M & M's
Chapter Eight: Why You Want to Break My Heart
Thoughts/Lyrics
"See you on Friday." Motoki called out as Mamo turned around, confusion written on his face.
"Did we have plans for Friday?"
Motoki looked at him as if he was off his rocker, "What do you mean did we have plans for Friday?" he looked at the ebony haired man with an exasperated look on his face, "It's Mako's surprise party."
A look of even greater confusion settled on Mamoru's face, "Surprise party? For what? Her birthday's not for another 4 months"
Motoki slapped his forehead in disgust, "What do you mean for what?!" he practically yelled, when Mamo simply shrugged, Motoki softened, "You really don't know do you?" sympathy was evident in his voice.
"Know what?" Mamo demanded, getting slightly irritated at being kept in the dark.
"I thought you guys were still friends? Granted you haven't been around much and neither has she..."
"The point Motoki, what's the point? What's the surprise party for?"
"She's applied to the International Culinary Institute and got in."
Mamoru smiled, "That's great, she's such a great cook. Looks like I owe her that Lazy-Boy recliner."
"Um I don't think you get it."
"Huh? Oh, I told her that if she got in to a culinary school I would buy her a recliner to rest her feet on after a long day in the kitchen."
"NO! I don't think YOU get it. Mako got accepted to the ICI's main campus in Paris, it's a surprise going away party."
The words hit Mamoru like a ton of bricks, "Going away? Paris?"
"Yea, she got into their advanced program, she'll be gone for 4 years for school then after that who knows where she'll get hired."
"Four years?"
"Ya, she leaves Saturday."
Sometimes we get lost at night
Sometimes we get lost in our lives
Mako was at home packing when she came across a box of Mamo's stuff that she had yet to return. She took out the green jacket that he loved to wear so much, shocked that he had not asked for it back. She slipped it on, inhaling deeply, taking in his scent; suddenly she was bombarded with memories of the two of them together. She was pulled out of her reverie when the phone rang. She took the jacket off and placed it back in the box.
"How could you not tell me you're leaving?" A voice yelled as soon as Mako picked up the phone.
"Ru?" she questioned, shocked that he had called.
"How could you not tell me?" his voice softened, almost pleading with her to tell him it wasn't true.
"I didn't think it mattered."
"Didn't think it mattered?! My best friend is leaving of course it matters!"
Mako laughed bitterly, "You know our relationship's been strained for a while. I know we said we'd be friends, but you know as well as I do, nothing's been the same since we split and I don't think it ever will be."
But I didn't want to loose you
Mamo sighed, "I know things haven't been the same, we just need to give it some time, things will go back to the way they used to be."
I don't want things to go back to the way they used to be! Her mind screamed, I don't want to go back to being just a friend, not after meaning more to you. "You know that won't happen."
"So instead of confronting the issue, you're running from it? Are you leaving because of me?"
"What? You think everything revolves around you! I finally get into the most prestigious culinary school in the world, and you manage to make me leaving all about you!" she fumed.
"It's a legitimate question! You haven't hung out with us nearly as much as you did when we were together!"
"It's because I've been preparing and applying to ICI! Is it really that hard for you to accept that the world doesn't revolve around you?"
"I know it doesn't revolve around me, but you have to admit that you've been avoiding me. I know that you were at Mina and Motoki's house the other day and bailed when you knew I came over!"
"So what if I did, I had things to do!"
"So you couldn't even say hi?!" he almost yelled at her.
"I don't believe you! Instead of calling to say, 'Congratulations Mako!' I get, 'You can't get over me so you're running away?' God could your head get any bigger than it already is? Why can't you just be happy for me?!" she raised her voice, her temper flaring.
"Who said anything about you not being over me?" He asked, hearing the pain in her voice made his own heart ache.
"You know what? I don't have time for this," she mentally cursed as her voice cracked, "I have to pack, thanks so much for the support Chiba." She hung up.
Mamo looked at the phone, She hung up on me, she's never hung up on me... Well fine, if that's the way she wants it, two can play at this game. I'll show her that I'm doing fine without her in my life. Mamoru thought to himself, although deep down he knew it was a lie.
Mako shakily put the cordless phone back on the receiver, she sunk to the floor, bringing her knees to her chest, she began to cry.
Maybe it's not in the cards
Why'd you let me down so hard
When all I ever wanted was to love you
Friday night came and Mako was headed to the Crown Arcade, Mina had called and said that the girls were all together and wanted to buy her one last ice cream sundae before she left. Mako, never one to turn down a sundae from the Crown, said she'd be right over.
Mako dug her hands into her coat pockets as she thought back to the last conversation she'd had with Mamoru. She'd been so mean to him, but he just couldn't understand that she was doing this for her... right? Or was she running from the failed romance?
Why you wanna break my heart
That's when it dawned on her that she was running from him, and the memories that she couldn't escape. Sure she had always wanted to go to ICI, but she was using it as an excuse to run.
She was so caught up in her thoughts that she didn't even notice she had walked right by the Crown. If it wasn't for Mina coming out and calling out to her, she would have kept on going.
"Hey girl! Man are you in another world or what?" she exclaimed, pulling the brunette out of her thoughts.
"Huh, what?" Mako stopped and faced Mina, who just looked at her.
"Are you ok Mako?"
Mako smiled, "Ya, I'm fine, just a lot on my mind you know?"
Mina smiled back, "I can imagine, now come on girl! The ice cream ain't gonna stay cold forever!" she exclaimed as she pushed Mako into the Crown.
"SURPRISE!"
Mako's face lit up into a huge smile, "Oh my gosh!" She looked around and saw her friends, co-workers and more importantly her family standing underneath a 'Bon Voyage Mako' banner. She looked at the women whom she considered sisters, "You guys!" she fought back the tears and they enveloped her in a hug, "You didn't have too!"
"Well we couldn't have you leaving without reminding you to come home every once in a while now could we?" Rei smiled.
"Ya, besides you know us, any excuse for a party!" Usagi smiled happily, "But we wish that you weren't leaving." She added seriously.
"Yes, things won't be quite the same without you around." Ami added.
Mako smiled, "Thanks guys, I'll miss you too, but just think, you guys can always visit me in Paris, and I'll come home for the holidays."
"I know, but it won't be the same." Usa whined playfully.
"Well I'll just have to make it up to you all by cooking everything I learned in school when I get back huh?"
At the thought of new foods Usa perked up, "Oh, I never thought of that!" she exclaimed happily, already starting to drool.
The girls laughed, as the party got going. People were dancing, talking, and having an all around good time.
Meanwhile in the street, blue eyes were looking in, at the laughing brunette, debating whether or not to enter. Why can't you be happy for me?! Her voice resonated in his mind. How could he be happy that his best friend was leaving?
He was so lost in thought that he it took him a while to notice those emerald green eyes he had grown to adore, staring at him through the window. Panicking, he turned and began to walk away.
Sometimes what seems wrong seems so right
Sometimes when we shouldn't we might
But all I ever wanted was you
Mako rushed out after him, she had felt horrible after hanging up on him earlier that week. "Mamoru!" she called as she hurried to catch up with him, "Mamo!" still he ignored her, tears began to gather in her eyes as she tried one more time, "Ru!"
At this Mamo couldn't help but stop, the pain in her voice was too hard to ignore. "What is it Mako?" he asked without even turning around, knowing if he did, he wouldn't have the courage to leave.
She slowly approached him, stopping about two feet away, "You weren't even going to come in to say goodbye?" her voice trembling.
Mamo knew that she was on the verge of crying, "Mako I'm busy, I must go." he started to leave again, but Mako reached out and grabbed his hand.
Think of when I held you last
Oh love, how could you forget so fast
There's a little of you in everything I do
"Can't you just come in for a little while? It'd mean a lot to everyone, they'd all be happy to see you." she paused as she stared at the back of his head, he still refused to turn around and face her, "It'd mean a lot to me if you stayed."
Mamo looked down and grit his teeth it took everything he had to pull his hand away from hers, immediately missing the warmth her touch sent through his body. "I'm sorry Makoto, I can't." and with that he briskly walked away, jogging by the time he reached the end of the block. Leaving the thunder goddess with unshed tears in her eyes.
I asked you to stay and still you leave
Mako waited at the airport, her flight had already been called, tears began to gather in her eyes as she looked at her friends who had come to see her off, "He didn't even come to say goodbye." She shook her head, and wiped away her tears, "You know what? Fuck him, I don't need him."
Well I may look lonely and blue
But I've been here waiting for you
"Yea, you don't need him Mako." Mina smiled supportively as the rest of the girls nodded in agreement.
The girls came forward and hugged her tightly, "Come home as often as you can, ok?" Ami wiped a tear away
"Ya, you can even call on me, I'll get you back in no time." Setsuna winked.
"Thanks you guys," Mako smiled, "I'm going to miss you all. I have my communicator, so feel free to give me a ring whenever." She turned to leave, "I love you guys, I'll be back soon." And with that she boarded the plane. ICI had paid for her way, and she was seated in the first class section of the plane. She sat down and couldn't help the tears that came to her eyes. Why didn't he come? Why do I let him hurt me? she sat up straight, and wiped her eyes, From now on, no more dwelling on the past, Makoto Kino, you're going to have a ball in France, after all it is the City of Love...
No matter how she tried to play it off, she couldn't convince herself that it didn't hurt, that he didn't show up to say goodbye.
Mamo came home, to his empty apartment, unconsciously hoping the Mako would be in the kitchen preparing a wonderful feast. He walked over to his answering machine which was blinking brightly, "You have two new messages."
"Hey Mamo, it's Motoki, we're here at the airport to see Mako off, just wondering if you were planning on coming," he paused, "She'd really like to see you again before she leaves. She's on flight 4 that leaves at 5:30, catch you later man."
Mamo looked at the clock, 5:45, his heart sank, How could I have forgotten when she was leaving? How could I not be there to say goodbye and good luck?
"Mamo you inconsiderate asshole!" Mina's voice yelled at his answering machine. "You were the one person she wanted to see the most and you're to wrapped up in yourself to come to say goodbye. Did you know she cried? Yea, that's right Mamo, when she realized you didn't care enough to say goodbye she cried. I really expected more from you Mamoru Chiba!"
She cried? I made Mako cry? Mamo sat down on the floor and hung his head in hands, You idiot, the only woman you've truly loved is gone, and you just let her go...
And I want an answer or two
Why you want to break my heart?
Ok, I don't own the song, I think it belongs to Tia Carrere, who's a Hawaii girl! I don't own the characters either... poo...
Raven Kino: Hey girl! There will be a remedy for it somewhere down the line... Hope you had a great thanksgiving!
Cris: Well it seems like my muses must like you since I've had nothing but ideas for this story, I think this is the fastest I've ever updated anything. Hope you like it! My thanksgiving was great, thanks for asking!
Clemen: Yes, I made Mamo a jerk, and don't worry he will suffer for a while. Don't know if I'll have another Mamo/Mako fic in the works, but who knows where the inspiration wind will blow.
Thunder-Heart: I'm glad that you're moving back home and that you've worked out whatever differences you guys had! Families are meant to be together.
JupiterHime: Thanks for reviewing, and don't worry about the lack of it. :) I really hope that you plan on finishing your Mako/Mamo one, I even started to write chapter for it, when I realized that you had stopped writing... if you're stuck and need some ideas, just let me know!
Reading Reccomendation of the day: Of Love and War by Lightning Gurl.
One Love,
Athena Kyle