Young Suguru strolled around his new room alone. Running his fingers over his bed roll and dresser. "Sorry about the bed roll I didn't have the time to get you a Western style bed like mine." Suguru jumped at Tohma's voice and turned to face him a small smile on his face.

"That's fine Tohma-san I sleep on a bed roll at home." Tohma felt his heart wrench and sat down on the floor pulling his nephew down with his so that they would be on the same eye level. "Suguru, we'll get you a new bed at the end of the week, this is your home now and I want you to be comfortable. What ever you need don't hesitate to ask."

Tohma got up and left the room.

Smart Tohma how are you going to deal with this kid?

He's great he's my family and that means everything to me now.

It never use to.

A week or so later Suguru sat quietly on the floor of his room playing with his G.I. Joe doll (fine action figure 'cough' doll)

"Oi, Suguru, how would you like to go out for a ride?"

"Where?" Suguru asked his uncle not even bothering to look up.

"Someplace fun….but this is going to be a game so I can't tell you I have to blindfold you then I will give you clues on the way over."

"Fine"

Once in the car Suguru in the passenger side front seat pulling at the blindfold as the small sports car sped through downtown Tokyo.

"Are we going to someplace I've been before?"

Tohma shook his head. "Nope,"

"Will I get to buy soemthing there." His newest pass time has been draining his uncle's bank account. Tohma laughed. "Yes if you like. Here we are blindfold off." Suguru's eyes widened when he looked out of his window. "A music store?"

Tohma's smile widened. "Well I know that you have been listening to Nittle Grasper's instrumental cd. I thought that you may want to learn how to play piano, like me."

Suguru thought for a moment. "Like you? You think that I want to be like you! What on earth gives you that idea? I never want to be like you. To abandon his family when they need him the most. And yes I have heard what happened with you and Noriko-san. My mother's best friend."

"Suguru what th-"

"Leave me alone!" Suguru yelled storming out of the store, The sales clerk staring blankly at Tohma's shocked face.

"Um uh dude arent you going to go out and find him?"

Yeah Tohma-kun aren't you? I told you this boy was going to be trouble just like the last one but I was wrong this one is worst. Tohma shook the voice out of his head, and breezed out of the store in a full run. "Suguru!" he called running down the street. "Suguru damnit. Get your ass back here."

Suguru bolted up the street in tears. "I never want to be like him" he wailed running head first in to a tall body. "Ow"

"Watch where you are going. Hey….do I know you?" the stranger asked the shivering young boy. "I don't think so sir." "Yeah I do, your momma wanted me to find you." The stranger grined. "Really?" Suguru's eyes where filled with tears. The stranger smiled sweetly. "Yes. She wants me to take you to her" He reached out his hand for the young boy. "Come on she's expecting you."

"You know what sir. I don't think this boy knows you at all." A voice came from behind Suguru. "Oh really and who are you his daddy?" the stranger laughed. "No just a friend." Up until now Suguru was to scared to look behind him but when he felt a warm hand on his shoulder his round eyes peered up into the face of his 'savior' "S-Sakuma-san?" A big goofy smile dance upon Sakuma's face. "Yup! Let's take you home I'm sure Tohma-kun is worried sick."

See a month and you lost him……well at least you can say the he abandoned you unlike the last time. Damnit can you stop bringing him up? The only reason why you say that is because you know it's all your fault. No it isn't! Tohma fought mentally with his innerdemon. Running back into house and into the bathroom where he locked the door, pulled open the medicine cabinet and proceded to break apart his disposable razor until there was just a shiny piece metal left. Picking it up he bent it alittle bit under his fingers watching it as the light reflected off of it. Do it. Come on I dare ya! The voice nagged him over and over again until he couldn't take it anymore. He quickly moved the blade down in four liquid movements wincing at the pain that it brought him. Blinking as if he had no clue of what he had just done he dropped the razor into the trash and watched the blood slowly bubble and then stream down his arm. Atta boy. The voice congradulated him like it did every time he gave in.

"Tohma-kun? I've got something for you!" Ryuichi Sakuma waltzed into his bandmates house calling out in a sing-song fashion to alert his friend of his enterance. "You got five seconds to get the hookers out of the house or else you will have to share." Ryu giggled moving closer to Tohma's room holding onto Suguru's hand. "Ima coming in!" Pushing open the door Ryu was horrified at the sight before him. Blood, everywhere it wasn't in large amounts but it was smeared on the silk bed covers the walls the floor every place imaginable. "Tohma?" Ryu let go of Suguru's hand. "Suguru.go to the living room and stay there until I come get you." Suguru obeyed leaving Ryuichi to search the bedroom and attached bathroom. 'The bathroom' he thought of how dumb he had been not to think of checking the bathroom. "Tohma?" he rounded the corner preparing himself for the worst. "Tohma?" Images of a mangled Tohma in the tub was flashing before his eyes. "Tohma?" his voiced cracked opening up the door………but it was empty. No sign of him anywhere. A sigh of relief sounded throughout the room. 'But then where is he?' Eyes wandered around thelarge bedroom again. The closet was torn to shreds and the curtians hung askew on the open window…..open window. Ryu rushed to the window seeingthe blood that was smeared onto the framing. 'Shit' he thought. Climbing out of the window onto the first and lower part of the roof with no sign of Tohma. 'shit shit shit' Ryu repeated over and over when he looked up the the second and much higher part of the roof onto one of the gables. Tohma sat there legs dangling over the sides of the building slightly slumped over leaning on the satellite dish. 'Shit, I'm going to have to climb up there aren't I?' "Tohma!" he called trying to make the other man respond…nothing. "Tohma!" a little more urgent. "You are going to make me climb up there and get you aren't you?" still no answer unless you count what came next an answer. Tohma's head lulled over causing his entire body to shift towards the edge. 'Shit' Tohma's lifeless body arched forward falling hard onto the lower roof on the other side away from where Ryu was standing even if Ryu ran there was no way he could have stoped what happened next. The red headed keyboardist's body silently slide down the metal roof onto the ground 10 feet below him.

A/n: Ah! I hate writing short chapters but I always want to leave off at a cliff hanger type place…..But of course if I write shorted chapters (this is the way my mind works) I'll think of more things to write and then there fore update faster! Maki Murakami still owns these characters. Umm I apologize greatly to the Tohma fans out there for #1 making him a red head. And #2 doing that to him :points up to the last part of the chapter: I wanna give a huge THANK YOU! To my reviewer who made me feel soo loved. Hope you enjoy what else there is to come. Again I am sorry for how short the chapters are but expect a new chapter by Tuesday. (it would be sooner but I have to start my new job! Money!) I still hope to update at east twice a week until work, school and theatre pulll me away which will be in only like two weeks. So until next week. Check out my other one shot fic (unless peoples wants me to write more on it) and check out my favorite stories and authors.

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