The Right Thing

Disclaimer: All of this is based upon the lovely J.K. Rowling's work.

"…": dialogue

(…): Random Thoughts

I did a good thing, you know. The right thing.

I wept … I bled … I sacrificed …

I fought for the children. I protected the innocents (if anyone can actually be considered innocent).

I gave up my hopes, my dreams, my happiness … my life…

And they promised that they would be there forever … that they would always defend me, guide me … love me.

They lied.

I was replaced so easily … in their circle of friends … in their lives … in their hearts.

They promised me forever … and yet, less than a year later … they were gone.

And I was all alone…

…or maybe I have always been alone.

And I needed them so badly. I needed their guidance, their support, their knowledge, their laughter … I just needed them.

I never really had a mother before … not really. I don't hold it against my mum … she did die to save me. And then she came, the other mother. And she brought smiles … and later on hugs … and then kisses … and finally love (or maybe that came first)…

Now I can't even bear to speak her name… or any of their names. She is with her own children now … planning for the next generation of her family.

I never had siblings before … brothers and a sister. So much laughter and play fighting (well, and real fighting) … and, of course, pranking.

Now, when I need them most, they are gone. Some are with their spouses now. Some are with their brothers causing mayhem. The last is still in school, but she is busy now … too busy for me.

I never had friends before, real friends … ones that I haven't read in books or created in my mind. And my real friends … they were wonderful. He would sit with me constantly talking; usually in front of the fireplace … the light glittering on his head, making it look like it was on fire as well. She would also sit with me , though usually her head was stuck in a book. But that was fine, we didn't need to talk … the understanding was there and it was more than enough.

Now, they have left as well. But they are still together and I hear that bells might be ringing in their future.

I never had a father before. Then he came. Just a barking laugh and a pat on the back or a funny story of his school days, but it was all that I needed ... all that I wanted.

(When he died I thought that I had as well. Sometimes I wish that I had. Then I would never have experience what I am going through now)

But another came (well, he was there the entire time) and he made everything alright again. He was calm in the face of everything. He always understood what it was like. He was my protector, my friend.

Now, he is with another. Protecting her instead of me or instead of the three of us together. I hear that a trip (a quite literal one at that) to the church (or the Wizarding equivalent) is also in their future.

I never had a grandfather before. The ever-knowing, eternally wise, eye-twinkling kind. With a bemused smile and those little candies (well, and a great honking bird of fire). He was so powerful; he could do anything … anything at all. He could protect children … and rescue them from their hateful relatives … and use them as a weapon against a monster that he created in the first place.

Now, he is with his other "grandchildren" … attempting to ruin their lives as much as he ruined mine. But it is alright … it is all for the "greater good".

… I did what they wanted. What they had hoped for …prayed for …begged for …

And now they are all gone. They have left and they aren't coming back. They never will. Even though they could if they really wanted … but they don't. I have fulfilled my purpose. They all have their own lives to live now. They don't need me now.

I sweated fear … I cried blood … I have seen horrors that defy imagination ... I have looked in the face of evil ... and not bowed to it, not fallen to it ... I have defeated it ... and saved us all.

And it was all for nothing … absolutely nothing.

I did the correct thing … the honorable thing … the right thing …

And sometimes (alright, all of the time) …

I honestly wished that I hadn't.

ReginaLucifer, meowcat00, vila-pv: Thanks! This might eventually turn into a real fic. Currently, it is just a few drabbles from a story that has been bouncing around in my head. I just wanted to experiment with the format and the design.

Ever Hopeful,

T.S.T.