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Love Me as I Am

Chapter 33- Control

Successfully, Suki and Yasuo's conversation continued. Both were happy, knowing that it was probably the first time either had taken part in a civilized conversation with a person of the same age and a different gender that they weren't related to.

Suki reached for the soy sauce at the same time Yasuo did. Suki's hand reaching first and Yasuo on top.

Both of them blushed but Yasuo didn't remove his hand. Instead he kept it there on top of Suki's, running his fingers over her skin as she stared at him. She began to feel uneasy as visions of the past flowed into her head. But why did she trust him so much? She barely knew him.

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After creating a comfortable bed for Kuneau out of blankets, Kagome placed her in it and covered her up with yet another blanket.

Inuyasha's ears pricked hearing Miroku and Sango come in.

Sango was still sleeping as Miroku set her down on an empty futon that had been laid out.

"Eventful night?" asked Inuyasha.

Miroku smirked.

"If you want to call it that. She's not feeling too good." he said, pushing her bangs out of her eyes with his hand.

"Is she pregnant again?" Kagome wondered.

Miroku nodded.

"She said she wanted it."

"I see. I think she missed it. It has been fifteen years after all." reasoned Kagome.

"Inuyasha. I was wondering something." said Miroku.

Inuyasha waited.

"Would you be the godfather to our children? And Kagome the godmother? I think Sango and I would feel a bit better knowing if something were to happen to us the children would have somewhere to go."

Inuyasha nodded as Kagome slipped her hand into his.

"Of course we will." Said Kagome as she squeezed Inuyasha's hand reassuringly.

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"I…think I'd better get going…" stuttered Suki.

Yasuo released her hand slowly.

"You're right. It's getting love…I mean…late!"

Suki smiled and nodded as he stood up and went over to pick up Asako who giggled.

"Looks like I'll have to take her with me."

Suki picked up Kuno and headed out the door, Yasuo following close behind.

Tobi transformed and kneeled his front knees down so she could get on. Yasuo climbed on in front of her still holding Asako.

"Fly gently Tobi. We've got a lot of cargo."

Tobi growled in response as he took off.

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From a castle somewhere on the West Side of feudal Japan:

"Master Maromaru failed us, but we will continue to thrive until WE get as powerful as he."

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Trinity smiled.

"I'm going to have a new sibling Kanaye. Did you hear?"

Kanaye smiled.

"Yes. I did."

Trinity hugged him tightly around the waist.

A shrill noise was heard and Kagome looked around.

"W-what's that?"

"What's what?" Inuyasha wondered curiously.

Kagome closed her eyes; her head ringing.

"I-It's a sound…it's so…high…C-Can't you hear it?"

Inuyasha listened but couldn't hear a thing.

Kagome recognized it.

"N-no…not again…G-get away…"

Inuyasha pulled her in front of him and held her shoulders.

"Kagome…what's wrong?"

She held her head as pain seared throughout her body.

'I…I can't control my body…it's just like before…when I was controlled by Maromaru…Inu…yasha…stay…away…'

With all her might she tried to get away from Inuyasha's grasp for fear that she might hurt him as badly as last time…or worse.

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The last time she had been controlled she had run into him on a bridge, and he had embraced her and told her she shouldn't be out in the cold because of her injuries from before. He did not know she was being controlled so when she stabbed him it was as much of a surprise to him as it was to her. She tried her hardest to fight Maromaru's voice in her head telling her to kill Inuyasha but was too weak to stop it. Her body wasn't listening and she was forced to pick up her bow and aim it at Inuyasha, who lay helplessly wounded against the trunk of the Sacred Tree.

She continued to fight the voice but her body did otherwise…and she shot the arrow. Screaming she ran to his aid after the mind control device that had been placed on her forehead was broken and Inuyasha did not die…but there was no mind control device this time. Just a voice…

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"Inu…yasha…" she managed to choke out. He looked scared but she didn't get to see before the voice crept into the whole of her mind and started throwing out the orders again. Her eyes went blank and faded into a light brown color.

It wasn't a male voice this time. Instead a female one who sounded more sinister and malevolent then perhaps even Naraku.

'Kill him.'

Kagome pushed Inuyasha away forcefully but he refused to let go of her.

"Get your claws off of me!" she screamed.

Inuyasha braced himself. His mistake last time was that he had given her too much space…too much room to attack. He wouldn't be so careless this time.

"I won't."

Everyone else in the cabin stared, not knowing what to do. None of them knew about the other incident when Kagome had been controlled. Neither Kagome nor Inuyasha had mentioned it.

Trinity seemed more scared than anyone. She was the youngest there other than Kuneau who, even despite al the commotion, was still sleeping soundly in her next of blankets.

Kilala was becoming restless as she paced the room nervously. She was protective of everyone that lived in the cabin, including Kagome but she couldn't very well attack a foe she couldn't even see. She mewed loudly in frustration.

Kagome's body trembled as she continued to fight the voice in her head. Her body became stronger and she pushed Inuyasha away, loosing her balance a little and staggering as she tried to stand.

"Kagome…don't…" said Inuyasha as he set his hands on her shoulders. She glared at him with those cold lifeless eyes and he backed away a bit.

"Fight it off!" he yelled.

"Shut up you stupid half breed! I HATE you!"

Inuyasha stepped back again, a look of hurt on his face.

'It's not her. She's not doing it…' the thought. In his heart he knew he was correct, but it still hurt to hear her say it.

"Kagome…you can fight it…You haven't lost yet." He said as he inched closer to her, pulling her into an embrace.

Before he had fully closed his arms around her she wriggled free and was able to get to the other side of the cabin where her bow lay, the arrows strewn on the ground beside it.

She picked up an arrow and put it on her bow.

'Inuyasha…move…onegai (please)…I…I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOU!!!!!!!!' she screamed. But no one could hear…no one…but herself.

"Maybe if I let her hit me she'll break free of the control. It worked last time…and I'm still alive." He contemplated out loud.

'No! Inuyasha! It won't work! Run…'

But it was too late, the arrow was released…and no one could stop it.

~*~*~ Okay guys. I know I might get some flames for this. If you don't understand the whole Maromaru thing…that's cause it's part of the first Inuyasha movie "Affections that touch across time". I didn't create Maromaru and the whole bridge sequence really did happen. I read and reread this whole sequence that I wrote (not the bridge) and I think it might have happened a little too fast. Sorry but I had to throw in a new villan…Naraku just doesn't work…he gets old after a while. Don't worry. There will be plenty of fluff to come. I just wanted to take a different road for this chapter. Well, I hope you liked it anyway. ~*~*~ Miyu