Disclaimer: Still don't own GH :-(
BTW – this takes before Jason started coming to his senses and choosing Sam more! (And actually telling her he loves her!)
Sam slumped on the couch, staring at the ash grey carpet (a/n I think that's the color of their carpet – if not sorry!). Jason stood against the door, staring at Sam, realizing for the first time that he took Sam's love for granted. Sam felt his clear blue eyes burning into her, yet she made no move to meet his gaze. A heavy silence hung between them. It had been like this since Ric and Reese left, a few minutes before. Jason knew he had to start this conversation; he just needed to figure out how.
"Sam, I.."
"No, Jason. Please, no 'Sam, how could you', or 'you betrayed me', please Jase. I can't take that right now. Let me get sober first, okay." Sam said, desperation lacing her voice.
"No, Sam, that's not it at all," Jason pleaded, his voice softening.
"It's not? Then what is it! For g-d's sake, Jase, what do you want from me?" Sam practically screamed.
"I want to.." Jason was cut off by the slamming of an opening door, and a loud screech.
"Jason! I need you, now! Sam, get out." Carly demanded, sure she was going to get what she wanted.
"No, Carly. Get out. This isn't a good time." Carly's jaw dropped; shocked that Jason did not drop everything for her.
"You can't mean that Jason. Look at what that tramp is turning you into. She's making you be unloyal to your friends. Soon, she's going to be running your life. Courtney would never have done that."
"Carly, shut up. You are the one who is trying to make me unloyal – to Sam. Not dropping everything for you does not mean I am not a good friend. It means I have a life outside you, one that's about to crash and burn if I don't fix it. And, as for Courtney, I know you love her, but guess what, I don't anymore. Give it up."
"Fine Jason, but when you come to your senses, I'll be waiting for a big apology!" and with that Carly slammed back out of the penthouse.
"Well, Carly must of hated that." Sam drawled. She was slurring less as she was becoming more sober, but her tongue was still loose to say what she really felt.
"Sam, I love you."
"Oooh! Isn't this supposed to be like, every girl's dream! The first time her boyfriend says he loves her!" Sam sarcastically stated.
"Sam, what are you talking about? I've told you I love you."
"Really, guess I must have missed it. Tell me, when was the last time you told me you love me?" Jason's silence was enough of an answer for both of them.
"But, I thought you just would have known."
"Sometimes, it's nice to be reminded."
"Sam, please."
"No, Jason. I am tired of it! I am tired of being the thing that can be pushed down on your list of priorities. I can almost handle being second best to the business, I can. I mean, it kind of sucks when you think about it closely, being second to money and getting to kill people, but if I don't think about, I can handle it. What I can't handle, Jason, is constantly being second best to another woman. It hurts Jason, every time I have to leave my own home, just to accommodate Carly's needs. I mean, my g-d! The day you fell of the stairs, I went to get you water and you just left me at the hospital!"
"Sam, the only reason I left that was because.."
"I know Jason, to protect Carly. I had to look all over town for you, and big shock, you're at Sonny's!I'm tired of having the only time we spend together, be about Sonny and Carly's problems. And most of all, I'm tired of feeling like your whore. Where in the middle of making love, and then Sonny calls! Ah, just a slight aggravation, right Jason? Just straighten up, maybe get me something nice, and you'll try to come back again to finish up. I am your girlfriend, Jason, not your whore. Not someone you come to, to try to fit sex in – just someone to work off that sexual frustration!" Tears were cascading down Sam's face, but she hardly noticed anymore.
He went over to her, and kneeled in front, placing his hands under her chin, forcing her to look at him. His own tears were starting to fall from his eyes, as he witnessed the hurt Sam felt. "Sam, I am so sorry. I know, that those words don't cut it. I never saw how much I was hurting you and… Sam if I could go back in time, I would throw Sonny and Carly out every time they entered that door, there would thousands of romantic getaways. But I can't change the past, I can't change the fact that it was you who was kicked out instead of Carly, and I can't change that our time together was spent chasing Michael or discussing Sonny and Carly. The only thing I can change is myself, and I'll do it. Please, Sam, give me the chance to change. You are the woman I love, and you are the person who comes first in my life. Now and always, if you'll let me."