M&M's
Chapter Thirteen: The First Cut is the Deepest
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Warning! This chapter has some lemony freshness towards the end
"Alright Mako, close your eyes." Aoshi instructed as he led her into his huge Parisian penthouse. Mako looked at him skeptically before giggling and complying.
"Well?" She raised her eyebrows, in anticipation as Aoshi took her hand in his, kissing her fingers tenderly before leading her to the one room in his house that Mako considered home.
Makoto shivered in anticipation and happiness, it had been four months since she had admitted to liking him, and things between the pair were going great. Mako never thought that she would ever find happiness like this again, until Aoshi came along and helped to heal her broken heart. She was grateful that she had found someone like him; she just hoped that she could trust in him enough to open up completely.
He gently kissed her closed eyelids, smiling as she purred in contentment, "Okay Mako, open your eyes." He watched as her emerald eyes open taking in the sight of the room before her.
Makoto looked at Aoshi, tears gathering in her eyes as an expression of shock settled on her lovely face. "Oh Aoshi." She whispered as she stepped into the brand new state of the art kitchen. She walked slowly almost afraid that she would wake to find it all a dream as she ran her fingers along the smooth marble counter top.
Aoshi smiled as he watched her marvel at it all, the soft click of her heels on the floor, and her soft squeals of delight the only sounds being heard. "Do you like it?"
She looked at him, "Like it? I love it." She smiled happily.
"Good," he stepped closer to her, wrapping his arms around her, "Cause it's yours."
She looked up at him, confusion evident in her eyes, "What?"
"I love you Makoto Kino, move in with me help me make this house a home."
Mako pulled away from him, missing the hurt look of confusion that marred his handsome face. She placed her hands on the counter as she let out a sigh, "Aoshi, I care for you a lot-"
I would have given you all of my heart"Mako, I understand if you don't love me back." He cut her off to save his pride, "I just thought that in time you could-"
"Aoshi it's not that simple." This time she cut him off as she turned to face him, "I think it's time I told you everything." Aoshi nodded and let her lead him to the living room, where they sat down beside one another on Aoshi's luxurious suede couch. "Before I came to Paris, I fell in love with a man name Mamoru Chiba. He was the ex-boyfriend of my best friend; we bonded after we each experienced a harsh breakup and further bonded in the fact that we're both orphans. One day, it just developed into something more, we were together for a little over eight months, he's the first man I ever loved. One day he called to tell me that he cared for me but wasn't in love with me. I've never known a pain so intense before. After loosing him, I didn't think I could love again."
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I have
Aoshi sat there and let everything sink in, "So that's why you refused to date me for so long, because you were getting over the heartache of loosing him?"
Mako nodded slowly, "Yea, I didn't think it was fair to you if I had said yes right away, it would have felt to much like rebounding." She paused as she shifted uneasily, "There's more."
"More?"
"Yea, you look incredibly like him." She pulled a photo from her purse, and held it to her chest "When I first saw you I almost thought you were him."
Aoshi nodded, the pieces of the puzzle beginning to fall into place, "That's why you always had a hard time looking at me."
She nodded again, "It hurt to much. I couldn't look at you and see you, all I could see was him." She showed him a picture of her and Mamo together.
"Whoa." Aoshi gasped, he thought that he'd look a little like this Mamo guys', not be his identical twin. "We do look alike." He looked back at her.
"I know, which is another reason why I didn't want to go out with you, it wasn't fair if I did it because you looked like him." She smiled softly as Aoshi looked broken hearted, and she knew that he thought she was rejecting him. "But," he looked up at her as she continued, "I have to tell you that I've never thought I'd feel this way again, until now. I can't tell that I love you; cause if I did it would be a lie. But I also know what I'm feeling is stronger than like."
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again
She reached out and caressed his cheek softly, "And if you can wait for me to figure out my feelings, and get over the pain of my broken heart, I'd really like to start something serious with you."
Aoshi smiled as he pulled her in for a tender kiss, "Mako, I love you, take all the time you need." He knew that her previous relationship had torn her apart. Anyone could see the pain of a lost love in her eyes. He had heard that first loves are always hard to get over, he wouldn't know, Mako was the first woman he ever loved, but he knew if he ever lost her, he'd be lost.
But I know
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
"My heart is not yet mine to give, but when it is, you're the one I plan on giving it too." She smiled as she pulled him in for another passionate kiss.
"How some idiot could ever let you go is beyond me." He murmured when they parted.
She laughed although tears built in her eyes, "He said the same thing when Freddy broke up with me." She whispered softly as Aoshi held her close.
"Well I'm different Mako, I'm not going anywhere."
"I know you're different Aoshi, and thank you." She smiled blinking back her tears, "And I would love to move in with you." She giggled as his eyes lit up, "Now come on, let me put that brand new kitchen to use!" she exclaimed excitedly as she stood up and practically raced to the kitchen
Aoshi watched as she took off like a five-year-old running after an ice cream truck. His house would seem a lot less empty with her laughter to fill it. He knew that it was going to take some time for her to completely succumb to him, but he had faith that fate would bring her love to him.
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure going to give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again
He followed her to the kitchen as she began to pull things out of the cupboards. "Hey beautiful, look in the fridge." He leaned against the doorframe, looking every bit the sex symbol he was.
Mako looked at him strangely before opening the fridge door. She gasped, looked at Aoshi who nodded, she then squealed and rushed into his arms. "Thank you!" she began kissing him all over.
He laughed, "I should do this more often, a man can get used to this kind of treatment."
Sitting inside of the fridge were two first class tickets to Italy, along with reservations to the most exclusive Italian restaurant in the world, the one where Mako hoped to intern at.
Mamoru was on a medical conference in Venice, walking along the canal when he felt something pull at his heart. That pull could only mean one thing, his kirie was near, four months had gone by, and she was still the only womanon his mind and in his heart.He turned around and his heart stopped, there she was, his Mako, standing on the other side of the canal, buying vegetables from a farmers market. He smiled as his heart warmed as he watched her face lit up into a smile as she picked out a ripe tomato.
He went to cross the bridge to talk to her, lost in memories of the two of them in happier days. When he looked up again, he saw a man sneak up behind her, and wrap his arms around Mako's waist. His heart broke as she giggled in delight before turning around and kissing the man holding her.
He watched as the man paid for her vegetables then took her bags from her, carrying them so she could look for more fresh produce. She looked so different yet exactly how he remembered her. He was mesmerized by the way her eyes lit up when she found exactly what she wanted.
He froze as Mako looked up and stared directly at him, the bell pepper she was holding fell from her hands as their eyes locked. She shook her head as if trying to find out if he was really there. Once she established that he was real a look of confusion settled on her face.
His already broken heart shattered as she turned away from him, heading over to who he assumed was her boyfriend.
Later on that night Mamoru was tossing and turning in his luxury hotel room. He couldn't get Mako's face out of his mind. He sighed in frustration as he gave up, throwing the sheets aside; he got dressed and headed out into the streets of Venice.
He walked down alongside the canal and found himself stopping at a small park. Looking up, he felt Mako near by, he looked around and sure enough there she was sitting by a fountain, bathed in the moonlight. She wasn't even facing him and he knew it was her. Taking this meeting as an act of serendipity, he moved to approach her.
"Some how I knew you'd come to me." She whispered as he about to reach out and touch her.
"You know I could never stay away from you for long." He replied as he sat down next to her.
She turned to look at him, and he was drawn in, she looked incredible. Her hair was down and flowing in soft waves around her, green eyes sparkled brighter than any star in the heavens. Her lips were soft and her skin smooth. Mamo couldn't believe that he had been dumb enough to let a girl like her go. "Mamo you can't keep doing this to me."
"Doing what to you?" he ran a hand through her hair.
"This!" she exclaimed as she stood up quickly, escaping his touch, which was stirring up feelings that she thought she had buried. "Mamo, you can't keep doing this, showing up and confusing me. I'm with someone else now."
He stood up and followed after her, "Mako, you know we belong together, we're meant to be together."
She whirled around, "NO!" she shouted as lightning pierced the skies. "We are over Mamoru, you made it very clear to me that we are not meant to be." He could see the tears stinging her eyes, "There was nothing I wouldn't have done for you, but that wasn't enough for you." No sooner had her first tear fallen, did the heavens open up and rain began to pour down.
He stood there watching her as the rain began to dampen them both, her aura began to pulse, this type of weather was her element and she was radiant. "Mako I never meant to hurt you, and I know you've been dreaming about our past. How can you deny what we had?" he stepped closer to her.
"I don't want to remember, but no matter how hard I try to forget I can't." she cried as she broke down, falling into Mamo's arms. Mamo wrapped his arms tightly around her reviling in the feel of her body once again pressed against his. God how he had missed this. She suddenly pulled out of his embrace, "I can't, this isn't right, I'm with someone else now, I can't."
He grabbed her and pulled her back into his arms, "Yes you can, don't deny it, you know we belong together."
"No, I can't" she pushed herself away from him. The two just stood there in the rain staring at one another.
"Fine then, leave, just say goodbye and go!" he yelled over the pouring rain.
Tears began streaming down her face, hot tears, mixing with the cruel cold rain, "I can't." she sobbed, her hair blowing in the wind. "I can't bring myself to say goodbye." She whispered softly, but Mamo heard her.
"Then don't," he caressed her cheek, "Stay with me." He inched closer.
"Mamo I-" she didn't get to finish because Mamo covered her mouth with his.
Mako was never prepared for the way Mamo's lips made her feel. She melted into him, giving into the fire within her. Memories of happier times came rushing back, stronger than she ever could have imagined.
The rain was pouring down through neither of them felt it, they were too lost in one another.
Mamo picked her up and wrapped her legs around his body as he sat down on the bench, leaving her to straddle his legs. He slowly leaned back, pulling her down on top of him, feeling her weight on top of him once again sent his hormones into overdrive. No woman had ever had the effect on him that she did. She was a drug that he was addicted to and could never get enough of.
Mako was in heaven Oh Aoshi her mind moaned, she pulled away, as a picture of Aoshi flashed through her head. She climbed off of Mamoru, "I'm sorry Mamo, but I can't, you have no idea how hard this is for me, but I can't, feelings have changed." And with that she ran off, leaving a very confused, frustrated and hurt Mamoru out in the pouring rain.
Mako ran all the way back to Aoshi's summer villa, tears streaming down her face the entire way. She was confused, she was finally with the man she thought she loved and yet she had envisioned someone else. Mamoru was back within her reach, and yet something in her wanted Aoshi. She composed herself before opening the door, Aoshi jumped up from his chair in the den, the look of worry on his face made Mako feel even worse, and she started to cry all over again.
Aoshi grabbed the afghan from the couch and wrapped it around her, "Mako, what happened?" he lead her to the fireplace and sat down beside her.
"I'm a horrible person! I don't deserve you." She sobbed as she turned away from him.
"What do you mean?"
She calmed herself down and got ready to admit the truth, "Do you remember me telling you about the guy that broke my heart?" Aoshi nodded, "Well I ran into him tonight, and he told me he's sorry and that he wants me back." She paused as Aoshi's face remained emotionless, "And, I-I-" Out with it Mako! "We kissed."
"And then what happened?" his voice was colder than the rain outside.
"Nothing, I thought of you and ran away." When he said nothing and turned away, Mako knew there was no way she could talk her way out of this one, and that she probably ruined any chance she ever had with Aoshi. "I'm so sorry, I finally got what I wanted, and now I've screwed it up." She stood up and headed to the guest bedroom, where she fell onto the bed and broke down.
A few moments later she felt someone sit on the bed beside her, "What are you doing in this room?" he questioned softly as she turned to looked at him,
"Huh?"
"Our bedroom is three doors down the hall." He scooped her up into his arms and began to walk to the master bedroom.
"You're not mad?"
He smiled down at her, "I was, but then I realized that you left him and came home to me. If you could leave the only guy you've ever loved for me, that has to mean something right?" he looked at her hopefully.
She kissed him passionately, "Aoshi I love you." She whispered against his lips before kissing him again.
Aoshi pulled away, "What did you say?" he brushed a strand of hair out of her eyes.
She looked into his eyes and smiled softly, "I love you, as crazy as it is, tonight made me realize that." She kissed him, "I love you."
Aoshi's eyes sparkled as he lowered her to the bed, "You have no idea how long I've waited for you to say that." He kissed her passionately, pouring everything he felt into their kiss. "I love you too Mako." She smiled back at him and silenced all further conversation with a kiss.
Aoshi trailed kisses down her neck as she sighed heavenly, arching her back, pressing her body against his muscular frame, feeling his hard body mold perfectly to hers. He gently nipped at her collarbone before heading back up to ravish her lips again. She slid her tongue across his lower lip, begging for entrance, to which he happily obliged, opening his mouth to let his tongue dance with hers.
Mako moaned, no longer able to deny what she felt for him, she let her walls down and let her passion take over. She ran her hands down his back taking in every taught muscle as she reached for the edge of his shirt, his lips left hers for a moment as he helped her help him out of his shirt. Mako marveled at his body, his strong defined pecks, washboard abs, his 'lower' body. She blushed as she looked back up at him, surprised at the intense look of love radiating in his eyes. She smiled at him as she allowed him to remove her wet shirt, leaving her in a black lace bra, which Aoshi found incredibly sexy.
Mako rolled over, so that she was on top, straddling Aoshi, she pulled out her hair tie, letting it fall over her body in cinnamon waves. Aoshi brushed her hair off of her shoulders running his hands down her arms, sending chills down her spine. Mako grabbed his hands kissing the tip of each finger before guiding them to her back, to the catch of her bra.
Aoshi sucked in a breath as he undid the clasp and slowly pulled the lacy garment off. Aoshi pulled himself up, his eyes drinking in the sight of her well-endowed breasts. He suckled on her neck, as she ran her hands through his hair, expertly teasing his very sensitive ears, causing him to moan, his warm breath teasing her already receptive skin.
Mako moved to undo Aoshi's pants, slowly trailing her nimble fingers down his body before reaching the top of his jeans, pleasantly surprised when Aoshi started doing the same to her. She giggled as they separated, each whipping off their undergarments, and rushing back to each other's warm embrace.
So there they were, completely exposed to one another, and not the least bit shy. Aoshi kissed her softly, drawing her closer, loving the feel of her silky lithe legs entwining with his. She rolled onto her back pulling her with him; he rested on top of her, propped up on his elbows, cupping her face in his hands.
His eyes stared lovingly into hers, asking a silent question to which her answer was yes. Aoshi positioned himself at her entrance, "I love you." He whispered as he slipped in, making them one. Mako cried out in pleasure as he filled her completely, the sound of her moaning his name drove him wild. He started moving back and forth teasing her slowly, loving the feel of her around him, he finally had the woman of his dreams and he was going to make her pleasure last as long as possible.
She started bucking her hips, urging, needing him to go faster, "Please Aoshi, I need you." She moaned, her voice filled with rapture. Aoshi complied to her wishes and began to thrust steadily faster, her soft whimpers of pleasure getting louder and louder.
Aoshi could feel his own release on the way and held her closer, as he could tell she was ready too. Her back arched,as her toes curled, her fingers digging into his back, and she released a sensual moan as they reached the perfection that can only come with a simultaneous orgasm.
Exhausted he collapsed back onto her, letting his head rest in the crook of her neck. Their arms wrapped around each other as she ran her hands through his hair, tenderly kissing his ear.
She looked up at Aoshi and smiled, he smiled back at her, they looked deeply into each other's eyes, neither of them said anything, there was no need to. They knew exactly what the other was feeling. She ran a hand through his hair and kissed him tenderly. He moved and lied down next to her; she put her head on his chest and listened to his heartbeat as he played with her hair. He kissed her forehead, she looked up at him, "I love you."
"And I love you."
Alrighty, another chapter... a rather steamy one at that... the song belongs to I think Cat Stevens, although I like the Sheryl Crow version better, it's called The First Cut is the Deepest. None of the characters belong to me. Wow, the last chapter brought in the most reviews I've ever had for a chapter! Thanks for the love and support guys!
Thanks to:
Raven Kino: Yup, Mako may be ignoring her past, but she has such a good thing going with Aoshi right now...
Gota de Mar: Thanks for all the support! Loved the new fic, and thanks, I might just right an original work with this same theme.
ThunderHeart: Hey, taco's were great! Hope you had a great weekend! Update woman udpate!
FirebirdFlame: Eventually I do plan on Mamo and Mako getting back together, the title of the story is after all M&M's. I checked out your stories, I don't remember if I reviewed but I really liked the one where Mal/Kunz needs to seduce Mina.
Moongoddess86: I feel bad for Mamo too, and I'm the one that's making life so hard for him... anywho Happy Birthday!
Elara2: Yes arranged marriages suck, especially when it's your boyfriend that gets engaged to your best friend!
Clemen: Thanks for the review, take care!
JupiterHime: Thanks a bunch! I really hope that you finish your Mako/Mamo one!
Cris: Thanks for everything and always! I'm glad you like Aoshi, I'm having fun with his character.
Lady D: Your fic is progressing well, can't wait to see where you take it! Thanks for the continued support!
Mako-ChanFan:Thanks for the sweet review, hope you enjoyed this chatper!
Yassiq: Thanks for the review, I read your fic and I love it! Great start!
Reading Recommendation: The Man I Loved the Most by AffluentHeartache, a great fic so far, Mako and Neph are neighbors that don't get along, go check out how she brings this feisty couple together!
One Love,
Athena Kyle