Emma paced restlessly back and forth in her room.

God how she hoped Shalimar was back to normal. Or did she? What if Shalimar became angry with her because of what had happened? But what exactly had happened between them? Maybe it could all be like it was before the incident? No, it couldn't because Brennan was furious with her.

She felt how it started to sting in her eyes.

Why did everything have to be so complicated? If she only could have been normal and had a normal life she wouldn't have these problems. What if the team never got over what had happened? Would she be forced to leave because Adam thought it was better to loose one person than to lose several? Or would he do something to her? She knew that Adam saw her as a very dangerous weapon if she got into the wrong persons hands. Would he put her in stasis or make her disappear?

She felt how the first tear slowly moved down her chin followed by another and another until her whole body was shaking and she had to concentrate on breathing. Tears fell freely, not having the energy to try fighting them.

Shalimar would probably never talk to her again and even if she did it wouldn't be the same as before because she knew what had happened. But what if she didn't remember? Then everything would be normal, at least between them. No, she couldn't live with that. You can't build your life on lies and she didn't want to deal with having to keep it a secret from Shalimar when she meant so much to her. She knew she had to deal with this sooner or later and it would be best to just get it over with. She was going to deal with this one way or the other, but it would be no lies coming from her. Not when she knew how important it was to trust people and especially within the team.

-

"Your scans seem to be fine, how are you feeling?"

"Tired and embarrassed and confused."

"So you remember everything that has happened?"

"Yeah, but it's better than to not remember anything."

Adam noticed that she seemed to be thinking about other things than their conversation.

"Since the tests say you're fine, I'll let you go to bed and recover."

"Thanks."

Shalimar got up and walked out without saying anything and didn't even look back. Basically she seemed absent and that worried Adam.

Shalimar was just about to close the bedroom door when Brennan called out for her. She waited and let him go inside with her.

"So how are you feeling Shal? Back to normal?"

"Yeah, at least almost."

"Good because I've missed the normal you and things were getting slightly out of hand. I mean, Emma apparently has some emotional issues and she shouldn't have used you like that and I totally took her for it."

Shalimar felt how she started to get angry with Brennan. She wanted do yell at him and tell him that it wasn't like that and that he was stupid, but she was far too tired.

"I'm really tired now so can I talk to you later please?"

"Ok, take all the time you need, I'm not going anywhere."

When he was out the door, Shalimar let out an angry sigh and took a few deep breaths to try and relax.

God, men could be so stupid sometimes. She knew that Brennan liked her, but he certainly did not own her and Emma had done nothing wrong. She had been pushing her so much that she didn't know what to do. She remembered how much Emma had tried to stop her from kissing her. It had all just been very confusing and that was what their last kiss had been; a confusion.

Shalimar thought of how it felt to be under the spell. She had felt so in love and it had felt so real and she understood why Emma had kissed her. It was because right at that moment Shalimar had said so many nice things to her and from how strong Shalimar had felt in love when she was under the spell, Emma probably felt the emotions coming from her and she knew how much effect that could have on Emma. After all she was a telempath so she relied and depended on which emotions other people radiated.

She really had to talk to Emma, but first she needed rest. She hadn't slept much under the spell, all the feelings she felt for Emma had kept her awake. She couldn't help but smile at all the plans she had made to seduce and please Emma, not to mention how many ways she had thought about how to show Emma that she really loved her.

She laid down on her bed and quickly fell asleep, exhausted.