Disclaimer: Hello again long time no post! Well right now I have this chapter and the opening of the next chapter written down so you might be getting two updates this week...LUCKY PPLS!

Hello to my Reviewers I love you guys sooooo much. Thankies! Umm I dont really remember where we left off so just read the last chapter if you can't remember. Sorry.

At this time I wish to remind you that this is a work of complete fiction using the chracters from Maki Murakami's Shonen-ai manga Gravitation I gain no money from this story. I have no clue on where I am going with this story I only know how I want it to end. I would like to remind you all (or update) on the WARNINGS that this is infact an "M" rated story it contains teen pregnacy, cutting hints, death/suicide, drug use, yaoi/yuri hints, violence and scenes of slight torture. So you youngins please for the sakes of your innocent eyes and fragile minds turn back now and leave the Gravitation area go read some harmless Pocket Monster story or better yet Disney. Note: Suguru is now 16.

Now for all of you who are still here the next chapter in the on going series called Voices of the Lost:

"We're losing him Sakano-kun. Everyday he becomes more and more distant to everyone around him. I'm down right scared for him."

"I know." Sakano sighed slipping beneath the covers of the king sized he and his husband share. "I don't know what to do K. I'm trying my best to keep this family together. I don't know if I can do everything anymore!" Saki settled in next to K resting his head onto his husband's bare chest.

"I love you. More than anything Saki, if there is anything I can do just tell me."

"I love you, and Suguru so, I hope he knows how much he means to all of us, you, me, Reji and Yuki. Those two girls have enough things to deal with but they drop everything for him. Their relationship is falling apart cause of Reji's sibling love towards Suguru."

"I know Koi. I know." K whispered kissing the top of Sakano's head. A small tear sliding down his face.

Scene change

Tap, tap went the keyboard of Suguru's leptop. "The art of negotiation and persuasion" typed into Google's search engine, a .44 Magnum sat on top of the desk next to the laptop.

It was well past midnight when the lights from Suguru's room turned off. He didn't go to bed though, instead he got dresses in normal streetwear grabbed the gun and left, leaving no note only a few drops of blood on his desk.

His intoxicated body shook as he stumbled through downtown Tokyo to an apartment he knew too well, but only visited once.As he reached his desination he pressed the small button that anounced his arrival.

"Who is it?" a male voice called from beyond the large grey door.

"It's Suguru..Can I come in?" The door flew open revealing a slightly disheveled Ma-kun. "Sugie what's--" Before he could finish he was staring down the barrel of the Magnum.

"Hello Ma-kun." Suguru slightly sang out. "I have a few questions to ask you. First though we are going to play a game." He pushed the gun harder between the confused blonde's eyes forcing the two inside of the small room. "SIT" the green haired rockstar barked retrieving about three years of parachute cording from his coat pocket.

"What- what are you doing." Ma-kun questioned sitting down.

"I'm going to tie you up...It makes the game loads more fun!" He grinned showing his perfect white teeth. "Now there are five parts to this game. Blunt, sharp, cold, hot and loud. What shall I do first?"

About two hours later Suguru sat straddling a barely concious Ma-kun. Tossing an empty lighter aside Suguru sported a very bored expression, the blonde man however sported many bruises most just surface but a few deep ones that were a shade of dark purple already. These bruises were just the beginning, cuts of various lengths and deepness painted what normal colored skin he had left. Obviously the blunt and sharp part of Suguru's sick game were complete there was no sign of the cold but the now empty lighter on the floor and Ma-kun's burnt fingertips proved finished...Now for the loud.

"Suguru!" Ma-kun gasped out urgently. "Suguru! what are you doing. Why are you doing this?" Suguru eyed the man infront of him for a long while as if he had two heads then the greenhaired boy started laughing hysterically. "You ask me? --W-What the problem is---Why I'm doing this? I want answers that you wouldn't give me."

"Sugie...stop this you're not in your right mind"

"I w-want answers. Ma-kun." Suguru growled out placing the gun between the blonde's teeth. "You know who my father is Who is he?"

Tears slid silently down Ryuichi's pale face. The consent beeping the the heart monitor in the background.

"Ryu-chan!" Noriko came bursting into the white sterile room. "Tetsuya told me that the hospital called and said that you were here what happened?"

"Not much Nori-chan I enjoy my reglular trips to the hospital, so that they can hook me up to all these mahines, monitor my heart rate and pump drugs into my system..Yes always a well spent vacation." Ryuichi attempted a sarcastic smile.

"Aw, Ryu-chan. What's the matter...You know this is normal for you, you've been living with this for most of your life."

Ryu's brown eyes floated down to the white sheets that were over his small legs. "It's not that I realize that. But I feel so guilty for what Suguru is going through..he's so distant, he doesn't seem to care about anything anymore."

"He's just missing his mom...totally normal." she smiled sitting down next to her friend and leadsinger.

"It's been two years now. Usually people get adjusted to this."

"Suguru, wat 'ave you taken? 'is in't you please tell me so 'at I can be able to 'elp you." Ma-kun pleaded with the teen who had the gun place directly into the blonde's mouth.

"Fourteen years. You never helped me or my mother..."

"She refused my help...I wanted to help you guys I knew what happened...told her that I'd help but she wouldn't hear of it..."

"Ma-kun, please tell me who my father is." Suguru removed the gun from Ma-kun's mouth and placed it between the blonde's eyes.

"16, now almost 17 years ago on your Uncle's birthday a bunch of up guys went out. I left early, had work in the morning...They were fucked up three ways from Sunday. found your mother and Noriko-san...Tohma went with Nori. The other two guys went with your mother."

"Who were they?"

"My two idiot cousins..." Ma-kun eyed the gun infront of him. "...Ryuichi Sakuma and Taki Aizawa."

Suguru jumped up waving the gun around. "Damnit..Ryuichi? What the FUCK! That bastard! Taki's in your band isnt he? ASK? Is it him? Do I look like him?" A sly smile came over the teen's face. "Thank you Ma-kun. Now where is this Taki Aizawa-san?" He leaned over and untied his second cousin.

"Don't do anything foolish Suguru wait until you get back into your right state of mind."

"Don't be fucking stupid I'm in my state of mind...He stays at the studio alot right? I'll try there. Thank you again." Suguru went to the exit where there was a large full length mirror. he stoped a bit to look at himself in the reflections, his eyes red and smears of blood on his clothing. Looking back he could see Ma-kun behind him reaching for the phone and dialing..."Taki! Get out of there now! I'll explain late-" BANG! Blood spattered across the wall behind the fallen blonde. The gun smoking in Suguru's hand, trigger pulled. "Shit! Ah fuck...No don't be dead not dead I just wanted you injured. Fuck uh..." He wiped his prints off the Gun and placed it into Ma-kun's right hand, making it look like a suicide. and left locking the door behind him.

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