking to him Ken, asking him why he's not talking to you, he'll just be quiet for a few minutes and then change the subject. It's almost like he thinks you're dead or something."
"Yeah….I got that feeling too."
"One things been troubling me though, Davis has never acted so nice to any of us before now. I mean, he's a great guy but he always used to focus on you, now he focuses more on us. Personally, we hate it. He shouldn't be so mean to you for no reason."
That night, Ken sat numbly at his computer and emailed Davis. His eyes were blank as he typed and he felt numb, cold. It felt hard to breath, he titled the message "Please Read…", while he wrote it he didn't even blink, words flew by as tears started down his cheeks:
Hey Davis...
Please read this, I need to know Davis...why aren't you talking to me? What did I do wrong? Please, I need to know so I can fix it...I don't want to loose my best friend for a reason I don't even know. Every day now I'm becoming steadily more depressed, every day I sit wondering why my best friend won't talk to me? Is it because I'm annoying? Or is it because I'm boring and you don't want to talk to me? What is it? I wonder, if I were to die tomorrow, how would you react...would you cry, laugh? Sorry if I'm annoying you or anything but I really really need to know...please. I can't loose my best friend, I don't want to loose your friendship Davis...I don't want to feel like I'm in the Dark Ocean again...I don't want to cry myself to sleep anymore just tell me what I'm doing wrong please.
Just give me a call or something...or email back...please?
Ken
He then crawled of to his bed and looked at his clock, 10:30 PM. Ken sighed, slid under the sheets and closed his eyes. The house was quiet, his parents went to bed half an hour ago, all the lights were off and Ken took deep breaths. He felt numb everywhere expect the damn pain in his chest. He curled up into a little ball and fell into a terrible nightmare.
The sand felt rough and cold under his bare feet; the wind blew softly and caused his hair to fly in his face. Ken shuddered and looked out over the murky waters, he didn't want to be in this place, he never wanted to see it again. The sky was dark and cloudy, rain begin to softly trickle down and to Ken it seemed like a bad flashback.
"You honestly think you could change? You thought that I would trust you with something as precious as this! Don't touch in Ken, it doesn't belong to you, it's mine!"
Hot tears rolled down Ken's face and fell on the sand. The tide began coming in and the water licked Ken's feet. It was as cold as ice but Ken didn't flinch, he hung his head and walked into the water until it reached his knees. He could see himself, years ago, a little boy kneeling in the blacks waters with a digivice. That was the worst mistake of his life.
"I thought you were better than that Ken! You're so weak. I'm glad you failed, I knew you couldn't do anything right."
Ken's arms slowly raised up, then his hands, he slowly pressed them over his ears and trembled.
"I hate you Ken! I wish I was an only child. You are so WORTHLESS!"
Ken fell down to his knees and the water shot up to his chest. He shook with grief and fear, the indigo haired teen closed his eyes and muttered, "shut up Sam….I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it, Sam……come back, Sam I'm sorry."
"It's your fault! It's all your fault for ruining my life. You're too worthless to even breath the air around you. No one cares about you, you're so worthless. I hate you."
Ken clapped his hands tighter and screamed, "Shut up Sam, you're not real, you're dead."
His black went black as he fell under the waves of the Dark Ocean. Nothing mattered anymore, what was the point of it all anyway?
Davis was wrong, he didn't have the power to change. He was still worthless.
Bubbles floated by Ken, he heard a child's voice whispering, "Please let Sam be nice to me." "Please make everything alright." "Please help Same on his science test."
"Please, I want Sam to die."
Ken shot awake and breathed quickly, afraid that each breath was his last. His chest was filled with pain and it hurt to breath. He looked at the clock, it read 4:23 AM. Ken pressed a fist to his heart to calm the quick inconsistent beats and slowed his breathing down. He stood up and shakily walked over to his computer. Checking his email he found one message from Kari that she sent last night at 11 o'clock. It read:
Hey Ken!
I've been emailing Davis to see if he would tell me what's up, so I thought I'd send you part of the email I sent to him, and his response. Hope this helps!
My Message:
Okay, change of subject but please think about this seriously! About Ken... you really need to just talk to him. He's tried everything he could think of to make things better, and you just keep ignoring him, and it's really hurting his feelings. How could you not want to go over to his place and play the Star Wars video game you were "dying to play"? How would you feel if one of your best friends suddenly stopped talking to you and you didn't know why? Please just tell Ken what's going on!
His response:
Censor! Censor! Beep! Beep! Beep! Hello, we were never best friends to begin with! You know you aren't my only friends right? I still have existing friends that are my closest friends, like my soccer buddies. None of you are my best friends. I would never be hurt by such a thing. No one can convince me to talk to him, so just drop it okay?
Here's my reply:
Okay... so that's fine if we aren't your best friends, which is weird because we're your only real friends, and stuff, but Ken felt like you were at least his best friend. It's all up to you what you do about this thing I guess, but you're creating a lot of tension. I'm not even saying Ken has to be your best buddy, and that you guys have to be all chummy and stuff, but... please try to be a little more civil! At least acknowledge that he exists when he says hello or asks you a question! Please understand, I'm not trying to take sides, but I'm seeing how much this is hurting Ken, and that makes me hurt! Please think about this!
Then, in his last email, he said he's trying to "blot you out as much as possible" or something... So I asked him what exactly happened... I'll let you know if he tells me! I hope these help a little bit! If you wanna talk, you know my number and my email! Well, gotta run!
Hikari-chan
Ken sat and stared at the screen, never best friends? He felt the familiar twang of pain and scanned the message again to make sure he read it correctly. Never best friends? Whatever happen to the night when they played soccer and Davis told him he was fine with it just being the two of them? Whatever happen to the digi-egg of Friendship? Whatever happened to Davis' open hand after the battle with him when he was the Digimon Emperor? Ken stared blankly at the screen, his shoulders shook as more tears fell down. All he did was click the forward button and sent it to Willis, and then sent a quick message to Kari saying thank you.
He slowly got up and took a hot shower then got ready for school. Today T.K. and Kari would be coming over to play that game, so Ken had to act as normal as he could. He walked to school forty-five minutes early to avoid Davis and the others, when he arrived there he found a nice quiet corner in the library and sat there. All he did was stare at the table until Willis walked over twenty minutes later.
"I figured I'd find you here."
"Oh well, you caught me Willis."
"I read that message you sent me, I'm sorry Ken……I don't know what to do."
"It's alright….I'll figure out a way," Ken forced a smile, "at least I still have you guys right?"
Willis nodded but felt very worried, Ken was paler than normal and he looked too skinny, too small; the blond American wondered if Ken was eating and sleeping alright, he took at seat and sighed, "If you ever need someone to talk to….I'll be here."
"Thanks….now let's go find the others okay?"
Willis nodded, Ken was a very good actor when it came to be around more than one person. Willis knew that he could pull it off, looking like nothing bothered him. But Willis also knew his friend wasn't alright and it worried him. Ken smiled a warm gentle smile and Willis was half way fooled, he began wondering why on Earth would Davis not want to talk to this boy. They joined the others where Ken masked his pain, but they all knew he wasn't a-okay.
Ken leaned over the table and softly tried to converse with Davis, "Hey Davis."
Davis didn't look up, he continued doing his math homework and munching on a bagel.
Ken gave that gentle smile again, "did you see the new episode of Full Metal Alchemist?"
Davis turned the page and pulled out his calculator.
"It was really sad, but if you haven't seen it I guess I shouldn't give away the plot huh?"
Davis looked up and turned toward Yolei, "Hey Yolei, how do you do this problem?"
Ken let out a stream of air, stood up, and went to his first class. Davis smirked a little bit as Yolei explained the problem to him.
T.K. watched blankly as Ken left. After the boy stood up, he flashed a smile at T.K. and Kari that could make the sun come out of rain clouds. T.K. frowned slightly and wonder what was behind that smiling face? How could Ken deal with this hell Davis was putting him through? Why was Davis doing this to his best friend? T.K. came to a conclusion but didn't want to believe it, if that was Davis' reason, then this was the worst possible way to go about it, if T.K. could even consider it was an actual way to handle it.
(If you're like me, then you are probably wondering what happened to T.K., Kari, and the Star Wars game. I'll give you a spoiler, it's actually the beginning of the next chapter. For those of you who have not played Revenge of the Sith, I ask you, WHY ON EARTH HAVEN'T YOU PLAYED IT YET? Anyway……can you please review?)