"Are we ready to RAWK?" Noriko screamed out backstage at Zepp Tokyo.

"Yeah."

"What's wrong Sugie-kun Na no da?"

"Nothing Ryu-chan I'm still kinda upset that I yelled at mom last week."

"Have you spoken with your mother recently."

"No, I haven't."

"I'll take you tomorrow maybe it would be better if I came with you."

"Suguru! Na no da! Come up to the balcony and watch my cousin's band it's their first show here."

"Alright." Suguru smiled a Ryuichi's kindness. "Your cousin?"

"Yeah!"

The lights dimmed a roar of the crowd as three dark figures slinked onto the stage. Purple and red lights flashed and came up onto a man in leather pants and vest. He was around the same age as Ryuichi.

"Hi everybody!" He yelled into the mic. "We're ASK and we're going to be opening this show for you! So sit back and I promise that a better band will be out soon.!" The dark haired man grinned, then the keyboardist struck up a haunting beat. Suguru loved it! The lights came up onto the entire stage and he gasped when he saw who was playing the keyboards…long blonde hair and bright bluish greenish eyes….it was Ma-kun.

Wait Ryu said that his cousin was in the band and Ma-kun said that my father was his cousin and in a band so maybe….but there are two other guys in the band so it could be anyone of them.

"Sugie." Ryu whispered leaning up to Sugie's ear. "We need to get into place."

"Right." Suguru jumped back to reality…Nah, Ryu could not have done that to my mom.

"Hi momma." Suguru quietly said walking into his mom's room, she was far worst now compared to how she was at his party. "Feeling like crap?"

Keiko smiled…"Nah, crap feels better than this maybe death warmed over." She still had to be a comic she could not take making her little boy sad.

"Hey Kake!" Noriko bounced over and put a hand over Keiko's. "So death warmed over?" Nori raised an eyebrow.

"Hey mom I saw this really cool band last night they opened for us they're called ASK."

Keiko had a huge (but weak) smile on her face. "Really they were that good to get a 'cool' out of you? That must be some band."

"yeah Ma-kun is in the band and guess what….he plays keyboards like me!"

"Really! Hey Nori babe? Can I talk to my son alone."

Nori understood what was going on and left with out a word.

"What is it momma?"
"I'm not gonna make it through the week It's full blown AIDS, it has been for a number of years and I wouldn't tell you. I want to talk to you about this before I leave." Suguru was silently crying tears streaming down his face. "I think that you should know what really happened 14 years ago. I was 13 and a bunch of girls and I thought that it would be fun to go out walking the streets at night. Pick up older guys have them buy us stuff. My best friend and I went off on our own after Mika and Ayaka went home…they were always goodie goodies. Well we went down to the we used to call it the Red District…Yeah we both knew that it was very very dangerous and that there were Pimps and their Whores and other unthinkable things. We went anyway. We ran into three guys out partying God were they high before we ran into them I guess they were popping Oxycondon. There was only really one guy who really liked Nori but the other two bought me a meal and chocolates. I foolishly accepted when they both invited me back to their car. One of the guys slammed my head into the car door, knocking me senseless but not out cold. I knew everything that was going on. They each took their turns with me then at the same time. One of those two men is your father."

"Ma-kun's cousin."

"Right, But he has this huge family all boys. It's almost impossible to figure it out."

"Was Nori-chan alright that night?"

"I didn't know this at the time she didn't tell me until a few years later but she also got raped and ended up pregnant she was lucky though that guy wasn't infected. Have you ever noticed something? Who Nori's oldest son looks like?"

"Tohma."

"Tohma loved Nori-chan but the stress of having a child was overpowering and he kicked her out when her son was just a baby."

"Wait Nori has two kids younger than me and Ben is the father."

"Her other son was put op for adoption she couldn't handle it."

"I regret it everyday. I wish that I was strong like your mother Suguru she kept you with out any help from the father." Noriko stood in the doorway.

"I'm sorry Nori-chan maybe I can help you find him. Mom once you said that you knew the guy who raped you who was he?"

Mom was silent. "Mom?…Momma?.. Dangit answer me momma!" Tears streamed freely down his face as he looked at his mother's closed eyes. He looked over to he monitor that was always silent, a single line drew across it. "Momma!" He cried harder until he was hoarse.

The service was lovely so many people came to give their respects at the Kyoto temple where Keiko's ashes were scattered, it was a small family run temple owned by some friends of the Seguchi family. The head monk performed the prayers and allowed family members and friends to speak of our memories of her….Nori-chan spoke of the time when Tohma's bike tire was flat and Keiko figured out how to make a patch out of bubble gum and silly string but still knew that soon the substance would get sticky and runny and stick to his tire causing him to fall. Keiko always told that story to anyone who would listen since her brother was three years older and supposed to be the smart one of the two and she outsmarted him that time.

K got up and told about Suguru's 13th birthday when he was dressed up like a kumagoro (like he does every year) and Keiko thought that it was so great she made Suguru tape her getting a piggyback ride from the American all around the backyard.

Later that night everyone left to get back to the city but Suguru , K, and Saki stayed in Kyoto for a small vacation since they had never taken one. The temple was warm and inviting and they were allowed to stay for the rest of the week.

Everyone was asleep but Suguru he sat on a large rock on the side of the pond, thinking and crying remembering his mother who he now missed greatly and felt awful about the last few weeks.

"Hello Fujisaki-san." A voice came from behind him. "I'm very sorry about your mom. My mom died last month so I know how you feel…by the way my name is Tatshua. Tatshua Uesegi." Suguru remembered the boy from earlier that day he was around the same age as he and was learning about being a monk. Suguru turned to face the boy who before was wearing monk's robes but now was in a pair of jeans and a tee shirt. Tatshua was breath taking for some strange reason that Suguru couldn't muster he felt light headed. "I can't believe that I'm sitting next to a member of Nittle Grasper! I'm a big fan of yours and the band." Suddenly the alarm on Tatshua's watch went off. "Dang! Sorry I have to go it's getting late and I uh promised that I would meet a buddy downtown."

"Ummm alright."

"Sorry hey I'll take you out tomorrow kay? My treat." Tat smiled shutting the door behind him.

"Damn, sonovabitch!" K-san muttered as he stumbled through the unfamiliar temple. It was really early in the morning but he had heard someone or something moving around where they weren't supposed to be and he (being the nice guy that he was) was going to stop the perpetrator. "Who's there?" he called whispering into the darkened room pistol drawn and pointed towards the open window.

"Did I wake you sir?" the shadow over by the chair asked.

"Yes." K hissed. "And sent my husband into hysterics he thought that someone was breaking in and would kidnap Suguru."

"Sorry sir I'm usually a lot more quiet your not going to tell my sister are you she's a lot more scary even then you with that gun there. By the way my name is Tatshua."

"K…..you're that kid monk that helped Uesegi-san with Keiko's service you did a lovely job."

"Thank you." Tatshua replied sitting down on the sofa that took up most of the living room. "Was Keiko like your sister K-san?"

K took a seat next to the boy but didn't put his gun away. "No notice something you nit Keiko was Japanese can you figure out what country I am from?" he asked in a voice that sounded like he was talking to a four year old.

"You're American aren't you?"

"Yes. Now can I ask you a question. Why was a nice teenage monk like you out all night long and then you sneak back into the temple looks to me and trust me I know about what teenage boys do I was one and so I'm guessing that you were out with a girl getting in a whole bunch of trouble."

"Wrong K-san I wasn't with a girl."

"Then why do you smell like sex. (a/n: K is a very in your face person who doesn't really care is something is his business like right now.) You do, you know big time. If you weren't with a girl then a guy?"

"Fine you wanna know just between you and me?"

"Yes."

"I'm a-"

"He was meeting a friend they went to a movie those places smell real bad you know." A voice from behind the duo stated. "He told me."

K turned around to face the young voice. "Suguru. Did I wake you?"

Suguru laughed. "No Saki did wanted to make sure that no one kidnapped me, he said that some one was inside the house and he sent you out to figure it out and since I didn't hear any gun shots I thought that something might have happened."

"Something happen to me?….bah! Never, I have never been in trouble. I am the fastest gunslinger in Japan!" K said proudly patting the pistol as if it was a beloved pet.

"It's because he is the only gunslinger in Japan." Suguru leaned over to Tatshua and whispered. "Well, my older brother shot someone before we aren't supposed to mention it but he killed his tutor while he was living in America it was like six years ago now."

"You have a brother?"

"Yes but father doesn't like anyone mentioning him. He's kinda the black sheep of the family and father is slightly ashamed of him."

Suguru's eyes widened Ashamed of his own flesh and blood? He wondered if his mother was ashamed of him befriending Ma-kun and joining Nittle Grasper, she never liked either of them. "What did he do? Can I ask?"

"Yeah sure actually don't tell father or Mika but I'm really proud of him he got out of here before father made him become a monk. Eiri my brother is a writer he writes romance novels."

"Well I can see why your father doesn't like that-" K commented.

"It just wasn't that K-san my brother is gay, Lives in Tokyo with his boyfriend. He hasn't visited in four years."

"Four years? Hey maybe sometime you want to come stay with me in Tokyo we can go visit Eiri if you'd like."

"Thanks."

"Yeah, I don't think that's right of your father, Tatshua, to not wish to see his own child just because he's gay. I am gay, I'm proud of it. And your father should be proud that your brother is happy no matter what his personal beliefs are."

A/N: And I end that chapter there since I have no clue where I am going anyone have any ideas? I do know who the father is and how I want this to end but right now, I have no clue where I am going. ERGH! So thank you reviewers making me happy. Now there is a reason why the talk with his mother made no sense when she was talking about Noriko okay? I'll tell you later…when I figure it out. But yes, Tohma was the high guy that took notice to Noriko, that night in the Red District.

If anyone has any ideas on where you would like this fic to go just drop me a like at tohmayukitohmaseguchi. and I'll figure something out with those. Thank you and LOVE to all!